On another note I don't really know, I'm just taking it day by day and all the days roll into one. I feel sick but I never go to the doctor. Blah. I just needed to vent. I lay in bed at night when I'm trying to fall asleep and I map out so many entries in here that I want to talk about and then when I finally do sit down and write I go blank. *sigh* There's no one online to talk to hench it's almost 2:40am and a school/work night but I just feel so alone. I'm not tired I woke up at 5:30pm today my sleep cycle is worse then ever and I cant' seem to do anything about it. I know its taking a big toll on my health but no matter what I do nothing works!
I suppose thats it for tonight i'm gonna go try and get some sleep. I have alot of reading to do this weekend. And now that my hands are about to break off i'm saying good night!
Ok I've spent the last week or so trying to find a perfect layout. I came across this one that I have now and it wasn't working right code wise. So I just spent the last 2 hours recoding alot of it! I'm very proud of myself because HTML isn't always easy :) I love this layout and after all these hours I'm going to be using it for a while I hope lol I just gotta finsh the side area about me section ect... but for now its almost 4:35am and I have class tomorrow thankfully at night. But My sleep cycle is still all messed up as you can see :( I've tried every sleep med on the market and nothing works! I dont know what I'm going to do. I've tried everything.
Nothing really knew with me, I got offered a job at my college in the art therapy office for $10.00 an hour as a Teachers Ass. for the Art Therapy professors of course lol I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to take it because after 9 months of working they would reduce or take away my SSI/SSD payments and I need them mostly because I have Medicade and they would take that way and then I wouldn't have coverage for my meds. So I do not know what I'm going to do. I have to decide by Thursday though as I'm suppose to be there THursday morning at 10am that means I would have to leave my house by 9. School is about 40 miles away from my house which is about 45 minutes to an hour. I miss my old college alot I was spoiled there every professor knew me and loved me I knew the school backwards and forwards. But everything has to come to an end and a new door must open (cough my layout). Its rough because everyone know's each other as I'm starting in mid-year. But, I'll make friends I'm sure :) I'm nervouse and excited about this semester. The class I had Monday seem's easy but who know's he only gives papers as test's there 3 of them which is good! I have two more to go to, so we'll see what happens.
On another note, my friends are trying to find me a girl lol since I"m not doing so good at it myself :) I've made alot of personal's on many dating sites but not really any luck. Three people emailed me on math.com but since I don't have a full membership I can't read them and dont have 20.00 a month to pay for it! Who know's it could be from gross guys lol I get alot of them on myspace leaving me messages and I alway's respond with hello I'm gay! Speaking of guy's my mom keeps saying to go back to them since I've been single for almost a year. No mom I rather be alone then with a guy, yes I don't want to be alone forever and yes that is my biggest fear right now, but I will not stoop to guys no way. *yawn*
Well since its almost 5am now I should be going to sleep but I just wanted to give a small update on me, my life and all that jazz. Nothing to fun right now but hopefully it'll get better. I'm still dancing and I student teach saturday mornings I love it! Enough rambling for now...
I do hope to reconect with people on this site as myspace has really taken up alot of my time and online games ect... :) But i've had LJ for ever and I dont want to leave just yet :) So I hope to meet new people and catch up with the ones that I already made!
Monday 5:00-8:00pm~ ARTH 605 History/Philosphy of Art Therapy
Tuesday~ No School
Wednesday 5:30-8:30pm~ ARTH 607 Clincial Techs in Group Art Therapy
Thursday 5:30-8:10pm~ PSY 655 Psychopathology
They won't let a new Graduate student take more then 9 credits their first semester :)
From My Mom...
1. 19' Flat Screen Computer Monitor
2. New Digital Camera
3. Crossfade CD
4. Flyleaf CD
5. The new Christina A CD
6. The Sims 2 Pet's Computer Game
7. The Sims 2 Pets game for Gamecube
8. Disney Princess Gameboy Advanced Game
9. Disney Party Gameboy Advanced Game
10. Disney Princess Blanket
11. Snow White PJ Set
12. Shirt from Old Navy
13. PJ Paints from Old Navy
14. Step Up DVD
15. Butterfly Poster
16. Disney Princess Chapstick
17. New Earphones for my Ipod Nano
18. Mickey Mouse PJ's from the Disney Store
19. Hannah Montana DVD
From My Sister and Brother-in-law...
1. a 700 Piece art Set with everything under the sun
From My dad...
1. A check for $75.00
2. His old Laptop that needs to be updated a Sony Vaio but this is also for my College graduation
|20||ART||Lab for ART 267||X||.00||.00||.0000|
But of course nothing can ever go good for more then 5 minutes in my life... something always has to come along the way and ruin things!!! I got a summons tonight for a car accident that happened in 2004... long story don't want to go into it so now I have to fucking worry about that! It just never ends.. But I'm trying not to let it damper my good news to much...
Today si My baby boy's 2nd Birthday :)
I guess thats it for tonight...