Am I alternative? What IS mainstream now? Pop music? Who buys singles or really listens to the charts any more? Clothing? Everyone seems to be sort of doing their own thing outside of the fashion classes. If there's no mainstream what am I an alternative TO?
Maybe this needs more exploration in the next post...
When I was younger of course, there was a mainstream. I was never really part of it but I had no self definition or identity, no group, no presence in something apart from that until fairly late in secondary school where I first fell in with the heavy metal crowd, accessing them via our shared interests in roleplaying. Music's never been a really huge part of my life though, not as it is in defining so many other people. I felt like I was more about the clothes, the persona, the album covers, the culture. Interest in darker things, things that other people shy away from.
This is going to sound horribly conceited but if I've ever been part of an alt culture it's part of the 'subculture' of actually being interested in the world and making intelligent inquiries. Wanting to learn, wanting to know things. Not just going along with the flow or wanting the typical things.
In THAT sense I've always been 'alternative' in the more common sense, since secondary school. What catalysed it? Reading a lot in the first instance, metal subculture in the second.
\m/ >.< \m/