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23 September 2008 @ 10:57 am
[Drabble] Darkness is my Shroud - Non-JRock, Kingdom Hearts II, Riku/Sora  
Title: Darkness is My Shroud
Author: Kagome
Prompt: Under the shadows are more shadows and under those shadows is nothing.
Rating: G
Warnings: None? >_> Do mild spoilers count?
Character(s)/Pairing(s): Riku/Sora
Word Count: 458
Notes: Prompt courtesy of Richard Shelton’s ‘Alone’. It’s a very moving poem, in my opinion. Also a bit unusual, but I like it. ^_^ And the prompt I’m using seems really fitting for Riku. Pre-KH2, Post-CoM.

Darkness. That’s all there is here—darkness and nothing. There’s the Heartless, too, but even they blend in almost perfectly, save for their yellow eyes. They both are and are not nothing, and this is their realm.

Riku is here, too, and he supposes that he isn’t nothing either, though he feels like it sometimes in this place. He feels like he blends in perfectly as well, even though he knows that, once upon a time (it feels like it’s been so long ago), he walked in light instead of in darkness. Once upon a time, he also walked the road between.

He doesn’t like it here; he’s never liked it here, really—not even when he’d entered this realm for his own selfish reasons. He isn’t here now because he wants to be. He’s here now because he has to be. He’s here now for Sora. Sora, who has been searching for him. Sora, who is on the other side, in the other realm. Sora, who is sleeping and shrouded in a darkness of a different kind.

Riku wonders if Sora dreams, and if he does dream, if those dreams are in black-and-white or in color. He wonders if Sora dreams about him.

Riku doesn’t dream, even though he sleeps. When he closes his eyes, there is darkness, and when he opens them again, it’s very much the same. It’s still dark. Not even dreams can reach him here.

He has his memories, though. He remembers tousled, spiky brown hair and wide blue eyes and a smile so bright that it would sometimes rival the sun, especially on bad days. He remembers laughter and mock-competitions and he remembers what Sora’s lips had felt like against his own, soft and trusting.

The darkness can’t take his memories from him, and it’s his memories that make this place a little more bearable than it might be otherwise.

Riku will stay here, in this place that can sometimes be like a never-ending nightmare, until he finds a way to wake Sora up. He knows he can do it—he has to, because he doesn’t want to imagine the realm of light without Sora in it, safe and awake and smiling.

Maybe, when Sora is whole (not just half of himself) and no longer in his deep slumber, Riku will go back. Maybe he won’t need the darkness anymore and he’ll be able to walk again in the light. Maybe he’ll get another chance to feel Sora’s hand in his own again, because that’s one of the things he misses most of all—Sora’s touch.

Maybe he’ll be able to have the real thing again, instead of just memories of what the real thing had felt like once upon a time.

Wow. I enjoy writing Riku almost as much as I enjoy writing Axel. XD Go figure.

Of course, this story takes place after CoM—after Riku discovers that Sora is sleeping, and after he’s already lost the fight with Roxas. We know that, at some point between then and KH2, he takes on the form of Ansem in order to defeat Roxas. This is just my little take on his feelings about the Dark realm, and darkness in general.
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KitsuneSam: Ruki- Cockroachkitsunesam on September 23rd, 2008 03:43 pm (UTC)
Aw. ♥
Kagome_newworld on September 24th, 2008 02:32 am (UTC)
Yay! <3 Thank you for reading. ^_^
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Kagome_newworld on September 24th, 2008 02:34 am (UTC)
*blushes* Thank you so much. I'm happy that you enjoyed the read. ^_______^
月子bubblegumtotchi on September 23rd, 2008 09:13 pm (UTC)
This is... is... is... *squishes Riku* So much emotion that comes through, even as short as it is. I love this. *__*

Wow. I enjoy writing Riku almost as much as I enjoy writing Axel. XD Go figure.

Everybody calls me crazy for my theory on Riku and Axel. :P
Kagome_newworld on September 24th, 2008 02:37 am (UTC)
*cuddles* You always let me know whether I attained my goal with my fics and drabbles. XD I wanted the emotion to come through here, even with such few words. I am so glad you like it. ^______________^ <33333

What's your theory? I once had this idea that maybe Axel is Riku's Nobody, but... eh. Doesn't work, because Riku was never turned into a Heartless, and Axel's name doesn't equal Riku in any way, not like Roxas' name is the same as Sora's (only mixed around, and with an 'x' added, but that's how it is with all Nobodies, right?). So much for my theory. *LOL*
月子bubblegumtotchi on September 24th, 2008 02:42 am (UTC)
Actually, that was my thinking, too. Cuz... Okay, see, Riku took on Ansem's form, so he really wasn't a Nobody at that point. But then, if Ansem was a heartless/nobody and Riku took his form, then there's still room for Riku to have a Nobody, which was where Axel (Axel... Ansem? Similarities? o_O) came in as Riku's Nobody. And... yeah... it makes a LOT more sense in my head. LOL
Kagome: Death Note - Look Pornkagome_angel on September 24th, 2008 04:09 pm (UTC)
*in fits of giggls at own icon because I fail* Well, not my icon. I didn't make it, but it's funny. XD

Well, lessee. Ansem's a Heartless, and Xemnas is his Nobody... But, I dunno. The thing with that is, Ansem isn't the real Ansem, because DiZ is the real Ansem the Wise, so what confuses me is that Xemnas is 'Ansem's' Nobody. *babbles* I'm not making sense, either. ^^;;;

It would make a lot of sense if Axel were Riku's Nobody--it would explain why Axel is so strongly drawn to Roxas (and then to Sora), but Axel looks nothing like Riku (Roxas and Sora look very much alike), and the fake Ansem and Xemnas look very much alike... so, meh. XD I don't know. Hopefully they will explain more about it in 358/2 Days. I would absolutely love to see more AkuRoku-ness. ^________^

月子bubblegumtotchi on September 24th, 2008 04:54 pm (UTC)
*giggles* It's cute. XD'

*pets* It's okay. I understand what you mean. Cuz, yeah, that's where I get all lost and confused, too. Cuz, okay, is DiZ REALLY a Heartless or is there another fake!Ansem Heartless running around? And then where does that leave Axel in the equation? Cuz... if he's NOT Riku's Nobody, then there's an Axel!Nobody running around somewhere and... WHO THE HELL IS HE???

It does make sense that he'd be Riku's Nobody, yeah. It would explain the connections. Plus, while they look nothing alike, their mannerisms and movements are incredibly similar. So yeah, I'm torn. It's the only thing that makes sense, and yet, there are so many problems with the whole theory.

(and *randomly snuggles you* You're the first person that I've talked to about this theory that thought the same way... everybody else just laughed at me T^T)

mishy, or eli, or Liz, just pick one♥: ♥  all we need ♥mishiru_shi on September 24th, 2008 01:30 am (UTC)
♥ ♥
damn you ;___;

Do you enjoy writing Riku? Well I enjoy reading you writing about him and the pairing ♥
Your style it's so special, I really see your descriptions in the character, I think it's really near to my own feelings toward him
Thank you so much for writing this good things
Kagome_newworld on September 24th, 2008 02:41 am (UTC)
Your comment made me smile like a goofball. ^_^ <3333 I'm glad you liked the style I used for this little drabble (I've been writing fics since I was fourteen - I'm twenty-three now - and I still haven't come up with names for the different styles I use *LOL*). It seemed very fitting, to write Riku like this, and I'm glad that I am not the only one who feels this way. :)

You're very welcome. And thank you so much for reading and leaving such a sweet comment. <3333
mishy, or eli, or Liz, just pick one♥: ñam!mishiru_shi on September 24th, 2008 02:43 am (UTC)
and thank you for understanding my crappy English ;__;
Kagome_newworld on September 24th, 2008 02:51 am (UTC)
Your English is very good! *hugs*
emotionalspazz on September 24th, 2008 02:55 am (UTC)

Poor guy. D:
Kagome_newworld on September 24th, 2008 02:59 am (UTC)
I don't know what it is about your icon, but it makes me giggle because it looks like it's just... like, "NOOOOOOOOOO!" XD *easily amused*

*cuddles Riku, and then cuddles you for reading* ^_^
emotionalspazz on September 24th, 2008 01:34 pm (UTC)
^^; I use that icon for "noooo" matters xD
Kagome_newworld on September 24th, 2008 04:00 pm (UTC)
Oh, well. That makes sense. XD *doofus*