June 4th, 2005

Holic nya

Somewhere I'm still dreaming

The good thing about homework and exams is that you don't see time passing by. The bad thing about all this stuff is that you have no time for you. I'm wondering when was the last time I was able to spend a moment with Him without thinking about some work to do...seems to be a long time ago.

I'm feeling quite empty, paradoxically. I've got a lot of things to do, no time for me, but I'm feeling like...exhausted...No, just empty. It's like I have no need, no liking for doing anything even if I've got a lot of projects, no energy...I don't feel sad nor happy...Just a little tired...emotionnally tired perharps...tired of being strong in front of my father when he's still angry at me, in front of my mother who's overbooked with her worries at work, tired in front of myself too...tired of trying to persuade myself that I still have a chance to graduate to 2nd year and to tell myself that everything is going to be alright.

Tomorrow is shopping day, and I look forward to it. I've always lost myself in these type of things when I didn't feel good, because it made me think about less complicated and more beautiful things.

I think I'm gonna change this layout, it sucks...but LJ code is so difficult to manage ! ...We'll see.

[Edit] Here we are. Someting different, pretty and cheerful. Hayden Christensen, the actor who played Anakin Skywalker in the Star Wars Trilogy Prequels. And er...a Mister Potatoe with him, dressed like Darth Vader...Isn't it so cuuute ?? *giggle*
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