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Im back again, Dont worry im still here journal ol journal you hah =)
Ive been keeping my eyes on the gay and lesbian communities and all, And surfing peoples Lj's when i like to read theres when i can, again ive said this in the pat entrys(lol i think anyways) that its still really hard to get time to come here, having to sneek around is not my thing and i REAALLY hate doing it.
But look what choice i have in the matter...none...
Well i'll update a little ~
Yeah i still love girls/female women =P
Ive had my eye on one mostly its the first time, more than just lust alone.
First time i have felt something for a female as i did for her..lol yes note the *did* part =P But i do have to admit its no were close to love or anything just 'something'...
We met on the net and all, started talking and all, as you do, we helped each other talk about problems 'issues' but more so HER issues and problems
*rolls eyes we'll get to that part soon lol!*
I mean thats really all you can do on the net, it limits you ..of couse...
We had a *big* agument about alot of things, and words flying around like anything, nasty stuff aswell, and feelings get in the way even if its is the net, it happens... this is awhile ago now it was around Feb' and stoped talking for good, nothing at all.
Then i got onto my old hotmail account on day and she had re-added me for some reason with a new account.. mm-ok this is little strange... :\
So couple of days or so i asked ' Asl' just because i wanted to try and get what she wanted, even tho i did no it was her, it was obvious, still can tell she was her same self, i can see through people like that, doesnt matter how, i just no..im weird like that..im a strangee strange girl =P
So we got talking and she wanted to be 'friends' yep ok i thought why not, she hasnt changed! To cut a longgg story short..
Still the same obbesive, selfish, etcet (lol i ll stop or i will go on)..girl..
Anyways shes not talking to me no sms or nothing so im not going to do the chasing, im not like that...
Even tho after we last talked on msn, she was going on alot about 'she wanted' me and 'likes me' and again we talked about meeting....
Well i guess not hey.............
Anyways thats me for now im going to go surfing lj while i have a chance :D
Er yeah...last time we talked was ~ * Sunday, April 16, 2006 *
..to now so really she can get stuffed for all i care..
Im so over this crap.......ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK..