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[24 Jun 2007|04:07am]
oh my goodness. it is a bit scary to read the way i wrote things when i was 18 years old... it's kind of like i have no sense of how to sound like a real human or have no concept of the english language, i look back on these emotions i apparently had and i remember them all.. and why i felt that way and they all seem vaild.. perhaps i was just... a stupid young mall rat kid.
oh yeah.
thats definitely it.
1are dead% get your gun

[05 Nov 2005|04:37pm]

HOLY SHIT IM GOING TO SEE NINE INCH NAILS TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS FUCKING RULES!!!!!

ok now that thats out of my system. im going out of nowhere i bought tix from this girl on philly goth well i havent even payed her yet cause my paypal account isnt verified. n she tottally trusts me n im not gonna screw her over. i had plans with the bf too... aw i feel bad but its NINE INCH NAILS!!!! i couldnt pass it up! woooooooooooooooooooooooooo

get your gun

[20 Oct 2005|07:54pm]
so i need ideas for a halloween costume. theres this army green dress at the fetish store in newhope n i want it n i just might wear that with my bullet belt n be armyish. so far plans aree going to dracs ball.
im so not feeling october yet. and its the end. wtf. im just not.... in the right frame of mind i suppose.
i need to go to a haunted house or something. valley of fear was awesome as fuck last year i wanna go again!!!!!

anyways life is crazy as ussual and i love it im meeting new people constantly and geting rid of old ones before they even get the chance to become old ones just as quickly. watching empire records right now. so amzing. deb=<3. and mark..oh the hotness. moving to philly soon wooooo in with my mom but eh a small price to pay for not paying rent and being within walking distance of the club and the delaware all at once. i <3 philly n i cant wait to move there.
1are dead% get your gun

[02 Oct 2005|05:20pm]
im 20 now. woo fuckin hoo.
4are dead% get your gun

[22 Sep 2005|11:12am]
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what band/song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written
3are dead% get your gun

i stole andrews idea. [17 Sep 2005|08:49pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

true confessions about the way i feel about people. unnamed.

1.we started to talk all the time n i wish we could hang more. as soon as one of us drives (wich will probly be you) we will chill.
2.I cant fucking stand ur guilt trips and critisism. even tho I really appreciate everything you do for me.
3.your one of the stupidest pathetic people ive ever met and Ive allways just pretended to like you. and i think you might know it.
4.Im really dissapointed in what you and I have become and im not even sure if we are ever going to be friends again. this makes me truly sad. I really do miss you. alot. and i feel really replaced and upset that you havent tried more to to chill or talk to me.
5.your someone i never thought youd be. I miss you, the old you. i know you dont give a shit tho.
6.you left, went somewhere. tottally forgot about me n that is why i pretend to hate you.
7.your annoying n i just like the attention i get from you. most of the time. the other part of the time its creepy.
8.youd be really cool to be friends with and maybe more if you werent so far away.
9.you have lack of personality. n its sad. i wish you were interesting to talk and hang out with but your not.
10.i love hanging out with you. i think yoiu n i could be like best friends. even tho i do like you and you like me n we both know it. but you have issues n im kida glad cause i wouldnt want ne thing to come between us being friends. even tho ur really hot. really.
11.we have to hang out ur one of the only people i still talk to after all that bullshit went down. alot of people dicthed me for her even tho they never even chilled with her before but not you. not like weve talked much lately but i dont feel uncomfortable talkin to you.
12.its been so awesome getting to know you. we dont even have to do ne thing n we can jsut sit n talk and have fun. I really do think your goregous even tho u dont think it about urself. i can wait to be with you. i want to you to be all minbe and i love that you feel the same. but i want to take thing slow because i want a relationship with you. i dont want a 2 week fling with you your too amazing.

6are dead% get your gun

i stole andrews idea. [17 Sep 2005|08:49pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

true confessions about the way i feel about people. unnamed.

1.we started to talk all the time n i wish we could hang more. as soon as one of us drives (wich will probly be you) we will chill.
2.I cant fucking stand ur guilt trips and critisism. even tho I really appreciate everything you do for me.
3.your one of the stupidest pathetic people ive ever met and Ive allways just pretended to like you. and i think you might know it.
4.Im really dissapointed in what you and I have become and im not even sure if we are ever going to be friends again. this makes me truly sad. I really do miss you. alot. and i feel really replaced and upset that you havent tried more to to chill or talk to me.
5.your someone i never thought youd be. I miss you, the old you. i know you dont give a shit tho.
6.you left, went somewhere. tottally forgot about me n that is why i pretend to hate you.
7.your annoying n i just like the attention i get from you. most of the time. the other part of the time its creepy.
8.youd be really cool to be friends with and maybe more if you werent so far away.
9.you have lack of personality. n its sad. i wish you were interesting to talk and hang out with but your not.
10.i love hanging out with you. i think yoiu n i could be like best friends. even tho i do like you and you like me n we both know it. but you have issues n im kida glad cause i wouldnt want ne thing to come between us being friends. even tho ur really hot. really.
11.we have to hang out ur one of the only people i still talk to after all that bullshit went down. alot of people dicthed me for her even tho they never even chilled with her before but not you. not like weve talked much lately but i dont feel uncomfortable talkin to you.

get your gun

[12 Sep 2005|11:03pm]
wow i havent been online in 4 days and now my myspace is going unde routine maintenence. great timing.
1are dead% get your gun

[12 Sep 2005|10:51pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

you know in the labyrinth where hoggle gives sara the peach and she forgets everything and gets all distracted? well i feel just like her. distracted. in a good way though. even though it could all turn bad so quickly but we forget this becasue wer wrapped up in the moment of now, becasue the feeling we have now is great. amazing. so we forget the way it was so bad before. life was so lonely. so stressfull. the bad aprt about all this is I am still not the one making myself happy. i never will. i dont have the will power. I dont care enough about myself to realize its all fake and I know i was looking for something.... I dont have saras will power. I thought i had a rude awakening, but that faded so fast. you made me forget everything. things have been so easy. i NEED to be kicked in the face. repeatedly. over n over and over. or just stop being so fucking lazy and taking the easy was out. and how can I feel love foor someone when i dont for myself? i mean i like the person I am but i am so close to being desolately poor and having no where to live and I have to not let myself get comfortable here. I just hate my own stupid numbness. I have to remember what its like to feel the like world is over or else it may really end and i will truly have nothing left.

get your gun

[07 Sep 2005|02:10am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

so ive pretty much lost touch with moist of all my old friends. and life for that matter. starting a new one that is shakey and just born and isnt sure if it can stand. but im looking forward to it. everythings fresh and new right now and thats allwyas good.

im drunk. or well no not quite drunk, just buzzed. i was drunk concentrating on typing took care of that. ive so needed a recreational activity such as drinking. some people have pot some hav coke e what ever. this is my new recreational expierience. only the second time ive been drunk. i have massive amounts of self controll at times. some people disagree with that because they think i move to fast and make rash decisions when things couldnt be more opposite. im allways quite conciencous of my decisions and make them with great thought in mind even thought they might not allways turn out the best i make my decisions for a reason, often times these reaosns go missunderstood.

wow typeos.

anyways ive been living life as a rollercoaster lately and its beena blast. work has been great. this weekend has been unbelieveable thanks to someone in particular who is the most amazing person ive come across in a long time. and tomorrow i take care of a few resposibilities that need tended too.

1are dead% get your gun

[19 Aug 2005|06:36pm]
1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
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5are dead% get your gun

[17 Aug 2005|07:23pm]
i wanna go tonight. im sad.
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[14 Aug 2005|07:01pm]
wow i havent updeated in forever. short summary: works been swell. rooms almost done being painted. social lifes been ehhh pretty good. bek n i are still broken up. she wants to get back together but i dont. i think its becasue she knows im interested in dating other people. like thats gonna hppen anyways. nobody likes me like that esspecially the few people i like. ok thats about it .
4are dead% get your gun

[01 Aug 2005|10:01pm]
I allways get stuck in the fucking house. andrew n i were supposed to hang out n he cant get a ride n bek allready left to hang out at the pub with sara. god damn it i hate this shit. if sara wasnt gonna be at the pub i coulda just gone with bek.

she fucking ruins everything.
4are dead% get your gun

[31 Jul 2005|05:38pm]
i now have myspace people so feel free to add away.



Check me out!
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type o negative-world coming down. [31 Jul 2005|01:10pm]
i cant even begin to explain...
6are dead% get your gun

stolen from andi. [30 Jul 2005|01:38pm]
01. Think of the first word that comes to mind when you think of me.
02. Run a google image search on that word.
03. Reply to this entry & post that picture.
04. Put this in your journal, so I can do the same
5are dead% get your gun

[29 Jul 2005|03:41pm]
before the club<3
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7are dead% get your gun

[29 Jul 2005|01:37pm]
ok so plans for tonight are up in the air.

club? pub? nobody knows. but its all good.

snbajhgsfklsjdlf;jia

fuckin on the dance floor.
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[28 Jul 2005|03:16am]
uhh saras coming to help bek paint tomorrow.

someone save me i dont wanna be here for that.
2are dead% get your gun

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