Tangled In My Blanket of Clouds

I'm exhausted but I can't get comfortable enough to fall asleep and I've already taken a lunesta and been in bed for an hour. this makes me a sad bunny :(

I want MUG to give me a lifetime supply of their diet rootbeer because I can never find it in stores. and I want Cactus Cooler to come in diet. and I want to have the discipline to stick to my "diet" of eating healthy, but I have a love affair with cake, ice cream and chocolate chip cookies. lately my sisters and I have been keeping baskin robbins in business. mmm rocky road. I eat healthy otherwise, but the sugar is what just sticks to my hips and tummy and really slows down my system. but its so yummy? evil, evil stuff.

I ended up not having to work today and slept in until past noon. it was wonderful. the latest I've gotten to sleep in in weeks has been 9.

because I had the day off I was supposed to spend it doing laundry and packing up my stuff. but that didn't happen, because all that is very bothersome on a Sunday. the packing may get done the night before I move, but it will get done. although I'd rather it all just magically teleported itself there.

my mom and I were watching wedding shows today and for the first time EVER she started talking in detail about MY wedding and having a fabulous dress and cake. it was cute. I think we all know it will be happening with in the next few years. Rick just wants to make sure we have some stability out there first, but he's made his plans about 150 percent clear at this point! plus I got the full on mother's seal of approval recently. she's always loved me but last week they had a conversation where she said she's never seen him so happy with someone and she thinks I'm "the one". the past few months have brought us so much closer together, it was definitely the distance that made us say months ago - this is it, you're the one. but I think having his moms blessing has put him into full on planning mode. especially with me moving in 2 weeks, that has truly proved to him that I am in this just as much as he is.

A lot has been said about how to prevent rape. Women should learn self-defense. Women should lock themselves in their houses after dark. Women shouldn't have long hair and women shouldn't wear short skirts. Women shouldn't leave drinks unattended. They shouldn't get drunk at all.

Instead of that bullshit, how about:

If a woman is drunk, don't rape her. If a woman is walking alone at night, don't rape her. If a women is drugged and unconscious, don't rape her. If a woman is wearing a short skirt, don't rape her. If a woman is jogging in a park at 5AM, don't rape her. If a woman looks like your ex-girlfriend you're still hung up on, don't rape her. If a woman is asleep in her bed, don't rape her. If a woman is asleep in your bed, don't rape her. If a woman is doing her laundry, don't rape her. If a woman is in a coma, don't rape her. If a woman changes her mind in the middle of or about a particular activity, don't rape her. If a woman has repeatedly refused a certain activity, don't rape her. If a woman is not yet a woman, but a child, don't rape her. If your girlfriend or wife is not in the mood, don't rape her. If your step-daughter is watching TV, don't rape her.

If you break into a house and find a woman there, don't rape her. If your friend thinks it's okay to rape someone, tell him it's not, and that he's not your friend. If your "friend" tells you he raped someone, report him to the police. If your frat-brother or another guy at the party tells you there's an unconscious woman upstairs and it's your turn, don't rape her, call the police and report him as a rapist.

Tell your sons, god-sons, nephews, grandsons, and sons of friends that it's not okay to rape someone.

Don't just tell your women friends how to be safe and avoid rape. Don't imply that she could have avoided it if she'd only done/not done x, y, or z. Don't imply that it's in any way her fault. Don't let silence imply agreement when someone tells you he "got some" with the drunk girl. Don't perpetuate a culture that tells you that you have no control over or responsibility for your actions. You can too help yourself. Rape is not about sex, it's about control and power, and what kind of power comes from taking advantage of others? No power anyone should ever desire.

If you agree, repost it. It's important.

The belief that there is only one truth and that oneself is in possession of it seems to me the deepest root of all evil that is in the world.

-- Max Born (1882-1970), German physicist