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I LIIIIIIIVE, pt. 97 [13 Mar 2010|04:34pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Sloooowly making monies. I don't want to get anyone's hopes up, but with any luck I should be back in time for April. Yay!

Not that I'll have time to do much. Goddamn real life gets in the way of everything.

I was judging a speech meet today, and I met the real-life (nerdy) incarnation of Dean Winchester. I say nerdy because he was one of the other judges, and we all know the real Dean Winchester would not be caught dead listening to awkward highschoolers reading poetry. But this guy had the butch hair, the smart-ass commentary, even the jock-y pacing of his voice just screamed Dean. I would have tried to get his picture, but he's not that cute and that's a little creepy besides.

At my mom's house. The cat is adorable, but he literally makes me break out in big allergic patches when he nuzzles me. Gots to get me some antihistemines.

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Ted Neeley Must Die [27 Dec 2009|12:07am]
[ mood | irate ]

So, I am in Bismarck at a hotel with free wifi, staying with my mom, sister, and brother-in-law. My brother and his gf were supposed to be here too, but the massive blizzard shut down all the roads and they're buried over by Cavalier (east half of the state) and gods only know when they're getting out.

This was supposed to be the family Christmas (as a pagan, I have come to terms with celebrating Christmas at least as a family holiday if not a religious one) but it was not to be. We're all pretty bummed about that, especially since we were going to further our odd family tradition of the rock-opera Jesus Christ Superstar. The Broadway touring company put it on here at the Civic Center, and we were all pretty stoked to see it. We saw another production of it back in '05 in Minneapolis, and since that one was pretty damn awesome, I had high hopes for this one.

I used to be so inspired / now I'm just sad and tiredCollapse )

In other news, I dug my way out from my sister's house this morning through a drift that was about six feet high, three feet wide, and ten feet long. It was not pleasant. And of course by the time the roads opened so we could even make it here, check in, eat, go to the show, get back to the hotel, open presents and discuss everything, the pool was closed. No hot tub for my achin' back. DDD| I'll be getting up early to do that before there are kids crawling all over the place.

Also, this is probably the last post I'll have in here for a while. Issues with things like paying rent and heat and cellphone mean that I'ma have to ax the internet connection for a while. I intend on getting a second job soon, so once the money from that starts rolling in, I should be back. Not that I'm every really here ANYWAY, but still.


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What Summer Vacation? [10 Aug 2009|09:34am]
[ mood | rushed ]

Hello, LJ. It has been a long time. I forget to update when I'm super busy.

Long summer is long and cold. It's seemed that there's been something big going down ever week since May, and finally, FINALLY, things are starting to calm down. Maybe.

Here's the short list of what I've been up to:

1) Housesitting and catsitting for EVERYONE I KNOW OMG SKDFJSLF. I sustained a grievous injury when my dad's cat got a hair up her but and attacked me. One more scar, dammit. Also, it may have snowed in June, but at least it was after everyone got home so I didn't have to worry about the garden dying on my watch. 8D;

2) My sister's wedding reception in town for all the family and friends who couldn't make it to the wedding in Mexico. Let me tell ya, that chemise was much harder to endure the second time around, but at least I got to dance and shimmy and such.

3) 4th of July celebrations. Went to the fireworks out in Medora in the Badlands, and it was as fabulous this year as last. I even got to experiment with the fireworks setting on my camera.

4) Took a trip out to St. Cloud to visit Tabby and Johnny, and it was fun. Things aren't going so hot for them, but it was good to see them again. Also stopped at the Pride Fest in Bismarck on the way out, but it's really one of those things that you need to go to with friends, and at night when there's the big party-times and whatnot.

5) Packing and moving. I am now altogether moved into a new place, with a roommate. It's going to take some getting used to, after being on my own for two and a half years. Especially since my roomy is a guy and there's the toilet seat issue. ]8 And the packing and moving itself was kind of fucked up just because it took about a full week to move everything, and I lost certain important screws for my bed. Note to self: Hit up the hardware store.

6) Going up to my dad's lake cabin for my little sister's birthday. My legs are sooooore from riding the jetski. But my two sisters and I all picked fresh chokecherries and juneberries. I've never had juneberries until now, but they are really good. Like blueberries only sweeter. I could eat them forever.

7) Work has SUCKED hardcore lately, between my department's inability to keep help more than a week, and the huuuuuge fucking trucks that keep coming in, and bah. I will be glad when the peaches, nectarines, and cherries all go out of season. >(

And that's pretty much all the big things. I've got to get moving though, because I have to get checked out of my old place in ten minutes, and then spend the day unpacking and wondering where the hell I'm going to put things. NEED. SHELVES. OMG.

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Snow Place Like Home [26 Mar 2009|03:56pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]

Made it back home last night, but had to spend most of the afternoon/evening digging my car out of the drift. I have a picture. If I can figure out how to work my camera and get the pictures from there to my computer, I'll be posting it.

As well as the several hundred vacation pictures. Ahaha. -_-;

Anyway. I am tired. And I had work today. Baw, so much for my day off between travel and work - wasted it getting stuck so many times.

Gotta go catch up on laundry and LJ and everything now. D|

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Damn this Smarch Weather [24 Mar 2009|09:26pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

I was supposed to be home last night, but due to the horrible weather, I'm stuck for the second night in a hotel. At least this one is in North Dakota.

A bit ahead of myself here, because I don't know how long I have on the courtesy computer in the hotel. Bur I need to bitch and no one here needs to hear it after two days of travel.

So we left Cancun yesterday around eleven in the morning, and we made it fine to Detroit, and from there to Minneapolis. However, the flight was cancelled from Minneapolis to Bismarck because we have this insane blizzard going on. While we were gone, it got up to 60 degrees, and all the snow melted all at once. Thus, there is massive flooding all over the state. I'm worried a bit, as my house is like five blocks from a river.

As if that wasn't bad enough, there's been this huge winter storm blowing through. It's crazy - if you have time, go to Weather.com and check out the middle of the contry. The storm is seriously hurricane-shaped, you can see the rotation on the radar. My sister's taken several meteorology courses and apparently it's called a midcontinent cyclone.

Needless to say, with the flight cancelled the six of us who got stranded - my mom, myself, my sister, her husband and his parents - stayed in a very comfy hotel next to the Mall of America last night. Pillow-top mattresses and honest-to-god down conforters were a much welcome change from the blocks of concrete masquerading as beds at the resort.

We just barely made it into Bismarck as it was. The visibility was so low that we were in a holding pattern above the airport for half an hour before they finally could land the damn thing. And you know, I'm not particularly frightened of flying, but turbulence is not cool. It reminds you that you're seven miles up in a tin can with a couple boards nailed to the side, and if that engine goes you're pretty much guaranteed to not survive. It's unnerving to say the least.

So my sister's husband's parents are home - they live in town here - and the newlyweds are staying there. My mom used her mad connections to get us a sweet deal at a decent hotel, and that's where we are now. Unfortunately, there are about seven million high school kids stuck here with us, because they were here for the All-State Music competition thingy. They're seriously obnoxious and remind me of why I probably would make a terrible teacher.

The bottom line is, my hometown got anywhere from 15 to 22 inches of snow in a day, all the roads are closed, everything is snowed shut. I've heard through the grapevine that even Walmart back home was closed, and that takes an act of god in and of itself. At least I don't need to worry about calling in tomorrow. I did anyway just to cover all the bases.

Luckily, it sounds like it's stopped snowing that far west, and with a little more luck the interstate will open up tomorrow. I'm crossing my fingers, but not holding my breath.

Man, I'm tired of travel and hotels and my entire family just sniping and bickering at each other all day long. You couldn't say two words to my sister today without her getting uppity and biting your head off, and now mi madre is all pissy and crabby, and I'm kinda really fucking sick of having to put up with it.

Anyway. I'm going to go hose the saltwater out of my swimsuit and elbow the sophomores out of the hottub for a nice long sulk soak.

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Maalo kin! [21 Mar 2009|05:26pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Broadcasting live from Sandos Caracol resort by Playa del Carmen!

I wasn´t planning on using the computers here, as I´m at the friggin´beach and thus busy getting a nice all-over burn. However, mi madre (yay, my random Spanish finally helps me blend in!) needed to check something, and they give you a whole hour to use up, and somehow she can´t while away the whole time one her own.

The wedding is complete! It was beautiful. Even if there were a few incredible last minute set-backs. The only time it has rained at all while we´ve been here was at 4 p.m. on Thursday - the exact time the wedding was scheduled. It turned out just as well, because it was right around the time the shower started that my sister saw that her wedding dress´s skirt had lost some strategic threads and was falling all weird. So thus all three bridesmaids, myself included, and Mom all had to scramble to calm her down and fix her dress. By the time the rain stopped, the dress had ben fixed enough, and then they came and got us in a golf cart.

That part was kind of silly, actually. The place on the beach where the wedding was held is less than a football field away from our rooms - though we all did look fabulous. Anyway, Meredith and Ryley still got their ceremony on the beach, and I don´t think anyone´s seen them happier. I don´t cry at weddings, but I admit I got a bit misty-eyed at this one. And cool footnote to the rain-on-the-wedding-day thing? I guess down on the beach when the rain was clearing up a bit, there was a brilliant rainbow out across the ocean right behind the alter. I take it as a good sign. If any two people in the world deserve to be happy together, it´s those two.

I also had my hair done here at the spa and got horribly ripped off. They did a fabulous job with my hair - it´s thick and about down to my waist these days. I told them I didn´t want it to move. It did not. I could have reflected fucking bullets with that shit. And at the end of the night, when I had to take it out, it took a good hour of pulling out bobby pins (rough count, give or take a couple: 67), and I went through most of my travel conditioner in the shower getting out all the twists, knots, and hairspray.

So far having an incredibly awesome time. I have a million pictures of the Mayan ruins from yesterday. And I only just today got a little sunburned, so I´m doing way better than I expected. And for everyone who told me to drink for them, I think I´ve soaked up my weight in piña coladas and white Russians. The white Russians here are killer with the kaluha. And I think the only reason I like typing piña colada is because this is a Spanish keyboard and there´s a specific key for the ñ.


...Okay, I´m done now. Back to the beach. Voy a playa! Hasta luego!

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VAAACAAATTIIIOOOONN!!!! [14 Mar 2009|09:40am]

By 3pm on Monday, I'll be on the beach drinking daquiris.





Later guys! Be back in about a week-ish~!
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V-Day Again [14 Feb 2009|04:14pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Just in case you're like me and have no one to tell you this on a day like today:

You're beautiful, and I love you just the way you are.

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I actually am not at all on drugs [25 Jan 2009|08:59pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

Switched to the 5am-2pm shift at work, and man, it's as crappy as it is awesome. The mornings I hate. The fact that I get tired at like five but still can't sleep until almost midnight - well, it's shitty, but that's what happens when you try to change a nightowl-by-nature into a morning person.

The awesome comes in because I'm done at 2pm, which leaves the whole rest of the day open for stuff. Like sitting in the sun. Mmm, sunlight. (Randomly: You know, when I die and get reincarnated, I want to be a tree. Trees are awesome. They just sit in the sun and grow all laidback and groovy. How cool is that?)

And also, it's not really that busy in the mornings. Today was Sunday, and because of the blue laws in this state, Walmart's closed to the public until noon - it was AWESOME. Only two hours of actually having to deal with customers! XD

But. This means I will be working more with my boss. I still hate her. But we're not actively at each other's throats for the time being, so.

The morning person thing is so never happening - but I'm trying to redevelope my napping skillz. Ideally, so I can still geek at night. I need to geek. Almost as much as I need to breathe.

Also, I. Okay, so I'm rping lately, right, and someone bought my rp journal some paid time, and it's ADDICTING. I mean, the paid time. I LOVE the expand function. And being able to edit my comments. And I never realized how annoying the ads were until they weren't there.

Long story short, I'm probably going to buy me some paid time on this journal. Eventually. When I think of it.

*is a zombie*

*eetz ur brainz*

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OMFG [20 Jan 2009|09:49pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]







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[09 Dec 2008|01:51pm]
On hiatus. BBL, kids.

MERRY THANKSGIVOWEEN and Picspam [27 Nov 2008|01:19am]
[ mood | exanimate ]

So, insomnia has brought be low. I have the Ambien, but I've been taking it every night this week and that's... bad. Tonight I tried going to sleep without it, and it did not work. Even more than sleep in general doesn't work.

SO. You get this post.


1. Sunshine
2. Dandelions
3. Kittens

6. Family, because as much as we are dysfunctional and strange and uncommunicative and vindictive.... We're still family. I still love them, and they all help - or at least try to help - in their weird, roundabout ways.

7. Friends, because you guys seriously fucking RULE. And are AWESOME. And if I hadn't met you guys, I think I may have given up a long time ago.

8. Workmen's Comp paying for my accident earlier this fall. That I prayed for, and it came through in my favor, and I was so relieved.

9. I'm thankful for the hope that the world can change for the better. Because for a long, long time, all I could see was the world getting worse and worse. I'm thankful for a leader that my country can be proud of.

10. I'm thankful, every damn day I'm alive. Little ways - like when my car starts in hte morning. Or someone leaves me happy comments on my latest fic. Or when someone I don't know at work says hi like they know me. Or when there could have been terrible car accident, and I stopped in time.

Good things do happen to me. I realize I'm negative in a lot of my posts. But good things do happen. I shall show you!


Warning: IMAGE HEAVY LIEK WOAH. Cick at your own risk.

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Fic: Catch Your Breath - Setsu/Saji, R [15 Nov 2008|08:27pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Title: Catch Your Breath
Rating: Hard R
Characters/Pairs: Setsuna/Saji
Prompt: Adrenaline, suggested by achuu
Warnings: frottage, spoilers for s2 ep1.
Disclaimer: Sunrise and Bandai have such shiny toys, I can't help but play with them.

Summary: Saji can't think for the sounds of gunfire and explosions, and maybe it's better that way.Collapse )

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WE SO DID [05 Nov 2008|01:17pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

AUUUUGGGHHH! *has been MIA from LJ again* XD; BUSY TIME OF YEAR IS BUSY. Wedding, Halloween, WORK EATING ME ALIVE, and then the election... *flops and twitches*

To the people who prompted me on my last post I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU~~~~. Just haven't had time to reply. Am still working on the prompts, will post them when they are complete. <3



Last night I had my faith in the American democracy restored. People finally saw through the barriers of class, race, gender, age, and voted for hope instead of fear. I've spent all of my adult life voting and praying for a change from the ultra-conservative right, and finally the American people proved that as a nation, we were ready.

Although, some of the other hot-button issues that have been brought to my attention - such as California's Prop 8 and several similar measures in other states - and these hate-filled, fear-fuelled laws sadden and sicken me. I also live in a state with a ban on gay marriage - wasn't here when they voted it in - and I do not understand how people wanting to marry the consenting adult of their choice, wanting simple equality, wanting to pursue their happiness without harming anyone, can instill others with such a vindictive cruelty. Amending a constitution, state or federal, to specifically deny rights to a specific group of people for any reason is a deplorable act and sets very dangerous precedents.

Things like this make me want to get back to college and get a degree in politcal science. Or start a new civil rights movement. Or move to Boston.

Also, my father was running for office, and lost. The sad part is, he and his friends on the DFL party ticket advertised a lot, ran a clean campaign, attended all sorts of public meet-the-candidates and debate functions, and they still lost to bunch of Republicans who didn't attend a good deal of these functions. They just ran a bunch of totally false attack ads. One of the Republican candidates is well-known as an asshole slime-ball, too - his own headquarters kicked him out because he was too much of a jerk to work wit - and he has a DUI on his record. And people. Still. Voted. For. Him. Because a vote for a Democrat is a vote for "a damn baby-killer." >_<

Just goes to show that the more things change, the more they stay the same. Last night was bittersweet, though, after eight years of just the bitter. I shall remain hopeful, and I wish our President-Elect all the best.

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PRROOOOMPT MEEEEEEE [26 Oct 2008|10:22pm]
[ mood | pensive ]


I am bored and writers'-blocked. I WOULD LIKE SOME PROMPTS. I will drabble 4 U. (Obviously, I would prefer slash/BL prompts, but gen/yuri/het is perfectly all right as well.)

Fandoms: Gundam 00, Fullmetal Alchemist, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle, Bleach, Yami no Matsuei, Saiyuki, Kyou Kara Maou, Getbackers, Meine Liebe/Weider, Gravitation, and Supernatural.

SRSLY GUIZ. I want to write but all my plotbunnies scamper off when I try to catch them.

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Fic: And If You Lost It All, Sumeragi+Billy [23 Oct 2008|02:59am]
[ mood | pensive ]

Title: And If You Lost It All
Rating: PG-13
Characters/Pairs: Sumeragi, Billy, Sumeragi+Billy implications
Genre: Angst
Prompt: For the Mechaphiles Forum Weekly Fic Challenge: "The war is over, and we are beginning" - lyrics from In Our Bedroom After the War by Stars
Warnings: post ep. 25, and one spoiler for s2 ep. 1.
Disclaimer: Don't own, just for fun, please don't sue.

Summary:She is never sober. She drinks whatever she can get her hands on as she plays hopscotch across the globe.Collapse )

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Baa baa meme sheep, have you any.... uh... memes? [16 Oct 2008|11:16pm]
Ganked from ladybrick:

The problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other.

So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.

Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you!
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Tarot? Yes please [14 Oct 2008|11:07am]
Ganked from zerorevenge. Also, I was hoping for Temperance. *sings* You can't always get what you waaant...

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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GLOAT! [12 Oct 2008|02:40am]
[ mood | Gleeful ]

All I have to say about the new g00 ep:


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Re: g00 party on HSF [05 Oct 2008|10:54am]
[ mood | groggy ]

I am sad. Last night during the streaming of Gundam 00 s2 premier, I lost connection. Thus I missed a lot of cool stuff. DDD: Ah well, I was fairly drunk so I probably wouldn't really have understood anything anyway. XD

DLing the raw and will watch it tonight after work. With any luck, the hangover will be gone by then.

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