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Thursday, October 30th, 2008

Time:12:40 am.
Mood: confused.
I'm going to try to stop using this account... Too many effing memories attached.
Please add and use my new one!!
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Sunday, April 22nd, 2007

Time:11:03 pm.
Mood: crushed.
So guys...

Just thought you might like to know... I exist..

And I'm single.

May 19/05 to April 22/07. Best relationship I've ever had... Minus the part where we were never together... And fought constantly when we were.

I'm sorry, Sasha. Although I didn't break up with you. I love you, sofuckingmuch. I can't stress that enough.

I hope you're happy with... whoever. And I wish you a good life.
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Monday, March 19th, 2007

Time:11:53 pm.
Mood: -death-.
So, I told Sara's dog, Kira, not to eat my toothpaste... My Sensodyne.... And now she's cuddling it. She has been doing so for some time...Since Sara went into the shower... Sometime ago. I don't really know. I've been sticking my nose in my girlfriend's livejournal because I can't do it at home, although I think I could because... well, I can? I don't know.

Fuck life and everything it stands for. I seriously hate it and want to shoot myself. BUT! Here are the reasons I cannot:
a) my girlfriend would be sad
b) my friends would be sad
c) Sara's mother would kill me if I didn't do it myself
d) I'm just not allowed
e) I vowed I wouldn't do any self harm a while ago, and have stuck to it.
f) I'm just not allowed
g) I just suck, and wouldn't anyway

So, Sara just took a picture of her dog cuddling my toothpaste, and now that Sara has the picture, the dog isn't doing it anymore. Now she's taking random photos of herself... And commenting. SARA CONFUSES ME TO NO END. Jeesus, now she's going off about her eye color. I really don't know, I don't pay that much attention to them


Yes... I need... something. Preferably alcohol or something pointy. But, I have no monies fer alcohol, and I'm not allowed ta have pointy things anymore.

So, we rearranged Sara's room... Well, she moved the TV and bed herself, so I was just the "PUT MY COMPUTER BACK TOGETHER!!!" person, and the only thing I did wrong was plugging her cam into the wrong USB port... and I changed that quickly because people were yelling at me for not having it working... Yes.

Hi, I miss my girlfriend beyong belief.
Hi, I'm a freak who refuses to shut up.
Hi, I need to die, or drink til I don't have feelings.
Hi, I need to see my girlfriend.
Hi, I'm trying to convince some randomass Brazilian chick to move and live with me... So she'll be closer to her girlfriend and I will have someone who can make my life seem easier at home while I'm not in BC.

Yes, I'm a bit weird, and depressed, and hyper as FUCK. I hadddddd 141... 282mg of caffiene in like, 20 minutes or so. So, I'm kinda hyper, my Mom told me I need to lay off the energy drinks, which made me laugh. Because, if I lay off them, I won't get up at ANY FUCKING POINT IN TIME. I hope she knows that. And my Mom's a cunt. I hate my mother somtimes. She told me that she'd rather have me know people who would be racist assholes towards me than people who would like me for who I am, and my money. Loss of money I can stand. Ignoring people who tell me I'm shit, worthless and should die, I can't. So, uh yeah.

At some point in time, I'll post that conversation for your amusement.

Yes, Sara is a freak. I love her to death though... Though, it's in a completely different way than I love my girlfriend. Because, that would just be weird. I licked her back tattoo earlier tonight... and she'd just gotten out of a shower, and I [-LOVE-] her tattoo, so I was all "I want to lick it again...." [she's shirtless and on the couch beside her boyfriend, btw] and she leaned forward and was all "Go for it..." and then I got back up and came up here to finish my rant.

So, Holly... Do you know your boyfriend is a Neo Nazi Wannabe? Yeah, call us and ask Sara about it. She wanted to call and ask you... But didn't, so I figured I'd post in my livejournal. Why? I don't know, because I'm trying to sum up three months in a one-post. And, so far, it's going okay.

PONOKA IS A LITTLE SHITTY ASS TOWN WHERE TEENS ARE OUTNUMBERED BY THE ELDERLY AT LEAST 2:1, MAYBE EVEN 3:1. Fuck, I hate that town. And, when I go back, I need to get a job.


Anyways. Yes, I'm hyper and ranty. And, at least this has words [I has a floor.] And, uh, yeah. I don't know. I need to do something. I want to drive but I don't have the keys or, really, any reason to drive, unless I was going to drive to Van, which I don't have the money for, and it's ghey. I want to drive to Van, I want to see Sasha. If I don't see her, I'm either going to cry, or shoot myself. Or cry then shoot myself. Or some other stupid thing. I don't know, I could throw myself out a window on the 26 hour bus ride home... That sounds like fun... Doesn't it? Or I could throw myself infront of it before it started moving. And, if Lloyd is driving me home, I very well might. Just, let the asshole run over me. Ohman. This Brazilian chick is adorable. I want to keep her in a box, although she is against it because it "cuts off her air and would kill her." Though, I'm nice and would make it a big box, full with a place to feed her and a bathroom.

I kind of miss home, but not really... Why you ask? Because it's not actually home. This is town... BC is home. BC = love. I miss BC oh so fucking much when I'm in Alberta. Why? Because there are mountains and rain, and I can't watch my dog run away for three fucking days. It's gay. I miss living here, it's STUPID. So, uh... Yes.

I'm seriously ranty.

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Sorry, I had to get it out of my system before I exploded... And I still might. I don't really know.

Anyways, I should probably stop this madness before someone kills me.

OH HEY! IT'S THE CHICK WHO OWES ME MONEY! Maybe I can pull off going to see my girlfriend! I fucking hope so. Yeah, if she can't give me this money, I'm fuckered. I'm $9 shy of getting home... Which is ghey. I mean, I have my ticket and everything, but I need at least $40 to get food and shit with... Because, no food fer 26 hours isn't fun, it kind of hurts. I'm sad when I have to go that long without food.

Anyways, yes. Stopping this madness.


Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Sunday, March 18th, 2007

Time:8:31 pm.
Mood: *bounce*.
So, uhm, I exist! Though, I doubt any of you doubted that! But, I exist... IN BC, FUCKS YEAAAAAAAAAH. Sorry, Im esited about it.

Anyways, I just thought I'd state that I exist.

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Sunday, December 31st, 2006

Subject:Yay for human contact outside my family!!
Time:11:37 am.
Mood: *bounce*.
I'm currently laying on Holly's couch, and she's sitting on my back, which feels really nice because it's releiving the pain in my back. First time I've seen someone other then family in three weeks. Makes me happy! However, I'm getting a weird pain in my tumy.. Then again, I always get that when I lay like this, so we're good.

Holly is going through my Photobook on my phone. She's finding them quite interesting, and demanding I send some of them to her. However, I'm thinking I'll get the attachment that lets me put all my stuff on a computer soon.

Anyways, I'm going to go, as I have kittens attacking my foot and leg, or, did. And a Holly who's still on my back and less than an hour to hang out with her before she hasta work.

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Wednesday, December 20th, 2006

Subject:So, I moved.
Time:8:55 pm.
Mood: *needs a cigarette*.
So, I'm officially in the hick-town known as Ponoka. I live in the FUCKING MIDDLE OF NOWHERE. Only, not. I do know where I am. I'm about 30 minutes (in good traffic, 45 in bad) away from Red Deer, 15 minutes from Lacombe and... about 1.5 hours from Edmonton. T'is GHEY. I hate it here. Downtown SUCKS, and there's more elderly then youth. Which I'm fine with, because I'm anti-social and all, but still. WHY THE HELL DID THEY HAFTA MOVE ME HERE?! but at least there's lots of places for me to drink, play pool and smoke at. Speaking of that... I LOV NOT HAVING TO FIND A BOOT. Yay! It pisses my parents off, but what are they gonna do? They like to continue to pretend like I'm the innocent 4 year old I was 14 years ago. Aha, no.. NOT COOLD. I haven't had a smoke yet today, and I have like, 2 packs between my Daddy's car and my suitcase. Why haven't I had a smoke, you may ask. Because I haven't had the fucking time. Between emptying out my boxes for my room, unloading the boxes in the livingroom, dining room, kitchen and rec room, THERE'S BEEN NO TIME. And I'm getting seirously bitchy incase you haven't noticed. This is also the first time since I left Sara's that I've been AROUND a computer. The good news; I have application forms for about 7 different places here, I'm 4 months from grading, and once I have my own job, my Dad will sell me the old computer and I can get the net in my room. WOOT! I have all the jacks and crap in there, I just need the internet.

Anyways. Yes. This is my life currently. IT SUCKS. Someone, come here and make it better. And, really, the only one close enough is Holly, or Samara, but as far as I know Samara doesn't read my LJ, and Holly could not either, I really don't know. I'm sorry for the lack of posting comments to you guys, I just haven't been able to access LJ in a LONG time.

Anyways, I'm going to go, as I have other shit I need to do, like sleep, eat, shower, etc.

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Monday, December 11th, 2006

Time:11:08 pm.
So, uh, yeah, I exist. I went to Vancouver to see the Sasha. And, I'm in Vic visiting the Sara. It is exciting. I am also updating my journal and the Sara is not! YAY! Omg. Sorry, I'm weird. And hyper, and possibly getting cigarettes in the next like, 20 minutes. YAY! Sorry, again, weird. *shifty eyes* Woooot... Anyways, I need to pee afore this adventure starts. Because, I have a feeling I'm going to be scared of this creepy guy Sara knows and is buying us cigarettes... I really hope I don't have to be around him long.

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Thursday, November 9th, 2006

Time:2:32 pm.
She's still alive, if any of y'alls were wondering.
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Saturday, October 21st, 2006

Time:5:39 pm.
She didn't update, so I will. Two days ago our darling Lexx turned 18! Even though I wasn't there, I am sure it was an exciting event. There was a cell phone involved, and you all know what that means! Okay, maybe you don't, but nevertheless...

Love you, Lexxsicle! Happy Birthday! (Even though it was two days ago)
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Sunday, October 1st, 2006

Subject:Jacked from Sara.
Time:11:49 pm.
Mood: /lonely.
1. Open your playlist.
2. Stick it on shuffle.
3. Write down answer for each one. Dont skip!

Opening Credits: Mudvayne - Nothing to Gein
Waking Up: Rammstein - Du Hast
Falling in Love: Mest - Last Kiss
Fight scene: Disturbed - The Game
Breaking up: Mindless Self Indulgence: Kill The Rock
Getting back together: 3 Doors Down - Here Without You
Secret Love: The Spill Canvas - Sunsets and Car Crashes
Life's okay: Nickleback - If Everyone Cared
Mental breakdown: The Killers - Mr Brightside
Driving: Blink 182 - Girl At The Rockshow
Flashback: Good Charlotte - Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous (Haha, yeah. Big flashback. Sara, D?)
Partying: Jock Jams - I Like To Move It
Happy dance: Lillix - Sweet Temptation
Regretting: Evanescence - Tourniquet
Long night alone: Smile Empty Soul - Bottom of A Bottle
Death scene: Good Charlotte - Bloody Valentine
Ending credits: Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening

So, from this, you people can tell I'm still alive. I also fastforwarded my songs, 'cause I wasn't in the mood for LP.

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Saturday, September 30th, 2006

Subject:Hi-jacked by Sara. Again. (And again, and again, and again...)
Time:3:06 pm.
*Sings the hi-jacking song* (Are we talking about a riding the white pony, or Cap'n Morgan hi-jacks a soda truck at midnight, sort of thing?)

I'm bored and pretty much don't want to update my own journal, so I figured I would update Lexx's instead. She plays this game, and she won't tell me what it is because I'll laugh at her.

So if any of you know what it is, report to me at once!

I miss the Lexx. A lot. Lexx, I miss you a lot!
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Wednesday, September 27th, 2006

Time:11:40 pm.
Mood: /bounce.
So, my house didn't sell. Woot. I got Tokyo Drift, woot! I love the cars in it. HOLLY, COME WATCH THIS WITH ME, DAMMIT. My Dad leaves iiiiiiin.... Uhh... around 16 hours or so... 4:00 on Thursday is when he's gotta be at the airport. His plane leaves at 6:00. -sigh- I'ma fucked this week.. Mom's been bitchy and I haven't done ANY of my 3 send-ins. I'll have one done tomorrow, and a test tomorrow, but no, apparently those don't count as a send in, even though tests at a public school count as an assignment. FUCK. Oh well, I'll go up on Friday and finsih a math send in... and do another PE one. FUCK. Hawt, hawt, hawt. Sorry, cars and girls. T'is hot. I miss my girlfriend. And I want to cry. I really should... I need to breakdown sometime soon, and that sometime will probably be tomorrow. Ugh, omg. It's hawt. Sorry, I keep getting distracted by the movie. He's ugly. Hmm. He's pretty. Anyways. She's prettier. I'm done. I swear...*mumble* Holllly... when I move out there, will you come see me? Oo, we should go drinking the first.. second night I'm there! I think I'll be too tired the first. Ugh. Moving. UNYAY. D, Sara, you guys should move with me.. Ditch the boyfriend critters here... But I don't think either of you would do that. Holly doesn't have to, hers is already there... and well, my girlfriend is rooted in Vancouver for the time being.. and I somehow doubt she'd move out to Alberta for me. School kinda gets in the way. I'd hope she would, but I doubt it. And that's okay. I'ma move back here. Right after I grad.. and work a bit. Then I have mooonies to move back with. I mean, sure, my parents will pay for my ticket back and everything, but, I'ma still need monies once I'm back here, am I not? God, I'm a lil too WoW addicted. I have a friend on WoW, and her name is Knotteghen. And, now, everytime I go to type "not" I type Knot instead. Heh.. I think I spend too much time on WoW. Dadada. I'm hyper. And.. I unno. Hyper, bored, tired, lonely. NOT A GOOD COMBO! Anyways. I'ma stop ranting afore I hurt myself.

So, tomorrow, stress-filled. If anyone wants to amuse me through a rather stressed out time, PLEASE FEEL FREE. My number is the same.. my address is the same... and, I unno if I'll be around the computer. Hopefully I will be. But, if y'all get the time, you should drop a comment, e-mail, call me or stop by. Not like I'll be anywhere, unless of course it's around 1:45-'bout6:30. I have a test at 2, and then I hafta come home and take my Daddy to the airport, so if you feel so inclined, or capable, feel free to come up to the airport!


Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o

P.S. I loves you baby! 6 months in like, a week.
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Sunday, September 24th, 2006

Time:7:14 pm.
Consider yerself hacked, l'il missy.

iLy. To the max.

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Saturday, September 23rd, 2006

Time:11:51 pm.
Mood: /whimper.
So. We got an offer on my house. And my grandparents house sold. We are now just arguing out possession dates. The people who made the offer want to move in Nov. 1, which doesn't leave us a lot of time. We're pushing for Nov. 15. So, basically, if this plan doesn't fall through (and it's lookin' like it's GONNA GO through) I'll be gone mid-November. Aaaaand, then, less then three weeks after that, my grandparents would be moving in. And I'm less then 5 hours drive from my other set. Grand. But, I'm only moving out long enough to grad, and maybe work a lil so I have more on my resume for when I move back. So, basically, 8-10 months tops. I'm already half done grade 11, and I'll be done PE10 before I move... and then it'll just be grade 12. Gnaaah. So, yes. I'm alive. Kind of. Only not really. Only, really. I'm alive, but I feel dead.

"I'm a little Paladin,
Short and stout.
Here is my mace,
And here is my mount.
When I see a horde,
I scream and I shout.
Pop my bubble,
And hearthstone out."

Sorry, my WoW-addictedness coming out again. Speaking of that.. Not that many of you know, or care, what I'm talking about. I HIT 60! FUCK. YEAH. Sorry. I'm excited.

Anyways... I wanna get drunk. Well, actually, I want two shots of tequila, a beer and some pot... And stop feeling feelings for three days. That was fun. Someone wanna make a song about Sara? Kinda like the one I posted up there^?

Anyways. I'm gonna go...

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o

P.S. I LOVE YOU. No matter what happens.
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Wednesday, September 13th, 2006

Subject:Going through friend's journals and jacking shit..
Time:10:50 pm.
Mood: /cry.
01. Comment with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.

I re-stole it...

-I am a college student.
-I am a cuddler.
-I am a good dancer.
-I am a huge fan of lists. (unless it's a list of what I have to do in a restricted time period.)
-I am a morning person. ONLY NOT.
-I am a perfectionist.
-I am a Republican.
-I am allergic to something deadly.
-I am an only child.
-I am Catholic.
-I am content as of this moment. (With news I could have done without.)
-I am currently in my pajamas.
-I am currently pregnant.
-I am currently single.
-I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
-I am embarrassed to be seen with my mother or father.
-I am good at styling other people's hair.
-I am left handed.
-I am married.
-I am obsessed with my LJ.
-I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
-I am procrastinating by filling out this list.
-I am resentful that I have to grow up.
-I am very shy around the opposite sex. (actually, I just don't like the majority of them..)
-I am, or was, pigeon-toed.
-I bite my nails..
-I can be paranoid at times.
-I carry a weapon with me everywhere I go.
-I collect picture frames.
-I consider myself to be a "nerd".
-I currently have a crush on someone. (My girlfriend counts, right?)
-I currently regret something that I have done.
-I curse frequently. (Fuck, fuck, fuck.)
-I do not believe people are inherently good or evil, rather they are inherently lazy.
-I don't hate anyone. I hate lots of people...
-I enjoy country music.
-I enjoy jazz music.
-I enjoy smoothies.
-I enjoy talking on the phone. (with few people)
-I have a car.
-I have a cell phone. (only probelm: IT NO TURNEY ON!)
-I have a hard time paying attention at school. (Oh fuck yeah, it's why I ain't graduated yet.)
-I have a hidden talent.
-I have a hobby.
-I have a lot to learn.
-I have a pet. (four, to be exact... Wait, do four year olds still count as pets?!)
-I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
-I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" girl/guy.
-I have all my grandparents, none of them have died. none
-I have at least one brother and/or sister.
-I have avoided work to play with my LiveJournal.
-I have been in a real relationship. (currently am)
-I have been in a threesome.
-I have been rejected by someone.
-I have been the "psycho ex" in a past relationship. (Only, I really wasn't; she just thought I was.)
-I have been to an anime convention.
-I have been to another country.
-I have been to Europe.
-I have been to Las Vegas.
-I have been told that I am very smart. (I swear, these adults have no brains.)
-I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor. (I get it from my insane friends, D and Sara..)
-I have broken a bone. (knuckles, foot)
-I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
-I have changed a diaper. (Please don't make me count how many times...)
-I have changed a lot over the past year.
-I have cheated on a significant other. (Recently, but I told her.. and the other, well, fuck her.)
-I have counted down the days until the summer.
-I have dated a close friend's ex.
-I have done something illegal.
-I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
-I have gone scuba diving.
-I have had major surgery.
-I have had my hair cut within the last week.
-I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
-I have had the cops called on me.
-I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't. (It was a really bad idea.)
-I have kissed someone of the same sex. (It landed me in the relationshp I'm currently in. :))
-I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past. (SHE TOLD ME TO!)
-I have mood swings. (like you wouldn't believe)
-I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
-I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
-I have rejected someone before. (frequently.)
-I have seen "The Lord of the Rings" trilogy.
-I have seen the television show "The O.C."
-I have swum in the ocean. (Ok, I live on an island.. what do you expect? And it was horrendous and ikki.)
-I have tried a drug that is illegal.
-I have tried sushi. (I threw up for three hours.)
-I have watched "Sex and the City".
-I have watched porn movies.
-I have watched the television show "Spongebob Squarepants".
-I know how to shoot a gun.
-I like being the center of attention.
-I like eating Ramen noodles.
-I like my handwriting.
-I like Shakespeare.
-I like the taste of blood.
-I like to cook.
-I like to sing.
-I like to vacuum.
-I like learning foreign languages.
-I love Michael Jackson.
-I love my friends. (Dude, my friends come before family.. Wait, they're close enough... Feck.)
-I love olives.
-I love rain. (Ugh..I miss you..)
-I love sleeping. (I just wish I could do it more.. SASHA, come back here and sleep with me!)
-I love to play computer games. (as a rule, WoW)
-I love to shop.
-I miss someone right now. (COME BACK!)
-I own 100 CDs or more. (They're scattered, but around.)
-I own a home.
-I own and use a library card.
-I play a musical instrument.
-I practice a religion that is not considered "mainstream".
-I read books for pleasure.
-I shave my legs. (guilty?)
-I sleep a lot during the day.
-I strongly dislike math.
-I think Britney Spears is pretty.
-I think long strings of html code look cool.
-I think prostitution should be legalized.
-I think that Pizza Hut makes the best pizza.
-I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
-I was born in a country other than the USA.
-I watch more TV this year than last year.
-I watch MTV on a daily basis.
-I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
-I wear glasses or contact lenses.
-I will try anything once.
-I work at a job that I enjoy.
-I would classify myself as "ghetto".
-I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
-I like orange kool aid.
-I can name all 7 of the dwarfs from 'Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs'.
-I like being at school.
-I always love wearing sweaters.
-I love water polo.
-I am currently wearing socks.
-I am being nostalgic right now.
-I hate summative season.
-I am tired. (No sleep for three days'll do that to yeh.)
-I love to paint.
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Subject:I stole it from Sasha.
Time:10:42 pm.
Mood: /cry.
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or moritified) about what people remember about you.
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Subject:Sara wanted my artists..
Time:10:19 pm.
Mood: *bounce*.
Clicky for the list of all the artists I have, minus 'Unknown', 'Various' or a couple other things... these are bands, not just random crap.Collapse )

So, by this post, YOU ALL KNOW I'M LIVING.

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Sunday, September 10th, 2006

Subject:I smoked myself because the voices told me to.
Time:11:19 pm.
Mood: bzahhh.
1. What kind of shirt are you wearing?
A guys shirt withe cross on the chest.
2. How many kids do you want to have?
Children are evil.
3. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Not exactly.
4. What name would you want besides the one you have?
I'm fine with Lexx. Or Caiera.
5. What's your current ringtone on your phone
It doesn't turn on, so none.
6. What time did you wake up today?
12-ish. Sara woke me up, damn her.
7. What were you doing at midnight two nights ago?
Uhmm... GOOD QUESETION! Two nights ago would have been Friday night... I was... at home, playing WoW, I believe.
8. Do you like having your hair pulled?
Mebbe, mebbe not.
9. Name something you CANNOT wait to do:
Get this move over so I can move back. Or just move to Vic with Sara.
10. Last time you saw your mom?
About 20 minutes ago when I went lookin' for her cam.
11. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
The emotional distance between me and all my friends.
12. If you had 300,000 dollars, what would you do with it?
Buy a half-decent car and put the rest away to collect interest. Or I'd move in somewhere.
13. Last thing you ate?
14. What's your favorite month(s)?
May, April
15. Least favorite month?
16. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone?
Good question.
17. Who's getting on your nerves right now?
Bloodstained Hurricane (some guy I met on WoW, don't know his real name.)
18. Most visited webpage?
Uhh, either LJ or ctmod.net (I'm kinda WoW addicted, ctmod.net is for WoW, btw)
19. Last person to make you sad?
Sasha. Holly. Ang. All within a week of each other. So, technically, Angie.
20. Would you take a bullet for your best friend?
21. Favorite kind of soda?
Pepsi. Or Cream Soda.
22. If someone you hated died, what would you do?
Attempt not to giggle.
23. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week?
Nope. Not unless my sister counts, and then it's on my forehead.

I smoke myself because the voices told me to. (This is where my subject line came from.)

Pick the month you were born in:
January-------i kicked
Febuary-------i loved
March--------i did the macarena with
April---------i played with
May---------i choked on
June---------i murdered
July----------i sang to
August--------i had lunch with
September-----i danced with
October-------i smoked
November------i yelled at
December------i ran over

Pick the day (number) you were born on :

1-------a paperclip
2-------a monster
3-------a phone
4-------a fork
5-------a gangster
6-------a mexican
7-------my cell phone
8-------my dog
9-------my best friends boyfriend
10------my neighbor
11------an ipod
12------a banana
13------chuck norris
14------a stuffed animal
15------a goat
16------a pickle
17------your mom
18------a spoon
20------a football player
21------a ninja
22------a fireman
23------a noodle
24------a squirrel
25------a baseball bat
26------my sister
27------my brother
28------my science teacher
29------a permanent marker
30------a llama
31------A homeless guy

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:

White----Because i was high.
Black----Because thats how i roll.
Pink-----Because im NOT homosexual.
Red-----Because the voices told me to.
Blue----Because im sexy and do what i want
Green---Because I hate myself.
Purple---Because Im cool.
Gray----Because i was drunk
Yellow--Because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars
Orange--Because i hate my family.
Other---Because that's how I roll.
None----Because i cant control myself

Put your answer in the subject box.

Q's && A's
[1] What did you want to be when you were younger? A vet.
[2] What's your favorite type of music? No country, no rap, nothing before I was born. Everything else is fine.
[3] What do you spend most your time doing? WoWing.
[4] Would you rather stay at home or go out? Depends on my mood, right now, stay home. An hour ago, go out.
[5] what is your favorite fast food resturant? Triple O's.
[6] What is your favorite restaurant? Uhmm, Red Robin's.
[7] Are you a farmer? No?
[8] If you could marry anyone who would it be? I plead the 5th.
[9] How much do you think about the oppisite sex? Not a lot, unless it's all "LET'S CALL BEAN! OR NATE!"
[10] What's your favorite toothpaste? Anything cinnamon.
[11] What kind of grades do you make? Public school: C-/F, correspondence: C/B/A
[12] If you could go anywhere where would you go? Anywhere but Alberta.
[13] How many people do you live with? Generally, 3, unless my pets count, then 7.
[14] What is your favorite sport? Basketball.
[15] How many kids do you want? I answered this earlier.
[16] What would you name them? ...
[17] What color lipgloss/lipstick do you usually wear? I don't.
[18] Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi!
[19] What's the last thing you bought from a Pharmacy? Uhh.. Juice! I was dying.
[20] Have you ever been in a wreck? Yep.
[21] When do you usually go to bed? Usually 'bout 4am.
[22] Whats the worst thing you ever did? Good question!
[24] How many friends do you have? A few good ones. Tons of aquantainces.
[25] What's your greatest accomplishment? I, don't know? Coming out to my parents.
[26] What do you plan to be when you're older? Good question!
[27] What's your favorite PJs? ... I sleep nekked...
[28] What's your favorite thing to do? WoW it up, chitchat on MSN, something computer-related, or sleeping. Though, I do love cuddling. Or cuddling while sleeping..
[29] What color hair do you have? ... It's multicolored.
[30] Do you sing well? No.
[31] Have you ever been in love? Yep.
[32] Would you eat a cochroach for $500? No.
[33] Are you afraid of the dark? Yes.
[34] Are you bored? On a general note? Yes. At the moment? No, I'm kind of amused.
[35] Where's the last place you've been? Down the road.
[36] Do you wear a lot of black? Yeahhhhhhhhh.
[37] Do you get along with your parents? Not really. (Again, answered this earlier.)
[38] Would you consider yourself 'popular'? Amongst the "unpopular" people! Or, at least I used to be.
[39] Do you live in the country, burbs, or city? Uhh.. city.
[40] Most painful experience? Having my first girlfriend die in my arms.
[41] Most happy experience? I don't know.
[42] Have you ever been stalked? Yeah.
[43] Have you ever egged a house? YES!
[44] Do you go hunting (deer,duck,etc)? No. Unless fishing counts.
[45] Do you support PETA? ...
[46] Do people think you're crazy? Yeah.
[47] How many people on your buddylist? MSN: 82, AIM, don't ask, I'm not on.
[48] NHL or NFL: I hate both.
[49] Do you ever scream into a pillow? Yeah, but not 'cause I was pissed off. ;)
[50] Have you ever drowned a fish? Tried. Got caught.
[51] How many songs do you know all the words to? Pretty much everything I listen to, unless it's just recently been sent.
[52] Do you listen to the beatles? Fuck no.
[53] Do you listen to Eminem? Couple songs.
[54] Do you know anyone who thinks they're Eminem? Nope, thank god. I'd be morally obligated to run them over with their own vehicle.
[55] Do you read books often? Yeah.
[56] Do you strive to fit in? Not really.
[57] Fave gum? Som'n cinnamony.
[58] Do you snore? Yeah. Well, I used to. According to Angie (whom I had to share a bed with in Van) says I don't anymore.
[59] Are you afraid of thunderstorms? Yeah.
[60] Do you care what you look like? More then I used to. (Thanks, assholes.)
[61] Is your hair color fake? Not anymore.
[62] Whacha wearing? Shorts and a guy's shirt.
[63] When's the last time you talk to anyone? Verbally? A while ago. Typing? About five seconds ago.
[64] Do you 'fall in love' easily? No? Maybe? Yes? Possibly? Apparently not.
[65] What's your best physical feature? I don't have one.
[66] What attracts you most to the oppisite sex? ..Opposite sex... say what?
[67] Are you picky about who you date? Not particularly, they just gotta be female.
[68] What's your favorite cologne? Axe.
[69] What's your favorite perfume? Goddess.
[70] Do you like roller coasters? Fuck no.
[71] Have you ever flown in an airplane? Yeah, I cried the whole four flights I was on.
[72] Do you wear make-up? No, no I don't.
[73] Have you ever went bungee jumping? Nope, have no desire to, either.
[74] Ever been to Paris? No.
[75] Do you believe in Vampires? Yeah?
[76] If you could become a Vampire, would you? Yes. I've wanted to since I was a kid.
[77] Would you call yourself normal? Haha.
[78] Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Yes, sadly. Luckily, it was 3am and I was sloshed. As was everyone I went with.
[79] Have you ever stolen anything? Yes.
[80] Do you eat seafood? Ugggh. Only 'cause I had to try it.
[81] Have you ever been drunk or high or both? Yes, yes, and yes.
[82] Ever drove while drunk? Yeah.
[83] Do you drink a lot or at all? I drink occassionally.
[84] Have you ever lit yourself on fire? Yes. I've also lit my older sister on fire.
[85] How many people do you trust with your life? Three.
[86] Are you considered intelligent? Yes. Mainly by english teachers and my parents.
[87] Are you considered a nerd? Yeah. I read, I'm obsessed with my computer, and I can fix most things that are broken. My parents consider me a nerd. But, we could get technical, TRAVIS is a nerd.
[89] How often do you take a shower? At least twice a day.
[90] What kind of bodywash do you use? Soap?
[91] What's your favorite candy bar? I don't really have one.
[92] Ever got a dentention? Yes. Many many many times, ask Sara.
[93] Ever been suspended? Yes. Ask Sara and Korey.
[94] Better: Punk or Prep? Depends on the person.
[95] Ever blew a drink out of your nose? Yes, alcohol, water, milk, anything I've drank..
[96] Do you like jaw breakers? Yes.
[97] What color is your room? Navajo white.
[98] What do you say a lot? Fuck. Jeezus. Woman. Bitch. Cunt...
[99] What's your best personality trait? I unno.
[100] What's your worst personality trait? Jealous, clingy, attached, obssessed.
[101] Do you have any medical problems? Asthma. Ezima.
[102] Are you listening to anything? Yes.. Sadly, Eminem - [When I'm Gone.]
[103] What's the last movie you've watched in Theatres? Accepted. AWESOMEST MOVIE I'VE SEEN LATELY. It was with Holly, who is now gone. :()
[104] Who is your best friend? Megan. Kt.
[105] Who do you get along with the best? Sara, D, Sasha, Nate.
[106] Who do you fight with a lot? Nate, the most.
[107] Have you ever been in a fist fight? Yeah. Sara and I used to have at least 4 a day at LT..
[108] Do you talk too much? Around friends. And when I'm [drunk].
[109] Are you photogenic? Apparently. I hate pics though.
[110] Sneakers or open-toed shoes? Sneakers.
[111] Can you do a cartwheel? Nope.
[112] Ever been camping? Yes. I missed the past four summers though.
[113] Shorts or jeans? Apparently this summer, shorts. Generally, jeans.
[114] Double dates or just the two of you? Depends on my mood.
[115] Do you go to camp? In some random grade.
[116] When's the last time your parents spanked you? When I was like, 2. I learned not to throw temper tantrums. Or, if I did, to not get caught. :)
[117] Can you rhyme well? No.
[118] Have you ever belonged to a gang? Kinda?
[119] Know people who belong to a gang? Yeah.
[120] Do you smoke ciggarettes? Yesss. I wants one now, THANKS ASSHOLE.
[121] Indoors out outdoors? Depends.
[122] Have you ever gotten beaten up? Yeah. I got her back though.
[123] Do you know how to cook? Yeah, I just don't like to.
[124] Do you know how to do laundry? Yeah, my Mom does mine though.
[125] When you get a pizza, how many slices do you eat? Between 1 and 6.
[126] How tall are you? 5ft som'n.
[127] Do you consider yourself too fat/skinny? I'm fat.
[128] Do you watch the superbowl? No, I infact, run away.
[129] What's your least favorite color? I, don't know.
[130] Have you ever faked being sick? Yeah, got caught having lesbian sex while faking sick XD
[131] Ever done something illegal? Yeah.
[132] What's the longest you've stayed up? 18 days straight.
[133] Are you afraid of dying? Not really.
[134] What's your biggest regret? Having sex with Trav, and Nate, and Bean.
[135] Ever picked up a hitch hiker? No.
[136] Is your name on any bathroom walls? Mebbe.
[137] Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? Yeah, and I'm completely obssessed...:S
[138] What annoys you most? The distance between me and all my friends. My parents.
[139] Fave 'scary' movie? I hate scary.
[140] Fave 'action' movie? Wonderous question.
[141] Fave 'romantic' movie? Brokeback Mountain.
[142] Do you have an accent? Don't think so. But, according to my Texan-ex-girlfriend, I do.
[143] Who is your role model? I unno.
[144] Do you like surprises? Not really.
[145] What's the ideal age to die? I don't wanna live past 29.
[146] Do you like to dance? Nope.
[147] Ever took ballet? FUCK NO.
[148] Bold or pastel colors? I unno.
[149] Do you still wear Tommy Hilfiger? No.
[150] What brand do you wear most? Randy River.
[151] What do you normally watch on TV? CSI, Dark Angel (*though it's not aired anymore, I own it), Gilmore Girls and The L Word.
[152] Do you have any 'special' talents? Hehe, maybe.
[153] What is your biggest pet peeve? Children.
[154] Can you swim? Like a fish.
[155] Do you play a musical instrument? No.
[156] What star sign are you? Libra (I hate them, they're everywhere)
[157] Do you prefer public schools or private? Private.
[158] Do you care what people think? Not usually.
[159] Have you ever shot a gun? Yeah. At camp.
[160] What's your biggest fear? Being alone, in the dark, surrounded by spiders.
[161] How many hours of sleep do you normally get? Like, four.
[162] Regular ice or crushed ice? Crushed, if I have to have it.
[163] Blue ink or black ink? Black.
[164] Are your clothes mostly loose or tight fit? Loose.
[165] Have any peircings? I have my lobes pierced, and I'm gonna get my upper ears done again soon.
[166] Gold or silver? Silver.
[167] What type of shampoo do you use? Suave. The coconut stuff.
[168] Do you blow dry your hair? No.
[169] What do you sleep in? On a futon. That I got not even two weeks ago, and broke.
[170] What's the last book you've read? Chicken Soup For the Pet Lover's Soul.
[172] Spiderman or Dare Devil? Dare Devil.
[173] Have you ever broken a bone? All the toes and a couple bones in my left foot. My middle, ring and pinky knuckles. And I fractured my knee.
[174] Shower or Bath? Showers then baths.
[175] Do you have any cavities? I might, I don't know. I know I have 3 porcelain crowns and a mass amount of fillings.
[176] Have you ever wore braces? Nope. I was supposed to, but then they decided I didn't need them as my teeth straightened out, minus one that Cassie kicked in.
[177] What do you live in? A duplex. My parents "own" (almost) side B.
[178] Would you choose true love or to be rich? True love. If I had the option, both.

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Subject:I stole it form Sasha, and posted it sometime in May and got bored, so I'm doing it again.
Time:10:53 pm.
Mood: sadfacebracket.
1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks!

1. Taken a picture naked? No.
2. Painted your room? Yeah.
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? Obviously.
4. Drove a car? Yeah.
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes.
6. Have a crush? ...Yeah.
7. Been dumped? Yeah.
8. Stole money from friend? No.
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yeah.
10. Been in a fist fight? Yeah.

11. Snuck out of your house? Yeah.
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? ...Yeah.
13. Been arrested? Yeah.
14. Made out with a stranger? Yeah.
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yeah.
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? ...Yeah.
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? ...Yes.
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yeah...
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? ...Yeah.
20. Seen someone die? Yes.

21. Been on a plane? Yeah.
22. Kissed a picture? Yeah.
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yeah.
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yeah.
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yeah.
26. Made a snow angel? Yeah.
27. Played dress up? Yeah. -_-
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yeah.
29. Been lonely? ......Yeah.
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yeah.

31. Been to a club? No.
32. Felt an earthquake? Yeah.
33. Touched a snake? Yeah.
34. Ran a red light? Yeah.
35. Been suspended from school? Yeah.
36. Had detention? Yeah.
37. Been in a car accident? Yeah.
38. Hated the way you look? ...Yeah...
39. Witnessed a crime? Yeah.
40. Pole danced? Nooo.

41. Been lost? Yeah.
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? No.
43. Felt like dying? Yeah.
44. Cried yourself to sleep? ...Yeah...
46. Sang karaoke? Yeah.
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yeah.
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes.
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yeah.
50. Kissed in the rain? Yeah.

51. Sing in the shower? No.
52. Made love in a park? Yeah.
53. Had a dream that you married someone? -_- Yeah.
54. Glued your hand to something? Yeah.
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? Yeah.
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No.
57. Been a cheerleader? ...No.
58. Sat on a roof top? Yeah.
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? Yeah... =/
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yeah.

61. Played chicken? Yeah.
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yeah.
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yeah. -_-;
64. Broken a bone? Yeah.
65. Been easily amused? Yeah.
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yeah.
67. Mooned/flashed someone? No.
68. Cheated on a test? Yeah.
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yeah.
70. Slept naked? YES!

71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? Yes.
73. Blacked out from drinking? Yeah.
74. Played a prank on someone? Yeah.
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yeah.
76. Made love to anything not human? God no.
77. Failed a class? Yeah.... ...
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? Yeah.
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No.
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? Yeah.

81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No.
82. Thrown strange objects? Yeah.
83. Felt like killing someone? Yeah.
84. Thought about running away? Yeah.
85. Ran away? Yeah.
86. Did drugs? Yeah.
87. Had detention and not attend it? Yeah.
89. Made a parent cry? Yeah.
90. Cried over someone? Yeah.

91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? Heh, yeah.
92. Dated someone more than once? Yeah.
93. Have a dog? Yeah.
94. Own an instrument? No.
95. Been in a band? No.
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? Yeah.
97. Broken a CD? Yeah.
98. Shot a gun? Yeah.

Not much of a change, but yeah. Few new experiences in there. <3

So, I saw the D. And I miss the Sasha, Sara, Holly, Nate and anyone else I haven't seen in forever; which is more then two weeks. Although, I saw Holly on Monday, and Nate on Friday.. but, I'M PEOPLE DEPRIVED! Y'all are moving, working or just not home when I call. Y'all suck. I dislike you, only not really. I love you all. And, hopefully will see you all before I move. If not, I'ma be very sad. Although, I know I won't see Holly before I move. Sasha is a doubt, but I might. I really hope I do.. then we can taint my futon.. which I broke. Heh, oops. I went to get up off of it, and one of the poles broke. I'll get Sara to post the pic of it that broke on a later post, which will be made by her.

So, Sasha and I hit 5 months! As did Jae and Freddy. And possibly Sara and Nate. All within like, three days. Although, Jae and Freddy hit 5 months on the same day as Sasha and I. Wooot. Makes me happy. I still think I should count my anniversary as may 19.. Though, it's our unoffical, hehe. "Happy birthday, Mom! I can't stay, I have an anniversary dinner to attend." Hehehe. Make me giggle.

Oh, and my house is officially on the market. I'll take a picture of that gawdawful sign in my front lawn, and the padlock that's on my doorknob, which makes it very hard to open the door. And again, Sara will post them. -sigh- Dad leaves in 15 days. Sept is not a good month. Luckily, I was in Van when Holly left, so I didn't feel the absence right away. Now I do. I went to call her, and was all "Aww! FUCK. She's not home... She not living there anymore." it was sad, and made me want to cry. Ughhhhhhh. I'ma go get my Mommy's cam and see if I can upload the pics. There are a bunch of them. Some of which I took on the Ferry to Van. OH YEA! I saw Kiara get chemo on Thursday. It was horrible. Not just 'cause I had to sit there with a ton of kids who had cancer, but because of how calm she was about getting it and the like. Man, she's a grump afterwards. Anyways. Yes. Camera-retrieving... brb. So, I can't find her camera, and they don't know where it is. I'll get them later.

Anyways, I'm out of things to blab about. Except that I miss my Sasha. And everyone.

Much love,

X o X o T r U l Y - H e R s X o X o
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Wednesday, September 6th, 2006

Subject:Storytime, with Pictures!
Time:12:24 am.
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