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jeu, le 30 juin 2005 23:05
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that makes a 66% average. I'm very happy. I fucked up renaissace a little but that was to be expected seeing as I had very little idea of what was going on most of the time. There's still a glimmer of hope for getting an overall 1:1 but I'm happy with a good 2:1 for this year. I can't believe I got 74% for poetry! That was the essay I did after 2 days of no sleep, and was off my face on pro plus.

One final....WOOO!!!!!


dim, le 12 juin 2005 10:05
Gigs I want to go to:

Suzanne Vega
Mon 27th June
QEH, London

Aimee Mann
Sat 16th July
Shepherds Bush Empire

Fri 25th November
The Reading Rivermead


sam, le 28 mai 2005 19:29

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ven, le 20 mai 2005 16:17

Well, I'm free of Uni pressures for the next four months. Here are my plans:

*Paris next week!!!!
*work part time with Max and enjoy quad life

*Tori Amos, 3rd and 4th
*More part time work
*Go and see my Mum?
*20th June onwards - full time work at the library
*24th June - GLASTONBURY!!!

*Move house on the 1st
*full time work at the library
*birthday on the 13th - cocktail party

*Try and get temp work
*Going to NY at the end of the month with Lizzie! Her friend has a flat there and her dad has lots of airmiles, so it should only be about £200 to get there and then (obviously) spending £££!

*Rekjavik with Aerin.

After that I don't know. I'm very excited now. I really didn't make the most of things last summer and ended up bored and unhappy. New York and Paris are certainly exciting...I know I have been to both places
before but never with friends. Rekjavik will also be cool if we can afford it, it's one of those places I have always wanted to go. Any of you on my flist been?

Also, I want to read every book written by Anais Nin, including her journals, and go to the cinema at least once a week. This is the problem with your nearest cinema being in Ali G country...no good films! The nearest place to see good films is Richmond, which is officially the most expensive place in the WORLD. It costs about £10 for a cinema ticket. I remember the ABC cinema in Tunbridge Wells. 3 screens, usually 2 blockbusters and 1 more arthousy film, and they changed them every week. And it was £3. £3!!!! Then they knocked it down and built the ODEON on an industrial estate which is very inconvenient for the young non-driver, and charge you £8.50!!!! Bastards.


mer, le 18 mai 2005 18:29

the book questions

1) Total number of books owned
I have no idea! At least 300, probably more. I have about 200 here at Uni and the rest are spread out between my Dad's house and my Mum's house. I buy books and sell/give away books all the time though, so it's always changing

2) The last book I bought.
D.H.Lawrence - Women In Love, from a second hand book stall last week. I haven't read it yet though.

3) The last book I read?
The last thing I read was a play called A Taste of Honey by Shelagh Delaney, yesterday before my exam.

4) Five books that mean a lot to me

1.To The Wedding by John Berger. The most beautiful book I have ever read.
2.Sophie's Choice by William Styron
3.A Spy in the House of Love by Anais Nin
4.Villette by Charlotte Bronte. READ IT! It's always overlooked in favour of Jane Eyre, it is far superior. If you love the Brontes you will adore this book, it's one of the only victorian novels which really charters the inner workings of a woman.
5.Veronica Decides To Die by Paulo Coelho. I hated this book when I first read it, possibly because I didn't want to learn anything from it and had a very pessamistic attidude to things at the time. I rearead it a couple of months later and loved it.

5)Five books I hated

1.Anything by Jane Austen. HATE her. She gives women everywhere a bad name.
2.White Teeth by Zadie Smith...what a waste of a week of my life! A nice concept but it was fluffy and imprecise and far too LONG for the story it was trying to tell.
3.Bridget Jones' Diary by Helen Fielding. Same as Jane Austen, gives womankind a bad reputation.
4.Lucky by Alice Sebold. I really loved The Lovely Bones and was expecting to enjoy this. It was a little self-indulgent and reductive though.
5.Pamela by Henfry Fielding. Oh my God. It was one of the first books I had to read at Uni and it almost killed me. It NEVER ends and is just absoloute bollocks.


sam, le 07 mai 2005 03:32

Some stuff I have written over the past few weeks. Please, please tell me what you think, bad or good, especially as all this stuff is getting filed to submit to Andrew Motion for the possibility of doing an MA in Creative Writing.


There's no need to push me away
I never did anything to hurt you.
So you're more of a winter girl.
Never a flushed cheek
Or a smile in the street
From you, but winter ice
Melts with Spring
and sugar, and honey,
I could feed you these sweet things.
So don't pretend you can't love;
I could melt you again and again
Before you could freeze me out.

Fuck Everything Up
You know how we like to
Delve in the dark.
Shout and spill bitter blood,
lick it up and then make love.
Bite me, hurt me, freeze me out,
make me bleed and then I'll know
I'm still alive. And you are
Real. Yes I know
It's a mistake
But it's a good one,
isn't it?

Fifty Years
Would you still be here in fifty years?
I'll be old and tired, full of bitter
Old blood; conservative, even.
I'd probably have a cat and my
flat would smell of jasmine and wine,
But maybe we could kiss, in the dark,
and you could love me like you used to,
paper could be silk and we could be tender
By the light of a small crescent moon.
Of course, we'd have to take it slow
But if you can't love me who will?
You would already have had to help me
In my forties, a bitter alcoholic
Sick of business and babytalk.
I will still smoke twenty a day, or maybe more
Coughing out my lung on a pillow
Or a heart? Or, you will still be there
To make me young again.

((by the way these are to be taken as first drafts and by no means resemble the things I will probably submit as half the bloody lines are heavily Tori/Fiona influenced, but please, comment...))


sam, le 16 avr 2005 00:41

Watched 3 fims this week that I have been meaning to watch for AGES:

*Swimming Pool - I enjoyed it. I love Francois Ozon and this film was a bit of a break from the high camp of 8 Women, as great as that film is. Ludive Seigner is fantastic, and (I think) a pretty accurate portrayal of my generation of French women. My sister's generation (much like in England) are less bohemian, more occupied with culture rather than self, but that kind of unselfconsciousness, her unassuming nature, was very well-played and attracive. A fantastic role and a great break for her. Charlotte Rampling...I personally found her performance irritating. This epitomises everything I dislike about the portrayal of the English in foreign cinema. Stuffy, uptight, assuming, semi-intellectual and yet anti-philosophical...grr. Plus I found Sarah's semi-erotic 'perving' on Julie a little sickening, and yet again an unwelcome comment on culture difference. Plus, Charlotte Rampling looks alarmingly like a cross between my Grandma and this bitch of a teacher we had at school, Mrs. Young. As for the end...I a) don't understand and b) don't want to spoil it for anyone reading this who hasn't seen it, but I assume it's some sort of postmodern take upon the role of the writer's imagination within reality? Anyone care to help me out?

*Nathalie - Now this is an amazing, if understated, film. A fantastic, intense and steaming performance from both Emmanuel Beart and Fanny Ardant. Their unconsummated sexual tension put me on the edge of my seat. Whilst I do hate plots that go back on themselves at the end, I really liked this ending as it made explicit the idea that the relationship between Nathalie and Catherine was about just the two of them all along, not Catherine and Bernard, which was implied anyway. Strongly recomment you all see this film!

*The Human StainWhy was this film made? I wanted to like it but...none of the ideas really seemed to go anywhere, there were too many conflicting storylines...the racism, the black history, the book being written, Faunia's past, Coleman's past, his wife, his first love...and they all cultimate in what? Nothing. Not that I'm asking for a Hollywood ending, but it's just all of these plots and themes and none of them really get explored. Why was Lester in the psychiatric ward one minute and then ice fishing the next? It was full of cliches too, and most of Faunia's history, and the dialogue in her scenes, seemed to be made to make Nicole Kidman look good. The only two scenes I actually liked, more for cinematography than content, were the scene when Coleman and the writer are dancing, through the windows, and the scene where Faunia (what a name!) is talking to the crow. All in all, not really very good at all.

Humeur actuelle: cold
Musique actuelle: Garbage - why do you love me?


lun, le 11 avr 2005 19:01

Woohoo! Got the official lineup according to G2 today. Stuff I'm VERY excited about:

-Tori Amos
-Rufus Wainwright
-Martha Wainwright (she's playing twice!!)
-Dresden Dolls
-The Killers



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made some icons because I was bored and putting off doing some work!

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dim, le 10 avr 2005 02:04
"The morning I got up to begin this book I coughed. Something was coming out of my throat: it was strangling me. I broke the thread which held it and yanked it out. I went back to bed and said: I have just spat out my heart."

Anaïs Nin

Humeur actuelle: sad
Musique actuelle: nothing