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07 October 2006 @ 10:20 pm
Transition (Chapter Eleven: Sore de ii n'dayo) - Miyavi/Reita  
Title: Transition
Author: Kagome
Chapters: 11/11
Theme: This chapter is based on theme #41 – Sleep
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: Miyavi (solo)/Reita (Gazette)
Disclaimer: Standard disclaimer applies. You ought to know it by now. XD
Summary: When Reita thinks his life is just fine the way it is, Miyavi steps in and turns his entire world completely upside down.
Comments: *le sigh* The last chapter. I do believe this is my pride and joy – my favorite Reiyavi fic that I’ve written thus far, if not my favorite fic I’ve EVER written. I had so much fun writing this fic, and I’ve enjoyed reading your comments and receiving such wonderful feedback from you guys. Thank you SO much. *Hugs all* I’m not going to really give a summary of this chapter, because it’s the last one. XD It’s fairly short, but I wanted it to end like this. No, I’m not finished writing Reiyavi fics – I still have a good many of the themes left to write for 50stories. ^_^ Also, I will be writing a little sidestory for this fic from Miyavi’s POV, and for those of you who are fans of Ruki and Kai in this fic (and keep asking when they’re gonna get together XD)… well, after reading this, I do hope that you’ll do a little happy dance or something like that (smile, at least ^_~). This isn’t the last you’ll see of those two, either, as I am writing a sidestory for them as well. *Laughs* Anyway, enough of my babbling. Get to reading, and have fun~! I know I most definitely had fun writing. I feel sorta… sad now, if that makes sense. Sad to see this fic end. But alas, all things must end. :/ Written, of course, for 50stories.

Chapter One: The Beginning
Chapter Two: Heat
Chapter Three: Transgression
Chapter Four: Avarice
Chapter Five: Loathing?
Chapter Six: Friends With Benefits
Chapter Seven: Deny, Deny, Deny
Chapter Eight: Torn Apart
Chapter Nine: Breakdown
Chapter Ten: Rainy Days

Chapter Eleven: Sore de ii n'dayo

I love to watch him sleep. When Miyavi is sleeping, it’s almost like he’s someone completely different, and yet, I know he’s exactly the same as he always is. When he is sleeping, every single one of his defenses is dropped, and any stress or worry that he might have to deal with in waking hours dissipates. He is unguarded – completely open.

I told him once how he looks when he sleeps. He replied that the only other time he feels that way – completely at ease and worry-free – is when he’s around me.

After he told me that, I decided to do what I believed would be best for both of us: I moved in with him. I left my own place behind, and moved into Miyavi’s apartment. It’s kinda small, but it’s plenty big enough for the two of us (well, the three of us, if you count Tsumire).

Uruha once suggested that Miyavi and I move out of the apartment and find a bigger one – one in another part of town, perhaps. It’s a sensible idea, of course. However, if the size of the apartment were a problem, I could have simply invited Miyavi to move in with me instead of doing things the other way around. Like I’ve already said, the size of the apartment isn’t a problem at all. Miyavi has emotional ties to his apartment; there’s no way I would ask him to leave it, not unless he himself truly wanted to. That is why I moved in with him.

It’s a little amusing how things fell into place so easily when we started living together. I don’t ask Miyavi to be the ‘little wifey’ of our home, nor does he ask that of me. We share the task of cleaning the apartment; Miyavi does the mopping, while I do the vacuuming (what little has to be done). We take turns cleaning the bathroom. We take turns making up the bed. We share the task of doing the laundry. I’m not the best cook in the world, and neither is Miyavi (though he is a much better cook than me). When one of us cooks, the other does the dishes. Take-out and restaurants are sometimes our salvation.

We’ve been together – well, together officially - for just over two years. In that span of time, I’ve watched Miyavi… well, I really don’t know how to say it any differently, but I’ve watched him grow up, in a sense. He’s still the same person that I fell in love with, only he’s more mature now – more grown-up. Of course, he still has absolutely silly moments – moments when I believe he just might snap like a rubber band and go bouncing all around the room with his pent-up energy.

He’s not always all smiles. There are days when he gets depressed, and there are days when he pushes himself too hard in order to get everything finished by the deadlines that he sets for himself. There are days when he comes home nearly in tears after a practice or recording session doesn’t go as well as he would have liked for it to go. I am there for him on those days too, just like he’s there for me when I have bad days. That’s part of what being in a relationship is all about – being there for each other. I wouldn’t change it for anything.

Miyavi isn’t exactly a morning person, and neither am I. However, at barely half past seven, I am wide awake. I don’t know what’s caused me to wake, but it doesn’t really matter. I feel well-rested and ready to face the day, though I’m honestly not yet quite ready to leave the warmth of the bed or the company of my lover. Instead of bothering to get out of bed, I shift, propping my elbow on the mattress and resting my chin on the palm of my hand; I gaze at Miyavi’s sleeping face, and feel my own features soften. I am the only one who has the opportunity to see him like this. I am truly lucky.

I reach out with my other hand, lightly tracing my fingers over the curve of his cheek. Miyavi stirs and opens his eyes, blinking at me sleepily before a smile spreads across his face. “Good morning,” he says, his voice rough with sleep.

The sleep-roughened sound of his voice does things to me. You have no idea. I force myself to behave and not think dirty thoughts, and I feel a smile tug at my own lips. I don’t try to stop it. “Good morning,” I reply, my own voice sounding sleep-roughened but not half as good as his. “I woke you, didn’t I?”

“Yeah, you did, but it’s okay.” Miyavi stretches a little and then looks at the digital clock on the table beside the bed. “Why are you awake so early?”

I shrug as best as I can while in the position that I am currently in. “I have no clue.”

“But you decided that you would savor a little Miyavi-watching while you could, huh?” he asks, grinning.

“Yeah. Miyavi-watching’s my favorite, don’t you know?” I reach for him, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him as close to me as possible. “It’s too early to be awake… Why don’t we go back to sleep for another hour or so? It’s Saturday. We don’t have anything to do today. So, we can sleep a while longer, and then we can uhm… try to make breakfast.”

Miyavi snorts softly. “The sleep sounds really good. Not so sure about breakfast, though. Last time, you got pancakes stuck to the ceiling.”

I roll my eyes discreetly. “I don’t suppose that’s any worse than practically blowing up the toaster. How do you manage to blow up a toaster?”

“The same way you manage to get pancakes on the ceiling, I suppose,” Miyavi replies matter-of-factly. “We’re just special like that, you and me. If anything can possibly go wrong cooking-wise, we make sure it goes wrong.”

I can’t help but laugh even though it is rather sad to know just how correct his statement is. “At least we haven’t set the kitchen on fire yet.”

“We’ll work our way up to that eventually,” Miyavi says, and then yawns. “Right… time to go back to sleep. If our breakfast turns out awful, we’ll order breakfast or something and then have sex on the kitchen floor, which is probably better than any breakfast from anywhere, anyway.”

What does sex on the kitchen floor have to do with breakfast, you ask? Absolutely nothing, but it sure is a hell of a lot of fun. “Yeah, we’ll do that. Now go back to sleep.”

Miyavi is asleep again within moments, but it takes me a little longer to go back to sleep. I suppose I’m too busy thinking – too busy pondering over just how lucky I am to have Miyavi, and how things have changed since he’s been in my life. My bandmates were right back when they told me that I seemed happier with Miyavi. I was happier with him. I am happier with him.

In the beginning, I was reluctant to have even a one-night stand with Miyavi. What was supposed to be a one-night stand turned into something much more. Kai and Ruki jokingly ask me every once in a while when Miyavi and I are getting married (Miyavi and I often reply with the very same question, and Ruki and Kai don’t seem to mind it at all… then again, I don’t suppose they would since they’ve been together themselves for nearly half a year). The truth of the matter is that I can imagine spending the rest of my life with him – marriage or no marriage (homosexual marriages aren’t allowed in Japan). I want to spend the rest of my life with him.

To this very day, I have the urge to tell Aoi, “You know, Aoi-chan, you were right. You said he might be ‘the one’, and he is.”

Our relationship hasn’t always been easy, as you know by now. Relationships take work, after all, and there will always be challenges to face. Thus far, we’ve faced every single one and we’ve overcome them.

It’s true that our relationship hasn’t exactly been a ‘fairy tale romance’ (where’s the fun in that, anyway?), but I do believe that there will be at least one fairy tale element in our story.

You see, I believe that we’re going to have our own ‘happily ever after’. I’m certain that we’re working our way towards that perfect ending, in any case.

But as I continue to watch him sleep, and as I notice that serene smile on his face, I think that maybe – just maybe – we’ve already achieved our ‘happily ever after’.

He snuggles just a little closer, I tighten my hold on him slightly, and I am almost positive that this is our happily ever after – our perfect ending.

“It’s good just like this.”

“Sore de ii n'dayo.”


Author’s Note: The ending ties in with the beginning… I mean, Reita’s whole distaste for clichés. ^_^ Notice how he uses one of his own here, at the end.

And also, the title of this chapter and the lyrics at the end (which are the same) come from Itoshii Hito. I believed that that particular phrase fit the end perfectly.

I hope you guys enjoyed this. Thank you all so much for reading and sending me such nice comments and sticking with this fic, even though I would sometimes wonder if particular chapters were even WORTH reading. XDXD;;;;

Again, thank you.
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§öNGþ!Яd81818818 on October 8th, 2006 03:11 am (UTC)
*flailsquee!* ♥♥♥♥♥

...yay for coherent comments BUT I LOVED THIS TO BITS AND PIECES and now I'm all squeeful and bouncyhappy inside. xDDD

Kagome_newworld on October 8th, 2006 03:17 am (UTC)
Hello darling. ^_______^ <3 I'm so glad that you liked this. *Snugglepurr* I wanted it to end this way, and it seems to have made you quite glad that I did it like this. XD Thank you so much.

*loves on you*
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Kagome_newworld on October 8th, 2006 03:26 am (UTC)
Thank you very much. ^________^
予期_yoki_ on October 8th, 2006 03:27 am (UTC)
*leaps upon* OH MY GOD

*has no words for anything but LOVE*

Let's try a bit of coherency, shall we...?
1). I loved this fic from the beginning, and
2). this ending seems almost -too- perfectly sappy and
3). it makes me want to give you all sorts of pointless, completely incoherent comments
4). because you are just SO DAMN AWESOME.

Kagome_newworld on October 8th, 2006 03:36 am (UTC)
*has blushed the color of a tomato* And now I am completely incoherent myself. *LOL* All I can think to say is thank you so SO much for such a wonderful comment! *catches you* I am so very glad that you enjoyed this, and I hope that you'll stick around. I thoroughly enjoy reading your comments. ^________^

*Cuddles you lots*

gothprincess666: REITA LICK YO FACEmolokomolotov on October 8th, 2006 03:32 am (UTC)
Iam glad how this ended I really enjoyed it ♥
Kagome_newworld on October 8th, 2006 03:39 am (UTC)
I'm glad that you did, dear. ^_^ Thank you very very much!
Ria: This is lovevonilicious on October 8th, 2006 05:59 am (UTC)
So sweet!!!
Kagome_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:17 pm (UTC)
^_______^ Thank you!
★ the black sheepeatyou_alive on October 8th, 2006 07:59 am (UTC)
awww happy endings T-T *worships* this is one of my favourite fics, featuring my two favourite guys~ *loves you forever* XDDD
Kagome: Bedroom eyes - Chantrea_Johari_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:20 pm (UTC)
*blushes* Thank you so much! ^_________^ *loves on you* I'm very glad that you liked ths!
drunkelnattdrunkelnatt on October 8th, 2006 09:19 am (UTC)
ah, i'm sad that this ended but yaaaaaaay for them~~! and ruki and kai!! now THAT i'd like to see how they'd work... ruki and kai... mmmm...

*sends you some love*
Kagome: New World - Milkyway_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:22 pm (UTC)
Oh, you're going to see how they work, alright. ^_^ Or at least how they get together. XD;;; I just had to do it - they wouldn't leave me alone, the greedy little bastards. *LOL*

And thank you so much for reading! *Sends some love to you too*
fujipuri: miyavifujipuri on October 8th, 2006 09:43 am (UTC)
*tackles and glomps you to the floor* YAY!!!! It's such a beautiful serene ending!! I actually just watched Itoshii Hito PV again last night and ohhh.. somehow the moment where Miyavi sleeps at the end, reminds me of the ending of the PV too.

I'm in love with this pairing because of your fic! XD
Kagome: Avarice - Melancholnista_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:26 pm (UTC)
*Cuddles you lots* Thank you so much. ^______^ And heh... that PV makes me cry every single time I watch it. ^^;

This is definitely an odd pairing, and I was a bit iffy about it before I actually wrote my first fic for them. Now I'm like "REIYAVI! *SQUEE*" ^______^
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Kagome_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:28 pm (UTC)
Aww thank you! *Cuddles you* I'm so glad that this fic satisfied you. ^_^

And hee~. Kai and Ruki wouldn't leave me alone, so I started writing a little fic for them, too. Just a fic that tells how they got together, cos they're a couple of greedy bastards that won't take no for an answer. XD;;
BG: Rukilrigelbbub on October 8th, 2006 10:41 am (UTC)
Wah...I missed the last chapter and almost missed this one too -_-; I dunno where my brain goes sometimes o.O
But....anyways...I luff this fic uber lots!! It was fun to read and sucked me in....i like the 'transistion' Reita [and Miyavi too] goes through and i liked your characterisations! I just liked it heaps ^^
And the mention of Kai and Ruki^o^ *squishes*
be safe
Kagome: Bedroom eyes - Chantrea_Johari_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:33 pm (UTC)
*Cuddles* Well, the good thing is that you can always catch up. ^_^ I'm very glad that you liked this, and I'm glad that you understand the reason for the title. ^_^ I thought it fit the fic quite well. I am also very glad that you liked the characterizations; I was SO nervous with some of these chapters... well, such as the first one, when introducing Reita. Then I was wondering if I did Miyavi okay, and I thought people would get the wrong idea about Uruha, and then I wondered how people would react to how insane Kai and Ruki are. *LOL* The only one I wasn't really worried about was Aoi, at least, until his big part in chapter nine. XD; Then I was like "SSLDKFJOIJEOGIJE!!! DID I WRITE HIM WELL ENOUGH???"

*Is a retard*

And I'm babbling. XD Thank you so much, dear!
Ujeloujelo on October 8th, 2006 10:58 am (UTC)
Yeah. >.< You got me.

I have had this strange I-don't-like-Miyavi-much-season, but this fic definitely change that. o.o
Just, just. Fucking awesome, if I say it like I really think. XD I stuck in this fic always when I read first lines of a chapter, and there you go, I almost drool through the hole part.
It was funny, it was sad, it was giggly and most of all - it was adorable. Thanks very much. :3
Kagome_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:36 pm (UTC)
T___________________T No, no! Thank YOU so much for such a nice comment! *cling* I'm so glad that you liked this fic... It was a rather important step for me, I think. Heh.

And I love your icon muchly. *_____*
yueyue_yue on October 8th, 2006 11:44 am (UTC)
"If anything can possibly go wrong cooking-wise, we make sure it goes wrong.” XD, Murphy's law! my favorite one^^..ok, I try to be coherent:

this fanfic was the best I've ever read and it's sad that that was the last chapter. hope you'll update soon with your side-story.

why is it that i always have nosebleed or I faint after reading your fanfics..and then I go crazy waiting for the update?.....I need Dr. House.
Kagome_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:42 pm (UTC)
I just had to stick that in there. XD It seemed so like them. ^_^

*Cuddles you* I cannot thank you enough for such a compliment. I... I really wouldn't know where to start. *LOL* Just... thank you so much. And I hope to update soon.

Whoo! Doctor House~~~! You're a House fan, too? ^__________^ *gives you lots of extra bonus points*
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sakuresu on October 8th, 2006 12:08 pm (UTC)
I just read chapter ten and now eleven in one go and.. and... man. it can't end here! ,__, the end of eleven made me all emotional and somehow happy xD

great, really. it is quite a bit of work to make me like a unusual pairing like that but hell, you managed it perfectly.
Kagome_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:45 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry. :/ But I think this is all I can possibly write for this fic! *LOL* I mean... it works, like this. The end, I mean. ^_^

I'm glad it made you emotional and happy. That was my point. ^_^

And haha, yes, it takes quite a bit of work to make such an odd pairing work. I'm happy that you believe I've made it work so well. Thank you!
Madziaste: Zero ^^madziak on October 8th, 2006 12:39 pm (UTC)
That ficcy was love ^______^ It's probably one of my favourite fics out there... thank you very much for writing it like this ^__^
Kagome_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:47 pm (UTC)
You're welcome, dear. ^________^ And thank you very much for reading and commenting!
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Kagome_newworld on October 10th, 2006 07:47 pm (UTC)
<3<3<3! Thank you!!!