Flirt With Suicide

Flirt With Suicide

Lewis

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(no subject)	[Aug. 19th, 2006\|06:49 pm] Lewis
Yes, I got dumped. No, I didnt get a reason. Yes, Im ok.
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(no subject)	[Jun. 10th, 2006\|09:24 pm] Lewis
Ha Im in america suck it ^_^ But your all cool so I give you all a hug =D Hugs from the USA
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[May. 27th, 2006|10:19 pm]

Lewis

[

mood

creative

]

Can I have your soul? It looks nice =)

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(no subject)	[Mar. 21st, 2006\|01:01 pm] Lewis
Net down at uni. May be back later.
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[Mar. 2nd, 2006|10:11 pm]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	lonely	]
[	music	\|	Elephantum - "In Orbit"	]

Right first, brought back this collection of 4 cds my dad gave me yesterday, never listened to em properly before...But there ACE! Stonerrock called, http://stonerrock.rockandrollhosting.net/ check out some the songs on there free :) My fav is album 1, disc 2 Elephantum - "In Orbit" (2nd to last track) all intromental, but great...And the guitar near end, round 9 minsish to 10mins 18sec, some reason just seems how my life would feel if it was in sound... Sounds weird I know...

Right, did whole load of recording today, was freezing and tempers ran high....but was still pritty good i guess :) And our tutors on strike next tuesday :o So shud be intresting...

Realy tired now, and feelin little sad and rather lonely, so dont know why or what to do... :(

Well lye in tomorrow anyway :) Got my texting to keep me company for now.

Man I do some stupid things....

Aw the lonely lemons face thing is depressing.... Makes me think of Seether - Fade away

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I got stonesours album today ^_^

[Feb. 4th, 2006|10:55 pm]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	blah	]
[	music	\|	Stonesour - blue study	]

Stonesour - Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater

You don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be(I don't need to be)
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds

(you)You don't need to bother; I don't need to be (I don't need to be)
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on (once I hold on)... I'll never live down my deceit

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(no subject)	[Jan. 1st, 2006\|11:19 pm] Lewis
My msn is fucked up again...
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(no subject)	[Dec. 21st, 2005\|01:09 pm] Lewis
Ok, my whole net is been fucked up right now...so cant get on msn or my emails on my computer :( Will try otherone later. Thats why i just suddenly went off web messenger
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[Dec. 18th, 2005|09:12 pm]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	gloomy	]
[	music	\|	Slipknot - Duality	]

Bit of a fuck up of a day anyway....

I orignaly planned everything out well etc, get a train at 9:20, get burnly, bus to manchester, affleks with adam and colette....Got to train station 9:10....9:20, no train....9:30, no train....9:40, no train no one on ticket stand.....9:50, no train, someone finaly at ticket thing..Says there isnt a train till 10:28...So that was that out window, home i went to see if could get a lift there...

Had to wake parents up, told em wat happened
Pete: you'll have to get a bus
Me: I cant there only every hour and they take another hour...How am i meant to get there...?
Pete: ......*for 5 minites*....you'll have to get a bus
Me: I cant get a fucking bus! *slams door...*

Sorry but I dont like standing around in silence for 5 fuckin minites just to be told the SAME thing I was told already...
So my mum very kindly gave me a lift, which was nice and got there first :)

So we went manchester which was ok, got like 8 bouncy balls, Slipknot 9.0 LIVE and a new poster (korn)

So get bus back...
Get in bus station....no fuckin bus home for an hour....so i was gunna get train but wasnt one those for hour either..so got stuck in bus station for bout 50 mins by this time, cold and lonely :( Adam had gone thinking i was goin for train, but glad he did, wudnt want to make him have to stay to.
So finaly get on bus, cold and pissed off and slightly down...
Get home...
Abbie: Did you get marthers present?
Me: No...I couldnt find one, and you never gave me the money.
Abbie: You could of gotten it off me this morning
Me: What and just wake you up?
Abbie: Was already awoken by you shouting *turns back to crappy documentry totaly ignoring me*
Me: .........*gives v sign while her backs turned and trys not to break down*

Just felt little stressed out...

So just sat here putting this all down hopeing might make me feel better. What else...

Oh,
Been a real asshole to some people lately, and im realy sorry. Id like to say i've just been stressed but I dont realy know why... And i'll try to stop.

On good note, slipknot album is good, specialy live.

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[Dec. 16th, 2005|03:51 pm]

Lewis

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mood

Ill

]

Im tired and feel ill and I wanna go home :( But i dont know what time im been picked up cause no-ones called to tell me when theyre turning up....

Well, sorta cleaned my room...But since we can leave stuff here I dont know what to leave and what to take....

Oh well

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[Dec. 6th, 2005|05:27 pm]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	happy	]
[	music	\|	Central FM	]

Hope your all okay :)
Sorry for people I didnt talk to on msn yesterday night, forgot had it on. Im sure u all realy missed me ;P

Going liverpool tomorrow xmas shopping..Heh... >_<

Who wants presents! :p Or cards...maybe should do some cards....

And Howz everyone doing?

feelin kinda happy :)

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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|11:04 am]

Lewis

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mood

distressed

]

Im realy realy hungry :( *points at stomach*
And its realy realy cold outside *points outside*
But ive no food, and need to go shopping... *sniffle*

Hey check out my shopping list...
Crisps
Biscuits
sausage rolls
Ribena/vimto
Sauge rolls (again, oven ones)
Cheese strings
Toilet paper
Actual food for tonight/tomorrow/rest of week

Its just so farrrr..... :(

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[Nov. 16th, 2005|12:09 am]

Lewis

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mood

old

]

Hurrah, tis officaly my 19th

I feel old....

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[Oct. 17th, 2005|07:43 pm]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	purgatory	]
[	music	\|	Seether - Because Of Me	]

Im a seether nerd...
Seether lyric quotes ^-^

"There he walks away he feels like hes having them on. I beleive hes gunna bend again and all for none" - Because of me

"I dont need a friend I need to mend so far away" - Remedy

"Im trying to keep my intention disguised" - Truth

"Hold me now I need to feel releif, like i matter to the one i need" - The gift (makes me realy sad...)

"I try to hide myself, give this to someone else. My hands are stained with scum, wish I could wash it away..." - Burito

"Dress up in your best so I can be proud of you. And never believe I wont turn on you, and never believe I do this for you" - Given

"Will I fall again into dismay? Will I be ashamed of crying?" - Never Leave (realy realy making me sad now....)

"Must be someway to heal the pain and feel again" - World Falls Away

"Could you throw another stone to ease my pain" - Tongue

"Tell her that i said im the one, I cant hurt her like everyone, But i dont deserve her" - Im the one

"Just suffocate with smiles and force fed lies and close your mind to reality" - Simplest Mistake

"Come sit close to me, Let me feel you breath. Come sit close to me, hands around my neck" - Diseased

-Missing songs, Plastic man (cause i never listen to it) and Secret track (cause its in african...)

And thats all of them :)

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(no subject)	[Oct. 1st, 2005\|09:50 pm] Lewis
User Pic created by elephino
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Hm, can something work when barely anyone beleives in it?

[Sep. 10th, 2005|09:05 pm]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	Happy but sad...	]
[	music	\|	Placebo - The Bitter End	]

Well off to uni tomorrow so this will probably be my last update for a little while, till connection gets up anyway.

Kinda excited bout goin now, but also fairly sad heh. Been very mixed feelings about it. Its like yay new people, new start, independence! Then theres the fact im crap with food...And everytime something makes me think of maya makes me kinda sad.

Well, since feeling...something...er right, anyway heres a seether song for all the people who care bout someone special to them *cheesy smile*

( Seether - Fade Away Collapse )

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[Aug. 15th, 2005|03:26 pm]

Lewis

[	Tags	\|	slipknot - surfacing	]
[	mood	\|	worried	]

Dam everyone seems realy depressed lately and its starting to get me down...

Er, for anyone who cares, sorta goin out with maya now and already going little wrong, wont see her for just over week...And thats all realy

Trying to think of something possotive to go out on...erm I hav some money...?

Blah at home all alone cause everyones gone out, got to make £5 of text (already down to £4 >_<) last 6 days...which normaly would be easy...

Who eat the jelly? ME!!

We also have jelly and cream now :) Blah i give up...

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[Aug. 11th, 2005|12:53 am]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	depressed	]
[	music	\|	System Of A Down - Question	]

Conclusion of today....

One huge mixed fuck up....Some things gone realy badly, some realy well and nothing went how I wanted...

Im now in a situation where either way a very close friends feelings will probly be hurt, and i think i fucked that up...So realy sorry. (Even though one you dosnt use lj anymore)

Atop of that I went out this morning to meet someone to 'talk' feeling so pissed off with them....and it all just turned out totaly diffrent to how i pictured it...Last few days all to much for me I think...Ive wanted to cry last 2/3 days but i just cant some reason. Atop it all Im starting to relise i can be such a dick...

Well to much of this is depressing, got to add, Karma and Effect album, FUCKIN RULES! Got alot of realy meaning full songs in it...Alot softer rock wise the Disclaimer but still an amazing album.

He looks kinda wasted there to me...

And this photo I like, shauns smile is just funny. One funky band :)

Sorry readers for another livejournal rant :( Seems all it I use it for atm...

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(no subject)	[Jun. 21st, 2005\|08:56 pm] Lewis
No one understands... There is no U in Elephant...
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[Jun. 13th, 2005|07:18 pm]

Lewis

[	mood	\|	Unhappy	]
[	music	\|	Seether - Needles	]

Today...Today was..mixed

Yeah so I proberbly guarenteed my place in hell anyway by spending most the day at laughing about something that is kind of serious...

Bryan (the technician guy) had left a metal pole in the room that you could like extend...and didnt take long for us to start making alot of jokes about it...

"Stop banging bryans poll"
"Bryans polls rubbing against you"
"*extends poll* look bryans polls getting bigger" etc etc

Then we started singing team america "everyones got aids" and then decided bryans poll had aids....and started poking people with it saying they had aids...and laughing about it alot...So yeah im probly going to hell :(

Anyway end of day I said "yay tomorrow off" and michelle goes "ha good dont have to see you then" so i was ticked off, and said "yea it means i get a break from you always having a go at me..." and then she blanked me....

Finished my book to :)

Then got home, talked on msn, felt little pissed off at net, felt sad by something..went and now im getting pissed off cause its still not working... :(

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