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11 June 2010 @ 06:09 pm
fic: a spotlight on these desolate dreams; music and notes  
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a spotlight on these desolate dreams; the music

This story was very vivid in my head as I was writing. It played out very much like a movie down to the lighting, the cut-aways and reveals, and of course, the music cues. Not gonna lie, I'm pretty bummed that this movie will never actually exist, but still. Hopefully you guys will enjoy the music that the pretend movie in my head was set to. ;)

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o1; Cleo Jones; Why Don't You Do Right
       Why don't you do right like some other men do?
       Get out of here and get me some money too

o2; Rufus Wainwright; Shadows
       I could be a great star
       Still I'm far from happy
       Out of these shadows
       Comes the light

o3; I Am Kloot; Coincidence
       Life may have just come to bury me
       But I'm not afraid of what I see
       I'm not afraid of the world

o4; Nouvelle Vague; Escape Myself
       All my problems look larger than life
       I can't swallow another slice
       Seems like my shadow marks every stride
       Can't learn to live with what's stuck inside
       I can't escape myself

o5; Lenka; Trouble Is A Friend
       He's there in the dark
       He's there in my heart
       He waits in the wings
       He's gotta play a part
       Trouble is a friend
       Yeah, trouble is a friend of mine

o6; The Hush Sound; The Boys Are Too Refined
       And if the timing is right to sneak off into the night,
       I'll let myself be taken just for the thrill.

o7; Head Automatica; Young Hollywood
       Hollywood at night
       Hanging around
       If this is a must
       Then dying is a must right now

o8; Stars; Take Me To the Riot
       Come closer, you'll see me
       The face that is used to telling lies

o9; Something Corporate; Wait
       Wish I could wait to hear to hear your heartbeat fast
       I wish I could wait to see you shaking
       My days are numbered here
       And I don't want to be the last one home

10; Radiohead; Talk Show Host
       You want me, well fucking come and find me
       I'll be waiting with a gun and a pack of sandwiches

11; OK Go; Invincible
       When they finally come to destroy the earth
       They’ll have to go through you first
       And I bet they won't be expecting that

12; Lady Gaga; Paparazzi
       Baby, you'll be famous
       Chase you down until you love me
       Papa, paparazzi

13; PJ Harvey; This Mess We're In
       And I have seen the sunrise
       Over the river, the freeway
       Reminding of this mess we're in and
       The city sun sets over me

14; The Perishers; Let There Be Morning
       Hello future, goodbye past
       Now each breath can be my last
       Will I see another dawn?
       Will I be reborn?

a spotlight on these desolate dreams; the author's notes

I am not really sure where to begin here. This story has really been a journey. Back on January 6th of this year, I posted this in my journal: "I think I have an idea for my big bang. It's basically like, if Veronica Mars, Sherlock Holmes, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, and Psych all got together and had a baby, and that baby grew up to be gay, it'd be this fic." And that's.. not what happened. Sort of, but not really. This thing took on a mind of its own and I was unable to keep it in check. The story that was written wasn't exactly the story that I intended to write. The victim wasn't the original victim, the murderer wasn't the original murderer, and the ending wasn't the original ending. This thing put me through the ringer.

One thing is certain. If it weren't for kamikaze_redux and woodstarling, this story would not exist. They were my support system through this whole crazy thing, from the moment where I got the idea and thought it was too far out of my comfort zone and they told me to go for it all the way up until now. Both of them let me ramble because they know that sometimes the only way I can work through something is to talk it out. They were there for me, plain and simple. They never stopped encouraging me, and this story is something new and different and completely out of my mold, and I'm proud of it. So, thanks to my girls for never letting me quit. You both are simply amazing. ♥

I did a lot of research for this story. Not to mention the sleuthathons that me and woodstarling had. If you have me friended, I'm sure you remember all the delirious, caffeine-fueled updates. This story isn't based off of any one thing. I came up with the plot all on my own, but it was definitely inspired by many works. I would say Kiss Kiss Bang Bang and Veronica Mars really influenced me, but here is an abridged list of all the movies we watched to help get my creative juices flowing: The aforementioned KKBB and Veronica Mars, Brick, Lucky Number Slevin, The Black Dahlia, Hollywoodland, Chinatown, The Usual Suspects, The Big Lebowski, L.A. Confidential, The Maltese Falcon, Out of the Past, and various others.

I also bought a book called Writing the Private Eye Novel: A Handbook By the Private Eye Writers of America, no lie. That's actually the title. I also had a very wonderful local police detective on hand to ask about police procedure. He let me ramble about this fictional sleuthalecki and answered all my various texts about little minute details that I doubt anyone actually even cares about. He's obviously not reading this, but thanks, Detective Greg. You're the man!

Long story made not very short, I am proud of the work that I did on this story. One of my goals for this year was to right something completely out of my comfort zone, and this is it. It was definitely an interesting journey, and I hope that you all enjoyed the finished product. ♥
woodstarling on June 12th, 2010 02:25 am (UTC)

Nessa--The Smite Faerie: Big Bang Nervous Breakdownpeppervl on June 12th, 2010 03:47 am (UTC)
Your ramblings had me excited about this story from the first moment you started talking about it, and this totally lived up to it.
...fromyourashes on June 12th, 2010 04:51 pm (UTC)
Grabbing from SS, thank you.
Lizzy, a harmless lecher and pyromaniac: Big Bangwicked_liz on June 12th, 2010 05:54 pm (UTC)
Nice OST, definitely snaggin'.

I totally got the KKBB vibe with Jared's character, serious yet built on an archetype as well, making it fun for me.

The Hollywood glitter was definitely there.
katbcollkatbcoll on June 13th, 2010 12:08 am (UTC)
snagging the soundtrack.
kazminka: priestly peace outkazminka on June 13th, 2010 03:50 am (UTC)
I am also bummed that this is not a movie, because there really should be Jared in a fedora somewhere in real life ;D
(no subject) - beadslut on June 13th, 2010 04:32 am (UTC) (Expand)
"Smokin' hot.": Paddywhackles from Lizwithout_me on June 13th, 2010 06:01 am (UTC)
I thoroughly enjoyed this; thank you so much for sharing it!
the lollipop of mediocrity: (JarednJensen) tongue!porn & eyesecksingkilynn16 on June 14th, 2010 07:32 am (UTC)
DLing from Sendspace. Thank you!

I really, really need to rewatch L.A. Confidential now. Re-imagining Jared in the Russell Crowe part and Jensen in the Kim Basinger part, of course. :D
adventuresofsamadventuresofsam on June 22nd, 2010 02:24 pm (UTC)
Just a quick note to let you know that this story rocked!!!

I haven't watched any of the shows/movies you mentioned in the notes but I might now :-)

And with that, I'm off to bed cause I've stayed up to finish this and it's almost 1am :-P

Just, um, YAY YOU!!!!
Jennysailorstarshine on July 3rd, 2010 05:12 am (UTC)
The story was amazing, full of drama and mystery. XD I love SUPERSLEUTH!Jared. :3 and the music matched it perfectly.