||[Jun. 1st, 2006|11:30 pm]
|||||A faded elemental||]|
There are many things in my life that I am grateful for, and one thing lately in particular. This thing has changed me, has blessed me, has molded me, has refined me. Without this thing, I would be less complete, I would be less. Simply less. And this thing I have, it is something that will never leave me. It is a gift. And I will honor it with everything that I am. I will guard the ideals this thing stood for. I will live in respect of this one thing, in awe of the change it has left in my life.
What does it mean to do honor to something? To respect, or to be grateful for something? To property, to a person, to an ideal, to a location, or memory. I am grateful, I am blessed with what I have.
It is for this reason that I do my best to help others. This is how I honor something, how I respect it. I've been given so much. I appreciate what I have, although I need reminders at times. I always hope that others value what they have, and try to remind them to remember those things they are blessed with, the things we all take for granted. Clean air. Shelter. Food. Cars. Education. Safety. Peace. Despite having all these things, we think we're entitled to more, always more. In this lust for gaining more, we simply do not make do with the things we already have. We gain status and privilege and responsibility and rights without realizing and without earning it, but we're indignant if we lose something we think we deserve.
Even if I ever lose everything that I have, I have still had those good things in my life. I've had my family, my friends, my experiences, my dreams, my ambitions, my loves, my possessions. For one moment in my life, I had them. The memory lives on and these memories have made me into a person that will look back with reverence at my past. It is these things in my life that cause me to want to make the present and the future that much better, to share some of what I've enjoyed already; that because I was so blessed, I can endure just one more moment of hardship or tackle one more challenge. I've had my reward already.
This is why I will never give up.