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18 October 2010 @ 01:27 am
I hate these late nights when all I can think of is you...

Lame post, I know.

But really, I miss you.
This is the story of my life: melancholymelancholy
17 August 2010 @ 03:30 am
yes, I'm still alive!

I'm also now on tumblr:

I'll still hang around here, mainly because I've been here forever and love my lj.

soooooo.....if you need me, that's where I'll be! ♥

04 April 2010 @ 03:35 am
soooo...life's been sorta absurd since I last posted. Whenever the hell that was. Grad school is fine, although I almost quit a few weeks ago...I'm just not sure how effective I'll be as a counselor, and my self-doubt really gets me sometimes. I no longer work at Community Mental Healthcare..I was fired for some bullshit reasons that really didn't make any sense, so now I'm unemployed and feeling like a big sack of loser. The bf broke up with me in December while I was Christmas shopping, which pretty much destroyed me because I was going to go down and see him the next day to tell him that I was going to move down to Dayton to be with him. Now I can't imagine making that horrible mistake. He was really nice about the breakup, and I can honestly say it wasn't anything I did or didn't do...and from things he's told me since it happened, he's not the same guy I fell for almost a year ago (shit...I can't believe it was that long ago!!!). But anyways, he seems like a totally different person...one I wouldn't want to even ever consider being with...so now, whenever I think about him or our time together, all I can do is laugh...mainly because I'm so glad to not be in that situation anymore, and can't believe I ever was in the first place.
Over the course of the last month or so, I've been slowly redecorating my room, and now it's finally almost done...I can't wait to be completely finished with it! I just need a few more pieces, and it'll be perfect!

and that's that.
This is the story of my life: awakeawake
18 September 2008 @ 01:40 am
yeah, that's right. I was totally OWNED by Hurricane Ike last Sunday. For those of you who didn't know (and I have no idea what, if any news coverage this got because of power issues), most of Ohio got rocked by an epic windstorm last Sunday that left over 650,000 homes without electricty. The next day, most businesses were restored, but schools were cancelled because they still didn't have power. By Tuesday, only 150,000 houses had their power back. Yesterday, that number was up to 450,000. My house was not one of those. And the awesome part about my house is that EVERYTHING is run by electricty. We live out in the country, so not only are the appliances electric, our well and septic tank are as well. Soooo...since Sunday, my house has been without light AND running water. Which means..no showers OR toilets! Originally, we were told it was going to be Sunday before we got our power back. And then it was Friday. We got excited. The people who live in front of us have a generator that runs ALL DAY, and they are NEVER HOME!!! It's so wrong. And have they even offered to help us out at all? NO! I'm about two seconds away from pouring sugar in it's gas tank and laughing manically. It's like it sits there and taunts me all day long. The best part was on Monday, my mom, sister, and I went on a hunt for a generator, and found that Home Depot, in an effort to be all humanitarian and shit, sent theirs to the south for the hurricane victims. Ironic, right?

I never thought I would enjoy being at work. But being able to sit in an area not illuminated by lanterns for sustained periods of time is fine by me. Not to mention the fact that there's running water and such. At last call, AEP said it'll be at the latest the 22nd before everything is back to normal. Yeah. That's Monday...a day later than what they originally said, and almost 8 days w/o power and running water. The awesome news is that our septic system needs a pump to keep everything where it is, so it's only a matter of days before sewage is backing up INTO our house. So things are getting a little...tense..around my place. If I hear one more person complain about being annoyed at the fact that they don't have cable, it's going to get brutal. Some lady at the hair salon yesterday was complaining because she lost her power for 5 hours! Mear hours!!! The lady doing Jess' hair kept getting all uncomfortable and awkward, and kept mentioning that we *still* had no power OR running water, but she kept blabbing on like a selfish twit. Then, out of pity, the hairdresser washed and styled my hair for free. It was pathetic and awesome all at the same time.

on the bright side....
Shower tomorrow...YES!!!!!! I have some amazing friends around here whom I am very thankful for, and all offered me a place to get clean. So thank God tomorrow I'll drive up to see Katy, and also get my first shower in almost a week. No more baby wipe baths for me!! >.<

I'll keep you all updated on when my house finally returns to the 21st Century.
This is the story of my life: dirtydirty
12 September 2007 @ 01:48 am
i'm so sick of hearing that will.i.am song that i'm ready to rip my radio out of my car the next time i hear it. which is about every 2.3 seconds. damn you, regular radio and your pathetic music selections!!!

it's been like 10 years since i've updated..oops. my life just really isn't worth writing about i suppose...

but, i figure since it HAS been a while, i might as well let everyone know what's up.

so, i've decided to move back in with my parents. after months of my mom begging, me constantly being a debt, and a lack of food that doesn't come to you in paper, i just decided it was time. at first i was really reluctant to do it, but now that it's so close to happening (i move this sunday), i'm actually sort of excited. i've decided that i'm going to try to transfer to a lane bryant that's about 20 minutes from my house there just so i can make some cash. i'm also already in the middle of applying to grad school for mental heath counseling, so hopefully i'll be back in school starting this spring. i've come to the conclusion that i'm going to get my life together, because, shit, i'm 23 and living in fucking poverty. i don't need that. so i'm also going to join the YMCA because i know they give scholarships based on income, and i'm mega broke, so i know i can get a membership for like 8 bucks a month. i'm going to work out at LEAST every other day (i'm trying to be realistic here), and join some Y-league volleyball teams. i really miss the sport and i miss being active and hate the fat lump i've become. and i can't wait to be eating healthy. i'm actually contemplating not eating for the next four days because i am SO SICK of fast food, and i'm too poor/lazy/uninspired to make my own food. i'm planning on losing AT LEAST 20 pounds before new year's. and i don't care that this is the worst time to try to lose weight. i'm doing it and that's that. plus my mom has become an insane weight nazi since she lost all that weight a few years ago. so yes, me moving home--super good idea.

SO OF COURSE my uncle calls today and says he thinks he may have a job for me. in dayton.


i'm just not looking forward to packing and unpacking everything for the 2nd time in 2 months. maybe i'll just throw away everything and start over new..
This is the story of my life: determineddetermined
Current Music: kitty purring
so....it's cold and snowy outside, so i thought i'd make a little picture entry for everyone...

these are places i'd rather be...

(this airport SUCKS!!! i hate you, Charles de Guille...france can keep you!!)

but this is where i am instead.....

how i feel about the weather

atticus shoots laser beams when it snows

as long as he's inside, he's cool though--

Current Location: snowy hell
Current Music: paramore
04 February 2007 @ 12:40 pm
sadly, my computer pretty much is...the power cord finally snapped all the way through, and when i tried to use it 2 weeks ago, sparks flew out of the cord. i decided it might be best to jest let it go, and now i'm looking for a new power cord. for a tanget. i'm SCREWED.

our uncle took us to the cheescake factory last sunday. OMFG! avacado rolls?! super awesome amazingness!! plus tiramisu cheesecake?! our uncle rocks.

new roomies! dudes in the basement, ladies up top. the slut hut just got really strange.

uh...this white rapper show is really weird. i haven't seen it because we dont have cable in our apt. and they were at a strip clud, and there was defs a dude (or chick, whatevs) dressed like a craw dad? or some sort of shellfish....tv is so stupid anymore.

i want to see the new Hugh Grant Drew Barrymore movie...but only because i seem to be on a strange Hugh Grant kick. It's weird, I know.

i had no idea the super bowl was today. and by the time it starts, i'll be back at my apt, and won't have any clue how the game is going. steph and i are really only 2 disasters away from separation from the world. if our electricy gets cut off and our cars break down, we'll lose all communication with the outside world and basically become hermits. not like we aren't really hermits as it is, anyways!

ugh....the incubus concert i was supposed to go to last night was postponed because the band all has the flu. talk about major disappointment. knowing my life, they'll reschedual during the week and i wont be able to make it up the cleveland again. i'll cry. seriously.

ok..time to steal some playstation games and get ready to drive back to dayton!
Current Location: t-county!
Current Music: white rapper tense music oooh scary times
15 October 2006 @ 05:03 pm
Hmm.. so, I graduate from bartending school on Moday! Assuming I can pass the written part of the final. I know I can kick the speed test's ass. All I need to do is make 12 drinks in 8 minutes, which is a cinch. But now that I've said that, I'm guarenteed to fail it. O well. There's an instructor there who's really cool..we get along and talk and stuff. On Wednesday, we ended up talking for 4 hours after class without even realizing it! Then on Friday, he was all like...you fascinate me (really!), and said i was everything he's looking for, and blah blah blah. Basically, I told him we were just friends, but we should hang out sometime. I don't even know....he's 36, which I feel puts him out of my age range by just a bit. The only thing stranger was like, 4 weeks ago, some dude in Meijer came up and was, I know this sounds weird, but I think you're cute, can I call you sometime. Who does this?! And since when did guys find me attractive. To be honest, I find it all a little creepy...

The techno party last night was alright, nothing crazy happened...except for the 7 minute jump-a-thon known as Sandstorm.

I pre-ordered the new Incubus album...and I'm pretty exicted to see them at the Agora in Feb.

Our house is freezing. The heat is on, but it's totally not working. Sound familiar?? Shades of last year are popping up in my head, and all I can say is it had better not get to be 30 degrees outside and have it be 30 inside. Because I don't think I could stand that again.

Apparently I get free stuff all the time now. Two weeks ago, we went to a strip club but I didn't have enough money to get in AND buy a drink, so the bouncer at the front was like, don't worry, I'll buy you one. Last night we went to get Speedway hotdogs, and after everyone else had paid for theirs, the guy rang me up and I questioned the price, and he was like, oh, I didn't charge you for those two (I was buying for someone else...I'm not a massive hotdog fiend!)...then this morning we went to Waffle House, ad I guess half of my sandwich hit the floor, so they brought out the non-floor half and said the other half was being re-made, and instead, the girl brought me a whole new sandwich on top of the half I already had! I guess I'm just that sweet. HAH. Now if only the bill collectors would let me have something for free!!!!
Current Location: ottoman
This is the story of my life: coldcold
Current Music: Zombie (techno remix)--->The Cranberries
24 April 2006 @ 03:31 pm

I am a colon!
Find your own pose!

I have taken this stupid thing three times (mostly to put off doing this huge term paper I have due tomorrow), and each time have gotten different answers. This, of course, bothers me...I NEED TO KNOW WHAT MY SLEEPING POSITION IS AND WHAT IT SAYS ABOUT ME!!!!! Of all my answers, this is really I guess the most close to how I sleep...fetal position all the way! I'm not really sure if it's accurate. Maybe?

The circus is coming to town, there are baby elephants. I want to see the baby elephants!

O God...this is waaaay too random for me to keep writing about.

Back to writing the paper of DOOM!
This is the story of my life: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: A Beautiful Lie--->30 Seconds to Mars
24 April 2006 @ 01:46 am
....and that problem is procrastination.

I'm screwed.
This is the story of my life: lazyputting off v. important paper...