Tags: underneath the weight of it all

[spn] dean - look away from me.

fic: love, save the empty (j2, R)

Let's celebrate Valentine's Day with some angst, shall we?

Title: love, save the empty
Author: _mournthewicked
Pairing: Jared Padalecki/Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, Sam Winchester
Rating: R
Word Count: ~ 20,000
Disclaimer: Look up the word ‘fiction’ in the dictionary. You will not find a picture of this story, but the definition of the word ‘fiction’, which this is.
Warnings: An unusual amount of angst from me. (But trust me. I’ll fix your heart after I break it.)
Summary: It’s not what brought him to Jared. Nothing but pure, all consuming love did that, but it might have been what kept him sane when everything else seemed hopeless. And now, it might be what ends it all. (This is a sequel to underneath the weight of it all, and it will make no sense if you haven’t read that.)

Notes: This was written for kazminka, who won me over at help_haiti with an incredible bid. I hope you like it! This was kind of a tough one to write. Same as with the first story, I am not a psychologist or a doctor, so please forgive me any inaccuracies. I did my own art, yay! Massive thanks to my beta, kamikaze_redux. ♥


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[spn] winchesters - sweet nothings.

fic: underneath the weight of it all (j2, adult.) master post.

And, here it is! The fastest I have ever written and posted a fic, ever. Inspired by this post that I made ten days ago (massive spoilers for fic!). I'm like a machine.

Title: underneath the weight of it all
Author: _mournthewicked
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: Adult.
Warnings: Angst, mentions of graphic violence, dub-con. And also schmoop?
Word Count: ~ 31,000
Disclaimer: This is not real. Fiction, people.
Summary: Jared stopped trying to fit all the broken pieces of himself back together a long time ago. But then he meets Jensen, and he thinks it might be time to try again.
Notes: First off, massive thanks to my beta kamikaze_redux. It really came in handy that she just happens to be a psych major. On that note, even though I did lots of research, I am not a psychologist. So all of the details of Jared's condition may not be textbook, but I tried! Also, much love to my cheerleaders: twofourteen, finn21, and ifyouweremine. I love you bunches and it's very possible I stole funny things from all of you. Title taken with much love from Matt Nathanson. Enjoy!

Art by the amazing finn21.


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