December 14th, 2002

Independance

Sometimes I wish everything in life wasn't up to me.

Sometimes I wish, just for a change, somebody could tell me what to do.

All the important decisions I've got to make, all the important things I've got to do and when I've got to do them.

I just wish somebody, somebody wise and fair, who knew what to do for the best, would just run my life for me. Tell me where to go, when to go there, what to do and why. So that I could enjoy life without having to decide how to organise it all the time.

Does that sound utterly bizzare?

I'm at a stage in my life where there are many big decisions that I've got to make. Bit, far reaching deicisions. And they're in several areas of my living too. Somet are to do with my career, others my education and others more personal. Whenever I have a problem, and I confide in a friend or associate, the answer is ultimately the same - "It's up to you"

I am fed up of those words. People saying its up to you.

Why can I not for a change, just ask somebody a question and they say "right, this is how you should live your life" - it'd make things so much easier.

It might make me a week person, but decisions just scare me.

(no subject)

Spaceman, I always wanted you to go, into space, man
Spaceman, I always wanted you to go, into space, man

Pungent smells, they consemate my home
Beyond the black horizon, trying to take control.
See my girl, she shivers in her bones
The sun and zenith rising, trying to take us all

There's a fire between us, so where is your god?
There's a fire between us..

I can't get off the carasell
I can't get off the carasell
I can't get off the carasell
I can't get off this world

The sickening tastes, homophobic jokes
images of fascist votes
Beam me up cos I can't breath
Spaceman, I always wanted you to go, into space, man

It's time to terminate the great wide world
morbid fascinations, television takes control
Decimation, different races fall
Electronic information, tampers with your soul

There's a fire between us, so where is your god?
There's a fire between us..

I can't get off the carasell
I can't get off the carasell
I can't get off the carasell
I can't fall off this world

The sickening tastes, homophobic jokes
images of fascist votes
Beam me up cos I can't breath
Spaceman, I always wanted you to go, into space, man