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[11 Apr 2005|06:57pm]

Well, since we're on hiatus I must say 'bye for now' to all of you [cause I am overdramatic like that]
Keep in touch though, I will be on iamc00lyo.

Love you all <3

Enjoy your lives. =P

1 were nice | be nice

[08 Feb 2005|09:19pm]
[ mood | content ]

Yesterday Hazel's birthday was great. There are no more words to actually describe it. So I took her to this restaurant reccommended by my mother, she's trying to make "amends" with me, I think she blames herself for dad cheating on her and all this shit (and I'm the one who needs therapy). I feel bad for leaving awhile for Wasaga, I knew she took it bad. So I got Hazel this promise ring, which she accepted. That definately makes the list of 'Best Moments in My Life'.
I love her. I regret breaking up with her for as long as I did. I was being selfish and I was confused. No one has ever treated me as great as Hazel treats me.

She's going to be here tomorrow. Her name is Melissa. I can't wait to meet her, but I'm scared. When I was in Wasaga I picked up a whole bunch of things for her, teddy bears, hats, sunglasses, jewelry, and books. I just hope she likes me. I don't want to be a bad older brother. I don't want her to go a minute feeling unloved in this house. I don't want her to feel neglected by my parents. I don't want her to be raised on takeout and messages on the answering machine. I don't want her to go to her friends house and watch them tucked in then wonder why her parents don't do that. I don't ever want her to feel neglected.

My dad is freaking out. He called the other women to make final arrangements and I guess it just makes it real. What's crazy is how can after 7 years a mother just decide she doesn't want her child anymore. Apparently this women is a model that wants to get her life back on track. I'd never do that to my child. If any of you ever do I'll cut off your fingers, slowly one by one. I never want to meet that women. It still scares me how well my mom is handling all of this.

I miss the way things used to be, when our biggest problem was our mom / nanny forget to put the cookies in our lunchbox.

7 were nice | be nice

[04 Feb 2005|10:52pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I'm back.

So yesterday I went shopping with Hazel in Wasaga, and I brought things for my sister. God knows why I felt like buying things for a complete stranger yet I did.

Today we got back home, I let my mother know I was back, for knowing sakes.
Then we hung with Jay for awhile and I went home.

Things with my father did not go well, a lot of screaming and yelling. Anger.
- He doesn't want her to live here, my mother does. I was supposed to take his side, I took my mothers.
My father is a very selfish man. It drives me crazy how well my mom is accepting all of this. He doesn't want her here because it's a constant reminder of his "mistake."
- Here's a wonderful line "Everytime you have a problem are you going to run away from home?" I said, "Well dad I can't exactly run." my mother began to cry and I instantly regretted it.

She's going to be here next week.
But I don't blame her, you know?
I think my mother always wanted a daughter. This is my sister. I know it's probably crazy to love someone you don't know, but I love her.

Now I'm at the Dot, this entry is brought to you by the Sidekick II.
Just being around Hazel makes everything better.
I can honestly say I'm happy Ashley and I didn't last.

Hazel and I will be attending the Valentine's Day dance together, I'm sorry ladies. Heh.

13 were nice | be nice

[01 Feb 2005|07:50pm]
I'm in Wasaga with Hazel.

My parents called once then decided to let me be, I'd like to think they understand but I know it's just because they don't want to deal with another problem, they're sending more money. Typical of them, money is the solution for all problems.
If I go home and my sister (it feels weird saying that) is there, I'll accept her you know? But it's hard to just forgive my dad for all of this. It's crazy.

So yesterday Hazel and I were talking and I decided to come here and just stay with her, get away from my problems. So Jay gives me a ride to the train station. Thanks again man.

Now I'm here.

Its true, if you really want to do something no matter what your situation is you can do it. My therapist may have been right. Wheelchair, crutches, crawling. I'm going to get around. If I never walk again, ohwell. Walking is probably overrated anyway.

So I get here and we go and get some pizza, and rent a hotel room. I fell asleep after eating, I'm sorry Hazel, I didn't realize how tired I was.

Well, one day in Wasaga has been good so far. I don't know when I'll be back, but don't worry I will return to Degrassi.
14 were nice | be nice

[31 Jan 2005|06:11pm]
How many times can I update in one day?

Surprised I was when my therapist walks in the door an hour ago. Guess who invited her, that's right Mama & Papa Brooks.

They can't even tell me important news, they have to get someone to tell me. Remember the letter I mentioned earlier? It's from my father's girlfriend. great huh? Well aparently she doesn't feel like raising my six year old sister anymore and wants to send her here. I wanted another sibling but not like this. My mother cried yet she obviously knew about my sister.

This is crazy.
Everything just keeps building up.
I don't know what to do or say.
I need someone to talk to but I don't know who.

[edit. 7:05]
I'm going to Wasaga to see Hazel.
Who knows when I'll be back.
18 were nice | be nice

[31 Jan 2005|03:29pm]
Stayed home all day.
Had a therapy session.
I'm letting go of Ash & everything else.

In other news an interesting piece of mail from New York came today for my father, my mother looked at it and got very upset. Whatever hopefully they won't lie to me and I'll find out what it's about. I doubt it concerns me though, my parents don't even stir when something happens to me anymore.

Well. Someone call me tonight and let's go hang out.
14 were nice | be nice

[31 Jan 2005|09:46am]
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