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! ! ! ! ! a c c e s s d e n i e d ! ! ! ! ! [Mar. 14th, 2005|01:23 pm]
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Gavin says "Friends Only"
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5 months yesterday! [Mar. 6th, 2005|06:31 pm]
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5th monthday fun!Collapse )

-sigh- ray and i have been having some problems and i'm not really sure what to do.

gavin helped mommy clean today.

kevin spacey is on tv. seeya
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blargh [Feb. 22nd, 2005|02:38 pm]
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the many faces of gavinCollapse )

tonight mashed potatoes, salad, rolls, and chicken noodles is on the menu.

we went to Gavin's doctor's appointment. He's getting big. She said something about his teeth in the back how they feel like they're poking out. his ear infection is doing a lot better and she called him a little flirt! she'd say something to him, he'd kick and giggle. it was so cute.

a few interesting links.

The Homophobic Capital of the World? hey, i live here!

Right On

gotta go cook. seeya!
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current events thursday / 4thmonth! [Feb. 3rd, 2005|07:32 am]
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so. Ray had to work today so that means I get to do the whole journaly thing once more. I won't be able to post on Saturday, and that's when Gavin turns 4 months, so I've got the monthly pic celebration ready today.

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Happy 4th Month, Bubba!Collapse )

It's in the people's hands now
say's Doug Mays the topeka republican house speaker.
Statewide vote on gay unions will be April 5th.
Marriage is on the ballot.

Shane's birthday party on saturday, superbowl on sunday (go patriots!!!). Seeya on monday!
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justice and things. [Dec. 16th, 2004|08:02 am]
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today the ovulation calendar says i'm fertile, so we're not even going there.

let's see.

to elaborate more on the whole scott peterson thing. i don't think he's guilty. it's as simple as that. I think Carl put it best when he said "He was going to fry from the beginning" I believe that's completely true. I have more to say about it, just nobody needs to hear it. It's pretty boring, but if you do, hit me up: drinkupjack - aim

the 13th was Ray's birthday. I didn't really get him anything but I did make lasagna and cake. I bought a white onesie for Gavin and wrote on it. Ray liked it. I liked it. It was cute. I have pictures.
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one up. [Dec. 7th, 2004|08:30 am]
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[music |bet jazz. the sinatra collection]

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beautyCollapse )
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gobble, gobble. bang, bang. [Nov. 26th, 2004|06:56 am]
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[music |the holly and the ivy - natalie cole.]

i hope everyone had a terrific thanksgiving.

yesterday i had much thinking, and much to be thankful for.  we went to my grandmothers. we ate with all of the elderly. i felt bad for some. one gent couldn't eat by himself. he had to be fed by a nurse and then there were many people that didn't have grandchildren, or children come to see them. my grandma & grandpa seem to really appreciate when we come around, especially when we bring Gavin. My grandmother goes on and on about not seeing his eyes because he's always sleeping, but she's seen them before. Her memories escape her.  Ray and I both agreed that if we ever got that bad, where we couldn't eat by ourselves, we'd want to be shot.  I think out of about 15 old people that ate at that time, only 3 people had families there, and my grandparents were one of the three.  It's sad how it just seems like people don't make time for their families anymore.  The holidays are sometimes depressing to me. I remember back when my mom's father was alive, and everyone had to be there for thanksgiving, or christmas. It was ritualistic. If you weren't there you would probably be sacrificed, but nobody ever found out because we were all there. My 3 uncles, their kids. Mom, My dad, Me.... then my Grandfather died. Slowly, at each holiday it dwindled. Granted, David always came back from Texas with the 3 girls, but then that stopped too. Uncle Bruce re-married to Deb and they started spending every other holiday at her parents house.  This year we went to my Uncle Bruce's. It felt like old times (almost). Everyone has kids now, husbands. Brianne, Stacey, and I. You could tell that everyone with someone to show off was cheery.  I dreaded the idea of going, but after about a half an hour there, it didn't seem so bad anymore, everything was sort of relaxed. We talked about birthin' babies. They asked me how long my labor was. It was the shortest out of all of them. They asked me if I had an epidural. I said no. They gasped.  They mentioned they didn't think they could do it without some pain medication.  I guess it made me feel good to know that I didn't have to have any, but they did, kind of made me feel like a stronger person. I don't know. The funniest thing all day: Everytime Hannah would look at Ray, she'd start crying! He'd wave, she'd bawl. It was hilarious.

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i'm thankful for ray, gavin, my family, friends, and you ;)

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holidays. [Nov. 24th, 2004|08:53 am]
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[music |fridayi'minlove \\ the cure.]

tommorow is Gavin's first thanksgiving, and today was his first snow.  this is silly but i took a picture


when i went back home, i took pictures. visiting my grandmother reminds me of growing up. I dunno. I hated Scranton and wanted to do anything possible to get out of there, memories and such were ripping me apart, not to mention the scenery was getting old& the people weren't so pleasant to remember, but now that I'm older, it's like returning back to Osage County, to old stomping grounds gives me warmth. gay.


my old town.Collapse )

it's a small town. it feels like population zero. you got the old guys that sit on the bench at Casey's in the morning drinking coffee. It never changes. It gets too cold they migrate inside. Jessi, Stephanie& I used to do the same thing, except at the bench in front of the bank, and the post office. When things were simple.  I was explaining to Ray about how I wanted Gavin to grow up in Lyndon (that's where Ray grew up, went to school, played sports.) I wanted Gavin to feel the same thing when he goes to high school. Playing ball under the hot lights. Football season in the unpredictable Kansas weather and loving every minute of it.  Going to the Gym on Wednesdays with Great Uncle Herman, Uncle Carl and Ray to play basketball. I love that town feeling of Lyndon where people put their lives on hold just to watch their town play ball. It's like Varsity Blues without the fanatical, overbearing coach.  I want Gavin to grow up and feel that powerful sense too. Well that's boring, right?


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Birth Story [Oct. 13th, 2004|10:11 am]
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