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16 September 2009 @ 09:27 pm
fic: as this sunset turns to morning (master post)  
Title: as this sunset turns to morning
Author: _mournthewicked
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~ 86,000
Warnings: Teenage angst of the existential kind, slight religious themes, and a healthy dose of schmoop.
Disclaimer: Not the slightest bit real.
Summary: Jensen spends his life hiding who he is from the family that would never accept him if they knew. When he’s uprooted in the middle of his senior year and suddenly becomes the new kid, his carefully placed mask begins to slip. Especially when he meets Jared – a loud, outspoken spectacle of a boy that fights for everything Jensen was taught to stand against. Jared has no problem going after what he wants, and now it’s just a matter of Jensen letting himself do the same.

Notes: Massive amounts of love go out to my incredible beta kamikaze_redux. I think I owe her my first born for this one, seriously. This story is dedicated to both her and the always amazing starweather. Any art you see throughout this story is all her. ♥

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 / Part 8 / Part 9 / Epilogues
Soundtrack / Notes & Art
pdf / podfic
shaneo6930shaneo6930 on September 18th, 2011 03:40 am (UTC)
I've been a fan of yours ever since I first read the very first Reinventing Love story back when it was first published. Somehow, I had missed this wonderful story. I stayed up until 4AM reading it, smiling, laughing, crying, and growing red with rage at times. I'm happy to have downloaded the PDF so I can pull it up and read it anytime. You have quickly become one of my favorite J2 authors. Thanks for the great read!
sothcwedensothcweden on November 1st, 2011 11:37 pm (UTC)
I listened to the podfic of this story and it really blew me away. I adored Jared's mom in this, and her scenes with the boys were actually my favorite in the story because she's warm and nurturing but not a pushover. And the second epilogue really satisfied my desire to know what happens to beloved characters in the future. Thanks for all the work I know you put into this!
dossierdossier on December 2nd, 2011 09:18 pm (UTC)
I cried. repeatedly, actually. gorgeous story, with a happy ending that doesn't forget the hurt/schism that started the ball rolling.
Cookiecookieswafting on December 25th, 2011 06:08 pm (UTC)
I have officially finished reading the whole thing. Those who haven't, beware of spoilers in this very comment :) here we go:


I don't even know what to say. This is one of the best J2 fics I've ever read, if not the best.

I loved everything about this, just everything - no need to list it all here. But I have to give you extra extra extra bonus points for the fact that even though you based your story on one of the saddest things going on in the real world (thousands of gay teens going through the exact same thing Jen here is), you still kept it very positive and happy. Sure, reading the parts about Jensen and his parents and his insecurities broke my heart into tiny tiny pieces but, where so many writers so easily slip into the deep hole of hopeless angst, you had Jared there for Jensen, dragging him (and the story!) back from the despair by being honest and supportive in an amazing way, letting some of the sunlight back into their world.

So many times I feared you were gonna take it where the story usually goes - to misunderstandings and pure angst and frustration, the cliche way of bringing tears into readers' eyes, but you surprised me every time. I do appreciate a good dose of hurt & comfort, but this.. just when I braced myself for things to go really wrong and J&J breaking up or hurting each other just because Jensen just couldn't do it anymore, it all turned back to being something amazingly sweet and fragile, yet so very strong. It's magic, really, how you could possibly turn such a tragic subject into pure, heart-clenching SCHMOOP.

I'm thinking your perfect writing of Jared just saved the whole story. Without his courage & beyond-his-years-wisdom & amazing dorkiness it could've all gone down to Road Cliche.

I don't know if you get what I'm trying to say - I'm not a native English speaker and sometimes it seems impossible to express myself the way I'd like to :)

Anyway, thanks for making my dullish Christmas holiday nights so much better. I've giggled (Chad's lavender shirt scene!) and squeed out loud in the wee hours of the night at my parents' house, and buried my face into my pillow to hide my sobs (Jensen's room waiting for him at the Padalecki house!). I love having feelings that strong and I can't, I just can't believe it's actually "just" fan fiction that makes me feel this way.

I can't imagine why you (and a few other fic writers) aren't like, published authors, filthy rich, succesful and way too busy to give our little J2 slash fandom what we so desperately need. LUCKY US. ..or maybe you are by now.

If I ever win the lottery, I'll be spending all those millions on my own movie. Would you like to be my screenwriter, creating perfect roles for two handsome, talented, awesome Texan actors by any chance?

durzoblint24 on January 10th, 2012 07:18 am (UTC)
OMG it is so wonderful I loved every minute
heyheykaytayyheyheykaytayy on February 11th, 2012 11:15 pm (UTC)
oh my god this is seriously one of the best fics I've ever read. Love is the biggest understatement ever. Such amazing work, the story you've written is just incredible. My only regret is that I didn't read it sooner :)
timepiece on November 8th, 2012 05:13 pm (UTC)
This is one of my favorite fics ever. I read it over and over, and send it to my friends.

I converted it to epub and mobi (for Nook and Kindle), if you would like to post the links. I haven't posted them anywhere.

I even managed to insert the cute chocolate kiss banners!

VodouBluevodou_blue on May 14th, 2013 08:22 pm (UTC)
I heart this fic sooooooo much!

Dunno why it took me so long to get around to reading it (been meaning to for years) *facepalm*

This just got added to my 'reread a lot' list. *hug* Thanks for a kick-ass story.
cappy712cappy712 on November 3rd, 2016 04:56 pm (UTC)
Great story, loved it the second time around (first read in 2011 and found it again). Thank you for sharing.
Deb Fleming MorrisseyDeb Fleming Morrissey on March 27th, 2019 02:16 pm (UTC)
I just want you to know that this is one of my very favorite stories. I stopped reading SPN and J2 6 or 7 years ago, but I still re-read this one at least once or twice a year. It's one of my comfort re-reads. The characters are so well-rounded, and the description of their emotional battles rings so true.