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[20 Jan 2005|12:42am]
[ mood | enraged ]

Throughout everything, I shouldn't regret this, but I do. I regret more things than any of you could ever imagine.

Due to a complete lack of maturity, and the absolute pain it causes me to try to be professional IC, I must regretfully leave this RP. I thank every one of you who ever made it fun for me, because it was the first RP I'd ever been in, and I learned so much. I had some really, really good times in here, and I'll always hold those memories. Over the months, Mel has become very, very dear to me, and it pains me to have to give her up.

However, when OOC problems get to the point that it literally causes me pain to try to remain all well and good IC, it's not fair to anyone for me to stay here. I've tried to rectify the problem for months, but lack of response, lack of caring, lack of. . .I don't know, from other parties made it impossible. The RP lost its fun months ago, but I've held on to the vague hope that this could all be fixed. If both parties were capable of complete honesty and maturity, it would have been fixed. What more can I say then that I tried? That's all you can ask someone to do. But it gets to a point where you realize that people can't be helped unless they want to be helped.

No matter. I'm disappointed in the way a fair few things lately in here have been handled. Especially bias from people who have no right to be biased. It was expected, but still very, very disappointing.

I'm not trying to be vindictive, here. Drama is the last thing that any RPG needs. But some things need to be said. I'm posting this in Mel's personal journal instead of the community, because I'm not going to let it get deleted. Comments are disabled because honestly? I don't want to hear any protests when I know what's true and what's false. There are only two people here who care that I'm quitting, and one of them is quitting with me.

I refuse to stay here any longer and subject myself to the humiliation of people implying that somehow I'm the cause of a problem, or that my 'lack of interaction' is a terrible thing. Certain characters posts and comments, or lack thereof, make my lack of interaction completely laughable. Especially when said characters were the ones to urge the mod into saying something about it. I mean, talk about making it SO easy to see right through that.

Well, that's it. It was fun for a while at least, and again, I thank you for that. Good luck in the future for this RP.

~Amber, keeper of Melody

[25 Dec 2004|10:10am]
[ mood | chipper ]

Happy Christmas, everyone!

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[14 Dec 2004|08:51pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

Well, I got the scoop out of Grace. . .I had to corner her (literally), but it wasn't too hard to weasel all the details out.

It seems that Theo is a. . .Slytherin. Which makes him quite impossible for me to trust right now, after everything that's happened with Shay. My general impression was that Theo's a really, really nice guy. Who knows? If he makes Grace happy, I'm happy for the both of them.

**charmed private**

Good god, why didn't anyone slap me when I spoke about Shay the way Grace speaks about Theo? It's positively sickening!

**end charm**
(IC RP with Grace Williams and Melody Rose de Thenard)
All the juicy gossipCollapse )

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[08 Dec 2004|07:30pm]
[ mood | sick ]

It seems as though at least some of the drama around here has died down. . .maybe it's safe now to come out.

It's most unlike myself to shut myself away when things like what's been going on here lately happen. I usually enjoy chaos to a certain degree. . .it amuses me. That almost makes me sound Slytherin or something, doesn't it? But in all honesty, I haven't been feeling very well lately. I don't know what's wrong, or exactly when it set on, but I've withdrawn myself from pretty much everything. Perhaps it's the weather. That could possibly explain why I've been coughing constantly lately. The massive workload the teachers seem to be piling on before the holidays doesn't help either. Oh well. . .I'm sure it's only temporary. But I really should try to get at least a little more sleep. I've already fallen alseep in one class, I wouldn't want to repeat that.

*charmed against professors' eyes*

Especially not in Snape's class, the bastard.

*end charm*

Anyway. . .my apologies if it seemed to anyone that I didn't care about certain ordeals lately. I've just been distracted.

By the way, Miss Grace, who's this boy I've seen you hanging around with lately?

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[01 Dec 2004|10:50pm]
[ mood | infuriated ]


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[07 Nov 2004|08:23pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Had an interesting conversation with Grace this evening. I'm left feeling really uncomfortable and wishing I had someone to talk to right now.

I couldn't take it if any of my friends got hurt. Or Shay. Especially Shay.

(IC RP with Grace Williams and Melody Rose de Thenard)
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Ugh. [05 Nov 2004|06:05pm]
[ mood | listless ]

Well, we've been assigned a project by Professor Snape. . .

**charmed against Snape's eyes**

. . .because, you know, I don't have anything better to do in the spare moments when I'm not swimming in homework. Miserable, bitter old man.

**end charm**

However, fate was kind to me, and I've been paired up with someone not completely incompetent, so I think I'll manage to at least pass. Ron, we'll have to get together sometime soon and brainstorm what potion to research, so we can have it approved by Professor Snape soon as possible.

I spent a lovely evening with Shay and Dean the other day. And then an even more lovely rest of the evening with just Shay. I think I'll skip that part, as I'm sure none of you want to hear about it. I swear the more time I spend with the both of them together, the more my maturity level drops. I feel like such a fraud of a prefect. But to be honest, it doesn't really bother me. The two of them make me laugh. And what's life without a little fun?

I should go. . .the sooner I can finish my homework, the sooner I can enjoy my weekend. Or whatever's left of it by the time I'm done. If anyone needs to find me, I'll be in the Common room buried under approximately 600 books.

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[30 Oct 2004|03:39am]
[ mood | busy ]

It's been so long since I've written in this that I feel like I should have to dust it off!

I've been fairly swimming in schoolwork and haven't had time to think, never mind look at a computer. But here I am at last. Briefly, anyway.

Along with being stressed about school, Shay was having some problems with pain and worrying the heck out of me. I've been more gentle with him lately, although I don't think it helped. It just had to go away on it's own, I guess.

Speaking of Shay, he asked me to go into Hogsmeade with him this weekend. Sounds like fun! Although I really ought to start doing my homework so I don't ruin the day with my guilt over untouched Charms homework. Goodness knows I could use a day of carefree and fun. They're so rare, lately.

Other things around school. . .some things have been going on that I haven't hada moment to pay attention to. Grace, if you don't mind, I'd like to have a chat with you relatively soon.

Hmm. . .I better get going on my homework or I'll never finish!

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[14 Oct 2004|01:59am]
[ mood | pensive ]

Haven't been able to find a spare moment to update for over a week! What with these Gadmos, and homework, and trying to find time to sleep, it's been a bit difficult.

But! I finally got to turn my Gadmo in. . .bit of a pity, it was starting to grow on me. But the last thing I need is a pet this year. Busy busy busy.

Oh well. I managed to find sometime to get out yesterday and spend a couple hours on my broom out in the Quidditch pitch. I hadn't been flying since last year, so it was a nice change. I really should do it more often. *shrug* It'd be more fun with someone to go with. And I love 'Mione to death, but she's pretty much the exact opposite on a broom than she is usually. She's terrified of flying. It's rather amusing. Only I didn't say that. Oh well. Can't be good at everything, I suppose.

My back's starting to bother me. This isn't a very comfy chair. Off I go, I guess.

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[03 Oct 2004|11:00pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

These Gadmos, I'll tell you...absolutely adorable.

I've stubbornly refused to follow the trend and name mine like everyone else has, because I'm thoroughly attached to it as it is.

I should probably start a diary thing for it, shouldn't I?

Well, it slept soundly last evening, woke up when I did. I sort of slept late and forgot to feed it this morning, but it fended for itself and caught some insects.

It played around for a couple hours while I was down in the common room...and I took a bit of advice from Hermione and charmed a little space on the wall for it to stick to. After a while it got tired, so it cuddled up in a little ball on my lap and fell asleep. Adorable.

When it woke up, I fed it again, and now it's curled up on the desk near me. Every once in a while it picks it's head up and looks around. Curious thing, it is.

Couldn't Professor Lupin have given us something ugly to look after so I wouldn't want to keep mine?

Not much to report, life's been pretty normal these past few days. Haven't seen as much of Shay as I'd like to. Between classes and the Gadmos, I haven't had time to do much. Oh well.

My Gadmo's getting fidgity, I need to go put it to bed. Ta!

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[28 Sep 2004|01:54am]
[ mood | silly ]

Why is everyone complaining about their Gadmos so much? They're adorable! I've been playing with mine all evening for lack of anything better to do. It's cute to find it randomly stuck to a wall. I fed it earlier, and now it's sort of just...lying here lazily. Very cuddly.

I have nothing else to say except to point out that these little fuzzballs are harmless, and I don't know what some of you guys are complaining about!

It could definitely be worse!

Um...that's it. I think. Yeah. That'll about do it.

I am so odd.

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[25 Sep 2004|01:36am]
[ mood | happy ]

These little Gadmo things are cute, in a weird sort of way. Mine's an interesting shade of blueish-green. Very cuddly....it's got some teeth on it, though!

I've managed to tone down my extreme giddiness to the point where people don't give me odd looks anymore because I'm smiling like a goofball. That's definitely a good thing. But I shouldn't be ashamed for being happy...it was such a rare thing for me up until recently, and it's a great feeling. I'm taking it and running with it, and if anyone doesn't like that, that's really too bad. I'm in love, and it's a wonderful feeling.

I talked to Hermione this evening. I haven't seen her since her birthday, and I haven't had a good talk with her since far before that. So it was nice to see her again!

(IC RP with Hermione Granger Weasley and Melody Rose de Thenard)
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I'm so in love... [24 Sep 2004|12:36am]
[ mood | So so so so SO happy! ]

I think I can honestly say that I have the best boyfriend in existence. Not only did Shay, out of absolutely nowhere, get me a wonderful ringCollapse ) to replace the damned pendant I never found, but he and I spent a breathtaking evening out by the lake. The planning and thought he put into it literally made me cry.

And of course I couldn't shut up about it to Grace the next day. Poor girl. She probably wanted to punch me after about five minutes.

But good gods, I love Seamus.

(IC RP with Grace Williams and Melody Rose de Thenard)
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[21 Sep 2004|08:28pm]
[ mood | content ]

I organized a nice little party for Hermione for her birthday on Sunday.. I think she was really surprised, which is odd, because it was obvious I had something up my sleeve. It was enjoyable, and Shay showed up right before Hermione did. I don't think I realized how much I had really missed him until he walked back through the portrait with that little trademark smile of his. I couldn't stay away from him for the rest of the evening. Anyway, another happy birthday to you, Hermione!

The week's not even half over and already my head is spinning again with work. Grr. I've been staring at my Potions essay so long it's become a foreign language to me. I had to take a little break and make an update on here.

I'm sick of the Gryffindor Common room, I'm sick of the Great Hall and the Library....I need to find a new spot to spend time. That'll be my project for next weekend, should I finish all my work.

By the way, Mr. Finnigan, you still haven't told me anything about this surprise. I'm beginning to think you're purposely making me crazy by not telling me!

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[19 Sep 2004|03:18am]
[ mood | excited ]

I've gone and stayed up too late, but I can't help it, because I'm excited!!

I haven't even gone to bed yet, but let's be technical, since it's past midnight,


We'll all make sure that you have a WONDERFUL day!

Oh, oh, oh OH! And how could I possibly forget that Shay's coming back today too! If I can keep myself from clinging to him like glue the entire day, I'll be very, very proud of myself.

I'm far too excited to go to sleep now. But I have to try..........

I think we could all use a bit of cheer at the moment. Hopefully tomorrow...or...er...later today, does the trick. At least for some of us.

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I don't think I'll ever eat again.... [18 Sep 2004|01:50am]
[ mood | full ]

What did I wake up to this morning? A care package from Shay's mum that had to be held up by a small army of owls. Food. Sooooo much food.

Oy!! Shay, for the love of my poor stomach, the next time I write you and say I miss your mother's cooking, keep the letter out of her reach!

Anyway, if anyone finds themselves with an empty stomach, I've got enough food to feed the entire Gryffindor Tower for about a month.

I managed to finish all my homework after classes today...it took me about 4 hours, but it leaves me the weekend free to do what I want. I have to figure out something to do for 'Mione's birthday... And if I could find some time to relax, that would be wonderful. If only Shay was here to talk to...I miss him, and as I still can't find my damned pendant, whenever I put my hand to my neck to reassure myself, it only serves to remind me that not only is my necklace gone, but so is he. Sunday seems awfully far away....

Oh well. I'm going to make sure I did all my homework, because it really seems too good to be true that I finished it. I keep thinking there must be something I'm missing!


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[17 Sep 2004|03:59am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Advice, advice, advice.

I'm back to giving it.

Hermione let me borrow some scrolls so I could finish up my homework tonight...even so, it took me hours. I'm tired, and nothing seems to matter much without my boyfriend here to kiss goodnight.

To bed with me.

(IC RP with Hermione Granger Weasley and Melody Rose de Thenard)
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[17 Sep 2004|02:14am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Private Owl to Seamus FinniganCollapse )

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[16 Sep 2004|04:29am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Dean's great to talk to when you're stressed out. We had a talk this evening about a bunch of things....Shay, school, other people's relationships...and, er...stuff. All in all, it was quite an interesting chat. And I feel better, so that's good.

I'm debating whether or not to owl Seamus. I'm a little angry that he just up and left like that, but that doesn't change the fact that I miss him, even though I barely saw him as it was. Probably something to do with the fact that I knew he was there if I needed him, and now he's a lot further off.

My head's swimming with too much information at the moment...I better go to bed.

(IC RP with Dean Thomas and Melody Rose de Thenard)
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[16 Sep 2004|01:52am]


Well, from now on, I guess I'll just keep my mouth shut, because I can't seem to say a thing without people taking it the wrong way and flipping out.

Too. Fucking. Stressed for this.
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