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Evanescence

ER... Doctors and MORE Doctors!!!

Well, since I've had my period for about 10 weeks now as I've already said a few weeks back I think. I finally gave in and went to the ER. Now why the ER because my insurance SUCKS and no one takes it!!! Blame the government lol... Well, I was at the ER for about 5 hours They did a sonogram, blood work, and an internal. They said everything was "OK" and they found cysts of course. With my condition I'll have them the rest of my life. Well, they discharged me and gave me a number for a gyno out of the hospital that would follow up with me for free. I thought that was nice of him until I met him. Ironically it's the same doctor that my sister uses and she has an apt. Wednesday night for a check up (she's preg). I made an apt. for Thursday morning. I went there and as soon as I met him I knew I wouldn't like him. he was SOOO mean to me now there was no nurse in the room during my exam. He asked me a few questions and he then did another internal. I didn't think anything of it until he went out of the room to get prong like instrument. OMG he did a biopsy of my cervix!!! I was never in so much pain in all my life, he's like you'll feel a pinch! A pinch??? Ya OK! After I felt like I was going to throw up. HE was asking me questions and I couldn't even answer him. He asked why I wasn't working and on disability like it's his business to know! He then told me I had to lose weight like I didn't already know that! IT was just a horrible visit. He said he was going to call with the results in an hour and he never did. So now I have to call Monday if they don't call me. I'm hoping everything is OK, but I'm still in a lot of pain :( He gave me a lose dose birth control. *sigh* being a women sucks! 

On a happier note were planning a Disney trip for the last week of August into Labor Day. I can't wait! I'll let you know when its official when I'm def. going :) This was my week off and I did nothing as it was full of being sick in bed most of the time. I have a paper due Monday and I didn't' even start it :( bah...

Angelina Jolie *Lesbian*

Tired.. Don't Feel Good.. Stressed :(

Well school is almost over this semester can't belive it! It's over beginning of May but after Spring break which is next week we only have about 4 weeks left. I have alot to do in these short few weeks left. Papers, finals, and more papers. The end of the semester always creep's up so fast but it's like bam you have tons 2 do that you left for the last minute lol thats me! Always the last minute. I'm really tired today and feel really emotionally drained for some reason. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I've had my period for six weeks! I need to go on birth control but I just haven't called up a gyno to make an apt. I also need to get a new gyno so it's going to be annoying since they dont know my history ect. And to go in with a period its just gross. Blah. Next week is finally Spring break but I have nothing planned but school work. I also have to try and get more things done around the townhouse so we can put it up for sale as were moving. Were I have no idea! I do plan on moving to florida after I graduate grad school. I'm done with NY there's nothing here for me, I hate the snow and the cold and I need a change I think. Maybe I'll meet a girl there *cough ya right* but you never know. I gave up looking for someone came to the conclusion that I'll most probably be alone forever mabye I'll just be with a man like WIll and Grace lol I dont want to be alone I really don't but you can't make someone want you, you know? It seem's that now a day's everyone has a gf but me, I'm always the other wheel. THe 3rd wheel, 5th wheel and so on, its not fun I'll tell you that much. I just watched the L word season finale and I cried, I cried because it's the last one lol and also bc it gets me thinking about my own life. I am so sick of being alone, watching my life past me by and having no one in it. I hardly see my friend's these day's as they are always in a "mood" I also have no money to do anything which doesn't help. My head is pounding right now :( Blah If anyone has anyone in mind I can meet please let me know lol I always wonder if I was skinny would i still be alone? I really want a lap band, I've been looking into it again. My health is so bad though they would most probably never clear me for surgery. With having my period for 6 weeks, not sleeping right, my spleen has been inflamed, and so on... My life is so boring right now its like at a boring stage, Ya I'm in grad school but that's about it. THese are the "best" years of our life ya right! My life was alot better when I was younger and I thought it was bad then, if only i knew what it would be today! I would probably of done things differently. Its really strange how back then I had a lot of girls emaling me, meeting them ect. There was one time in my life (age 19) I met a different girl on a date once a week! Now I haven't met anyone since Dee and that was like September. Like I said I've given up, but there is only so long someone can be alone! Were a world that we need other's, we need to be loved and feel loved and have a meaningful relationship. Oh well... I guess were not all here to be loved and to have someone to love...
Art- Paint

I Made The Dean's List :)

Well, I got a letter in the mail from my old college were I went for my undergrad and they wrote to tell me that I made the dean's list for the Fall semester. I got a 3.9 GPA this past semester there I was very happy. They sent me a award as well like a cirtificate type deal. I'm glad because it's another thing to put on my resume u know? Well, Just wanted to share that with ya!

Evanescence

The L Word... & Rambling

Well I just did my side bar just used mostly things from my myspace easier and saved time :) I might change it but for now it'll do. The next step is my profile area but one step at a time. I finally been watching the L Word season 3 i've been actually staying up till around 6:30am watching it! I'm almost done I have 5 more ep. to go! But I'm not watching it tonight after I write this then off to bed since its already 4:30am again! I swear having insomina sucks! It's so unhealthy and I've tried everything I just can't seem to change my sleep clock :( I don't have showtime so I looked on you tube for the L Word season 4 and I found the first 2 ep I'm so excited but I have to first finsh season 3 lol but now I know i have that to look forward to. I kind of know what happens from my friends though! They change actress to fast for my liking but I'm just grateful Helena and Shane are still on they are my fav :) After them comes Carmen and Alice. Ok enough about the L word lol First week down at grad school its a lot like under grad your just taking classes in your area. I really miss my old college alot its so different. And like I siad in my other post every one knows each other and I feel very left out but hopefully i'll make friends. THey are very clicky! But right now I'm just focusing on passing as you can't get anything lower then a B in every class! I'm nervouse for that. My class I have on Monday's there's no tests just papers and if you dont like your grade you can redo them. My Group class seems' fun and kind of easy its alot like group dynamics which I had in undergrad and I'm taking Abnormal again they just use a fancy name for it. This is honestly my 4th time taking it! Once at my first college and since they didnt transfer it I took it again at my other college but I droped out the first time I took it but it was almost half way into the semester and then I took again last summer and now again! But I dont mind because its my favorite psyc class I love the abnormal area being I'm abnormal lmao. i haven't spoken to my therapist in almost 2 weeks i'm not happy about that. I finally see my med doc on saturday so thats good not like she's gonna change anything lol. I'm suppose to meet a girl Saturday that my friend is setting me up with but i'm not sure its 100% yet didnt talk to her tonight. So we'll see what happens. :) I'm nervouse but excited as i'm ready for a relationship as its been forever and a day and watching the L word that will do it to you lol seeing all those hot girls it drives a lesbian nuts haha. Feel free to friend me on myspace if you want! THe link is my website! Today was one of those days were everything goes wrong lol. I woke up late for class didnt hear my alarm and then I had to speed there in the traffic I swear no one knows how to drive. I"m not liking this drive but i have no choice. I finally get to class and I have dance Thursday nights at 8:30 well he let us out late great! I then had to run to the book store and made sure I had enough money for them, I didn't get one of them but I had to get them tonight since I'm not there again til Monday and I have hw to do. It was then 8:40pm when I left teh college and I knew I was low on gas but I said ah I'll worry about it after dance, well on my way there almost there my gas light goes on and I get very nervouse as my gas tank is very small. So I got ouff at the first exit and I didnt know were I was. I couldn't find any to be found I drove around there for about 5 minutes and then got back onto the highway. Well I then got off the next exit and I finally found a gas station but I first drove up it was out of order, then the next one was diesel so i drove around to the other side and i was walking to pay when I saw it had no handle to pump the gas I was so mad lol I was still trying to make dance at this point, but I soon gave up. I finally got my gas and then I got lost again trying to get onto the highway and I ended up near Pilgrim state in the pitch darkness lol. It was a very eventful night you may say but I was so happy to finally be home. The next stress is meeting with the finical aid people to get money for school. I need to see other options as I found out the college is alot of money! I knew it was going to be Hofstra the other college I could've went to is even more. But, thats life! 

I suppose thats it for tonight i'm gonna go try and get some sleep. I have alot of reading to do this weekend. And now that my hands are about to break off i'm saying good night!

<3 Danielle

NEW LAYOUT! and Update!

Ok I've spent the last week or so trying to find a perfect layout. I came across this one that I have now and it wasn't working right code wise. So I just spent the last 2 hours recoding alot of it! I'm very proud of myself because HTML isn't always easy :)  I love this layout and after all these hours I'm going to be using it for a while I hope lol I just gotta finsh the side area about me section ect... but for now its almost 4:35am and I have class tomorrow thankfully at night. But My sleep cycle is still all  messed up as you can see :( I've tried every sleep med on the market and nothing works! I dont know what I'm going to do. I've tried everything. 

Nothing really knew with me, I got offered a job at my college in the art therapy office for $10.00 an hour as a Teachers Ass. for the Art Therapy professors of course lol I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to take it because after 9 months of working they would reduce or take away my SSI/SSD payments and I need them mostly because I have Medicade and they would take that way and then I wouldn't have coverage for my meds. So I do not know what I'm going to do. I have to decide by Thursday though as I'm suppose to be there THursday morning at 10am that means I would have to leave my house by 9. School is about 40 miles away from my house which is about 45 minutes to an hour. I miss my old college alot I was spoiled there every professor knew me and loved me I knew the school backwards and forwards. But everything has to come to an end and a new door must open (cough my layout).  Its rough because everyone know's each other as I'm starting in mid-year. But, I'll make friends I'm sure :) I'm nervouse and excited about this semester. The class I had Monday seem's easy but who know's he only gives papers as test's there 3 of them which is good! I have two more to go to, so we'll see what happens.

On another note, my friends are trying to find me a girl lol since I"m not doing so good at it myself :) I've made alot of personal's on many dating sites but not really any luck. Three people emailed me on math.com but since I don't have a full membership I can't read them and  dont have 20.00 a month to pay for it! Who know's it could be from gross guys lol I get alot of them on myspace leaving me messages and I alway's respond with hello I'm gay! Speaking of guy's my mom keeps saying to go back to them since I've been single for almost a year. No mom I rather be alone then with a guy, yes I don't want to be alone forever and yes that is my biggest fear right now, but I will not stoop to guys no way. *yawn* 

Well since its almost 5am now I should be going to sleep but I just wanted to give a small update on me, my life and all that jazz. Nothing to fun right now but hopefully it'll get better. I'm still dancing and I student teach saturday mornings I love it! Enough rambling for now... 

I do hope to reconect with people on this site as myspace has really taken up alot of my time and online games ect... :) But i've had LJ for ever and I dont want to leave just yet :) So I hope to meet new people and catch up with the ones that I already made!

Art- Paint

My 2007 Spring Semester Schedule

Monday 5:00-8:00pm~ ARTH 605 History/Philosphy of Art Therapy

Tuesday~ No School

Wednesday 5:30-8:30pm~ ARTH 607 Clincial Techs in Group Art Therapy

Thursday 5:30-8:10pm~ PSY 655 Psychopathology

Friday~ Off

Credits= 9

They won't let a new Graduate student take more then 9 credits their first semester :)