July 8th, 2005

scars [osilent_tearso]

Please, not again.

I am NOT doing this again.....

Fill this out if you'd like. I don't really care either way.Collapse )

If he's going to do this to me then that's it. No more. He hasn't called me in days. He has been acting weird. He's still hanging out with Alex who he likes and probably will until he gets with her and gets his heart broken. He can't do this to me again. Reading Paige's entry killed me. I'm not calling him. I'm not going to chase after him this time. If he messes this up it's on his shoulders. There will be NO MORE if he fucks this up again. I opened myself up completely and gave him EVERYTHING inside me and if he breaks me then there's no way I'd be able to build myself up again to go through it again. I guess we'll just have to see how he goes about this, because I'm going to stand back and wait. I promise though to anyone who's reading this, if he fucks it up again there will never be a Craig and Ashley. I can't believe he asked me to marry him and then tells fucking Paige that he likes her and has for a long time. So lets recap. He loves me and doesn't want anyone but me, or so he said, but he has feelings for Alex AND Paige and he told me he had feelings for Alex. It's just so fucked up.

Whatever I'm going to bed I'm not in the mood to sit in front of this computer right now.

Night.

-Ashley
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