i live in thee box

Recent developments

I can't believe that all this time there have been a relentless cast of characters just waiting to judge, that isn't what my life is about. I am still attrociously annoyed to learn that which I thought was abhorrently true. It's not extremely problematic. No, that is a total and utter lie. A complete lie in every sense of the word. The worst part is that I don't FEEL like changing a damned thing just because the monitors are swimming so near to the edge of the pool. I can only hope in a sick self satisfying way that you do it to them too.

NO. That's the opposite of what I would ever want for anyone. Is it? Isn't it?
I appreciate everything of that I am one hundered percent certain. The only thing I feel is that life certainly is not really a tangible matter. AGAIN. Oh it's not go be cold again. I am tired of THESE choices. Whose lives are these?

I am tired of having an exsistential versus material need debate with absoloutely no one. I am AGAIN totally disgusted with everything. This is how it always is if it isn't mine. There is no one here I want touching me, I don't think. And my body is in a state of pain that is completely uncomfortable...like it always is.

When I am not getting banged. I am making art because that is the only thing I do. Yet I don't want to and I pretty much hate it. AGAIN. I still need to figure out how I make money, get resettled with accounts and phones aquaintances friends someone to bang and totally fuck with.

I am angry.
I need what I need yesterday. I need a fucking income.
i live in thee box

The only way I can describe it

Is quite uncomfortable. I cannot stay in this town.
Unless I seriously have to. I hope I am almost done here.

Just walking around is so uncomfortable.

I'm out tommorrow.

That's great they walked 60 miles for breast cancer in three days.

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i live in thee box

Lesee

Just been stuck walking around this town. Got denied for any help or benefits. I don't have anything to carry around at all anymore. Anything I have acquired since like 3 years ago is pretty meaningless crap picked up from random stores. Did some art today, finished up a piece that had been sitting for a minute. The usual stuff is still problematic only now certain aspects are completely magnified. I feel a great sense of urgency of course to delelte this thing, which I probably won't; and a compelling desire to move ahead.

People keep offering to help me out offering AGAIN to aid in signing up for the same programs I have signed up for previously. I wonder how many people die waiting for their aid to come through. I have pretty much given up on it. I was supposed to see some doctor on a saturday I thought it was a lie so I ditched it.

Why would they need years of records to have another doctor see me? Schizophrenia and anorexia is no reason to get aid. DO I honestly need to list all the other compound bull crap on top? The last thing I want to do is spend more time at doctors. The doctors here have basically refused to help me and gave me attrocious exams and of course denied hearing my shopping cart list. move again

Yeah great for now my limbs work and I can finally

good point. Where?
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I'm Sorry

why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up why did you wake me up

what in the fuck is your problem
i live in thee box

I know

Not too many people still upodate. I'm looking for some other networking type sites that are a little less narcissy than fb and my space. input also required