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I lift my lids and all is born again.

10/27/05 03:40 pm

My livejournal has been viewed by certain parental units, and must therefore cease to exist.

My soontobenifty livejournal [friends only, of course] is brokenintellect.

In case you didn't catch that, it's:

10/26/05 07:19 pm

I got my Callen test back from Monday, first block. I got a 99.
I will get a 100, before the end of the semester. I just wish that, in order to make him have a massive heart attack, I could do it on the semester final. He'd seriously have a stroke.

He'd probably be more surprised if I actually had all my homework done, one week. :\

10/25/05 05:48 pm

I reallyreallyreally hate some people, sometimes.

Case in point, Mat Onkst. I don't know why, but I'm really superpissed off at him, right now.

10/24/05 05:53 pm

It is sooo cold, today. Boys are good for keeping girls warm. Too bad I won't be seeing mine until Thursday.

I figured out, today, that teachers have access to livejournal on the school computers. So, I'll be updating from Algebra II, at random.
Good times.

10/21/05 06:24 pm

I miss Christopher. It's been a grand total of 21 hours, since I last saw him. >.<

I spent all of lunch with Mr. Owens today, since I was in a reallyreally awful mood, and I couldn't stand to be around all those stupid people. I hate everyone, today.
Ehh, well.
I'm just worried.

REBEKAH! Like my song and how it's so amazingly coordinated with my userpic? XD

10/19/05 05:59 pm

Today, Charlene Seelhorst violated me more than you could possibly imagine. As if it wasn't bad enough that she took it upon herself to notice the hole in my pants, she decided that she would stick her fingers in it&pinch. Needless to say, it was the single worst experience of my life.
When I told Owens about it, he laughed. Hysterically.

Buuuut! Later, he was all puttin' his arm around me&runnin' his fingers through my hair. That's right, Sarah. :| Be jealous. What's great is Sara was there to witness it all.

I had an Algebra II test today, which I had no idea how to do. However, Mrs. Kight loves me hardcore, so she's letting me reteach myself tonight, and finish the test in the morning. I think now's probably the time to start paying attention in class, instead of reading.

10/18/05 09:08 pm

Chris just left.
It was gooda.
Mom actually wasn't all psycho-crazy, which was surprising.

I'm really glad I got to see him - I missed him. <3

When Chris was on his way here, my cousin - Corey - called. Our conversations went pretty much like this..
Corey: What are you doing, talking to eighteen-year-old boys?
Kt: Actually, he's on his way here, now.
Corey: Oh, really?
Kt: Yeah.
Corey: I wanna talk to him, when he gets there.
Kt: Uh.. I guess that's fine..
Corey: (laughs) You don't want me to do that.
Kt: I don't care what you do.
Corey: I'll kill him.

:| Corey is 24, just so everyone knows.
Crazy redneck, as well. He told mom to relay the message that he would run Christopher over with his truck. >.<
I loathe my family.

10/17/05 05:58 pm

Man, what's with everybody being such emo kids, lately? All I ever see on livejournal and MSN is whining about one thing or another. Now, I've been known to complain - possibly more than most people - but gawd. I think I'm just in a very PMS mood, right now.

Oh, and I'm grounded, once more. Thank you, Ann Wallace. O', how I hate that woman.

10/16/05 08:13 pm

I went walking with Chris, today. Well, sort of. We didn't really walk all that far.

I didn't go to church this morning, because I was asleep. I guess that's pretty horrible of me, but I couldn't help it. I was tarrrrrrrrred.

For Adam.Collapse )

10/16/05 07:46 pm

I hate chain letters, but I'mma be gay and post it anyway.Collapse )

10/16/05 02:01 pm

Out of nowhere, I decided I would read some of my old entries. When I got to my list of my fifty favourite things, I realized something: I didn't have Chuck Owens on the list. :| I had Callen, but not Owens.

I'm such a failure.

10/15/05 03:13 am

3:13 in the morning, and I'm still awake.
There's got to be something wrong with me.

Oh, yeah.
Chris and I have been dating for two weeks.
He just spent the last two hours singing to me. Just to give you an idea, he sang: Love Me Tender; Unchained Melody; ...I'm too tired for this. Just trust me, when I tell you my boyfriend is wonderful.

10/14/05 11:25 pm

I just saw an ad for a drug treating rheumatoid arthritis. One of the side-effects was that several patients contracted tuberculosis.
Is that a fair trade?


10/14/05 09:01 pm

Bleh. I just got back from the mall. Before Christopher got there, I was with Brittany, Sammi, Aaron, and about elevendy billion other people. With the right wardrobe, Aaron has a striking resemblance to a young Elton John. :|

I love public displays of affection. :) Very very much.

10/14/05 04:33 pm

We had an academic team match, yesterday. It was at home, and I didn't feel like going home, then coming back. So, I just stayed.
Yeah. Stayed at school.
That's what I did.

I miss Vonda lotsandlotsandlots. :| I haven't talked to her/seen her in elevendy billion years. But, she's due back tomorrow! XD Woot woot! TOOWAH!

Yeah, have fun.
Boredommmmmmmm.Collapse )

10/12/05 05:54 pm

I'm not mad at you, m'dear. I haven't written you any notes because I've actually been doing stuff in class, and I just don't have time. >.< I'll call you later, after I get home from church. I lovelovelove you very much. :)

10/12/05 05:30 pm

I've been talking to Josh Engle for a while now. He knows Chris better than anyone. And I love him. :)

10/10/05 08:33 pm

As I predicted very early on, today was a good day.
A veryvery good day.

Tomorrow, we have an academic team match. It's away, so that leaves me an hour to do pretty much whatever.
Yes, tomorrow should be a good day, as well.

10/9/05 01:03 pm

I'm really hungry. Mom's gone to get some food, though.
I hope I can do something with Chris, today, because I miss him like crazy.

10/9/05 02:51 am

I reallyreallyreally hate days when I can't talk to Chris. This is miserable.

Today has been completely dreadful, in general. I didn't go anywhere, I didn't do anything, and I didn't even read. I felt completely useless and really lonely, all day.
And now I just feel even more useless and even more lonely.

I hate today.

10/9/05 02:01 am

You're ridiculous.

Yeah, you.

10/9/05 01:56 am

I swear, my computer belongs in the red light district.

10/9/05 01:49 am

I miss Chris a lot. :(

10/8/05 10:27 pm

I'm really hungry. And I just ate a lot of food.

O', to be fat.

10/8/05 05:00 pm

Iwanttopunchhiminthethroat. No, I'm not referring to Chris.

Thank you, Saraaaaahhhhhhhh!Collapse )

10/8/05 03:05 pm

I know it seems like all I ever do anymore is post song lyrics, but oh well. This song makes me really happy, and I'm sure you could figure out why.

I lovelovelove my boyfriend.Collapse )

10/8/05 04:31 am

I love Alanis Morisette. Her entire Jagged Little Pill album is amazing.

I wonder how Chris would feel if I gave her my virginity.

10/8/05 03:46 am

I just had the privelage of experiencing what Matthew Fox has wet dreams about, every night of his life. I was threatened to be raped by a gay man.

10/8/05 01:29 am


10/7/05 10:08 pm

I went to the homecoming game which was probably the stupidest thing I've done in a very long time. It was cold and rainy the whole time. I'm still shivering.

I feel very cool&smart&awesome&devious right now.

I love Chris Ellis, as well.

10/7/05 05:30 pm

Make a list of 50 of your favorite random things, then tag 5 people to do the same:

1. Chapter 41.
2. My soulmate.
3. My onetruelove.
4. My side-thing.
5. My boyfriend.
6. The Bell Jar.
7. Led Zeppelin.
8. Southside Baptist Church.
9. Jesus Christ.
10. Bright Eyes.
11. Ashley Hoskins.
12. Brittany Newhouse.
13. Cody Grubb.
14. asdf.
15. Kisses.
16. Late-night phone calls.
19. Craig Callen.
20. Claire Hunley. <3
21. The Goo Goo Dolls.
22. Dirty Dancing.
23. Burt's Bees lip balm.
24. Barnes&Noble.
25. Books.
26. The Perks Of Being A Wallflower.
27. Jennifer Kight.
28. Pink elephants with purple polka dots.
29. The idea of never tasting yogurt again.
30. Bacon, mushroom, and banana pepper pizza.
31. Elvis Presley.
32. My vinyl albums.
33. The idea of my mother calling Radio Shack and getting the needle for my record player.
34. Nostalgia.
35. The Breakfast Club.
36. The Rocky Horror Picture Show.
37. The place where our picnic table used to be.
38. Sarcasm.
39. Harassing people on livejournal.
40. Spaghetti.
41. Eye make-up.
42. Diet Cherry Vanilla Dr. Pepper.
43. Walking with Side-thing.
44. Making my friends happy.
45. Arguing with Ariana.
46. Being intellectual.
47. People who actually think before they speak.
48. Dancing like George Michael.
49. Pull My Hair.
50. Thank You, by Led Zeppelin.

I tag:

10/7/05 04:34 pm

I don't know why, but I really love this song a lot, lately.

Pull My Hair. Thank you, Conor Oberst.Collapse )

Oh, yes.

10/7/05 03:18 pm

Right now, I feel much more confident and happy and content than I have in a really long time.

I'm reallyreallyreally thankful for Chris.

10/7/05 02:18 pm

I took a handwriting analysis, because I didn't have anything better to do.
Some of it was actually pretty funny&a bit accurate.

-Katie has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
-Katie is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Katie changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Katie feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.
-Something is incomplete in Katie's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Katie's sexual needs.
-Katie is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Katie basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
-In reference to Katie's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Katie slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Katie can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
-Katie is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.
-Katie is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Katie will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Katie an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Katie is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Katie is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
-People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Katie doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

10/7/05 01:39 pm

Everyone should update more often. Like - every hour. It'd give me something to read.

10/7/05 11:58 am

As predicted, I felt much better after a little while, last night. Before I felt better, though, I got worse. I just cried and cried, and I didn't know why. I think Chris thought it was his fault, too, and that made me feel even worse. He was probably the only reason I didn't do something stupid, last night. I did eventually feel better, however, and that's the point.
I talked to Chris's mom, last night. She kept telling Chris that I was a "good girl" because I went to church, and talked about how much she loved my soulmate. She asked me how I put up with Chris and when she was going to meet me. To be honest, I don't know the answer to either of those questions. Especially the first one.

I love my soulmate. She and Scotty will be Romeo and Juliet for Halloween. No matter what it takes, it will happen. She just wants it so bad.

I haven't had any coffee, yet. I'm going to make some, now.

Seacrest out.

10/6/05 11:44 pm

Right now, everything seems really irritating and pointless and completely not worth the effort. However, I have a feeling that I'm going to feel better in about four minutes.
I just think I'm PMSing really bad.

Or something.

10/6/05 06:30 pm


Vonda, I need to talk to you. O_o

10/6/05 04:52 pm

My hair is really poofy today, for some reason. I can't make it stop being poofy, either. I like it when Chris's hair is all poofy [I did, when he didn't have a mohawk, anyway. I doesn't really get poofy anymore.].

My hands, feet, and nose are cold.

10/6/05 04:34 pm

I've been doing a lot of serious thinking. I'm not sure what I'm going to do, but I must talk to that boy.

Ehh, well. Oh well.

10/6/05 01:48 am

Instructions: Write a statement for 20 people you know, some statements can go to more than one person.
I need this so bad, right now.Collapse )

10/5/05 03:58 pm

I think I should go to church, tonight, but I don't know if I will. That would mean putting forth an effort to get up; shower; make myself presentable, and that all just seems so tiring. Especially when I've got so many books that simply aren't going to read themselves.

10/5/05 02:19 pm

Quizzes cure boredom... sort of.Collapse )

10/5/05 12:24 pm

I recently fell in love with Padraic My Prince, by Bright Eyes.

I had a brother once
He drowned in a bathtub
before he'd ever learned how to talk
And I don’t know what his name was
but my mother does
I heard her say it once
Padraic my prince, I have all but died
From the sheer weight of my shame
You cried but no one came
And the water filled your tiny lungs
Appear, my dear, and cry for me
Six years ago today
That I laid you in your grave
Your sweet young skin was shining then too
So tonight to celebrate i will...
I will poison myself
Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom
That is spinning
And I close the door
And I rest my head on the tile floor
Sickness and sleep turning me cold
I'm still not sure
Is there some better place I could be heading towards?
Where the selfishly sick and self-absorbed...
Are welcome
I saw the future once
I was drunk in a phone booth
My eyes were wet and red
But I could not tell what was said
And through the screams of the traffic
Voices carried
Saying I'm sorry
On a day so gray it's black inside
Watching churches on TV
In a coma you don’t dream
You just hope that someone sits with you
Babies turn blue when they're ignored
Like the sky on summer days
Before you turn and walk away
It has changed you
So tonight to compensate I will...
I will poison myself
Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom
That is spinning

10/5/05 01:17 am

I love him very much.

So touch me and let me feel you, kiss me with all of yourself. Don't worry I'll never let go, I'll love you with all of myself.

Elevendy cookies for anyone who can tell me what song this is from.

10/4/05 08:44 pm

So, I talked to my aunt, Missy, on MSN today. We talked about Chris and... well that's pretty much it. Just Chris.

It made me laugh a lot.

Here it is.Collapse )

10/4/05 03:03 pm

List fifteen songs you are into right now. No matter the genre, whether they have words or even if they're any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artist and the song in your LiveJournal along with your fifteen songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to ....
I was tagged by angel_spit

1. Thank You, Led Zeppelin
2. Slide, The Goo Goo Dolls
3. Creep (Acoustic), Radiohead
4. My Sharona, The Knack
5. Make War, Bright Eyes
6. Teen Heat, The Blood Brothers
7. Outside Of This, Greeley Estates
8. Pull My Hair, Bright Eyes
9. Valley Girl, Moonunit Zappa
10. We Kiss In A Shadow, Frank Sinatra
11. Sweet Child O' Mine, Guns N' Roses
12. Bowl Of Oranges, Bright Eyes
13. Lover I Don't Have To Love, Bright Eyes
14. A Poetic Retelling of an Unfortunate Seduction, Bright Eyes
15. Hit The Switch, Bright Eyes
[Most of the music on my computer is Bright Eyes, if you couldn't tell.]

I tag:

10/4/05 02:36 pm

1. Do you still know/talk to the person you lost your virginity to?
I don't talk to myself.

2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?
Build a house.

3.What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
Nsync, baby.

4.What is the best thing about your current job?
Uhm... uh... *is unemployed*

5. Do you wish cell phone etiquette was a required class upon purchasing one?
Yes. Rule #1: When standing in a crowd, don't yell into the phone.

6. Are you against marriage?
For stupid people. If the theory of Natural Selection is correct, why isn't stupidity being bred out of humans?

7. Why?
Because stupidity makes me want to kill people, and that is a sin.

8. What's the most fucked up food combination you've come up with that's actually tasty?
...I don't mix my food.

9. Where are you going on your next vacation?
To the moon.

10. Quote a song lyric
Like a virgin, touched for the very first time. Like a virgin, with your heartbeat next to mine...

11. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
New. :\

14. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
I own nothing.

15. Are you ashamed of having it?
You can't be ashamed of nothing.

16. What do you wish someone would buy you?
Tea from McDonald's. And maybe some french fries.

17. What do you think of hipsters?
...What a stupid name for a stereotype.

18. What are you wearing right now?
My birthday suit. :|

19. When is the last time you had mom's home cookin'?
Last night. It was disgusting.

20. Do you like your parents?
We fight a lot, but I love my mom. My dad... not so much.

21. What state/country are you from?
Middlesboro, Kentucky.

22. Do you ever wish you were gay/straight?
All the time.

23. Tell us about the last conversation you had.
I just talked to Ariana online about us going walking.

24. Where do you see yourself in one month?
Probably sitting here, on livejournal. :|

25. What is your favorite smell?
Rain. Hot rain.

26. Home Depot: pure evil or pure genius?

27. Do you consider yourself bi-polar?
I really think I am.

28. Are you good looking?
Only if everyone is drunk and had recently been poked in the eye with a branding iron.

29. Religion?
I'm a Christian.

30. What is the time and the outside temperature at the moment?
2:45 PM, and I have no idea.

10/3/05 07:39 pm


10/3/05 05:51 pm

"I felt myself melting into the shadows like the negative of a person I'd never seen before in my life."
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