I found this quote on Oteps myspace thinger. Its from Roosevelt
and it fits perfectly to my "haters" and individuals who
ridicule me because i didn't finish school,
and other aspects in my life. You know
who you are bitches.
"It is hard to fail, but it is worse to have never tried to succeed"

5 more days :)

only five more days till u turn 4 my baby ... I Love You!!!!!

Tú eres la tristeza ay de mis ojos
que lloran en silencio por tú amor
me miro en el espejo y veo en mi rostro
el tiempo que he sufrido por tú adios

Obligo a que té olvide el pensamiento
pues siempre estoy pensando en el ayer
prefiero estar dormido que despierto
de tanto que me duele que no estés...

Como quisiera ay
que tú vivieras
que tus ojitos jamás se hubieran cerrado nunca
y estar mirandolos

Amor eterno
e inolvidable
tarde o temprano estaré contigo para seguir

Yo he sufrido tanto por tú ausencia
desde ese día hasta hoy no soy feliz
aunque tengo muy tranquila mi conciencia
se que pude haber yo hecho más por tí

Oscura soledad estoy viviendo
la misma soledad de tú sepulcro
tú eres el amor del cual yo tengo
el más triste recuerdo de Acapulco...

Como quisiera ay
que tú vivieras
que tus ojitos jamás se hubieran cerrado nunca
y estar mirandolos

Amor eterno
e inolvidable
tarde o temprano estaré contigo para seguir

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successfully cleaned out friends list. anyone who never participated or doesn't update much went.
wow, i really don't have many friends now haha :)
oh well. I'm considering adding people back to my myspace thinger.
You should all petition. Then i'd have no choice but to add you all back. k? k.
Did i mention we went to see Otep, i think last month? It was a small club so we got up close,
she (Otep) acted a little weird. Kinda snobby .. i didn't really like that. There were some other bands.
Dry Kill Logic, umm.. someone other two i think. and American Head Charge. I didn't like them at all. The singer is a jerk. So yeah. I tried to take pics with my cheesey little camera phone but not much luck.
:) Hail-DiScOrD!

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    Cradle Of Filth - Malice Through the Looking Glass

Friends Cut

well, i've decided to clean out my lj friends list and make a huge cutdown.
if i cut someone it is because they don't participate or we simply never talk...
so yeah, if you'd like to stay and don't participate often, feel free to leave a comment
and yeah ...
changes will be effective in about a day or so, when i get off my lazy ass and decide to do it..

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    Cradle Of Filth - Mother of Abominations


Did something different with the background image of my little fatso. It should randomly change with each page load. Am going to make something to add into that link area :)
Listen to lacuna coil! They rock!


So i changed my layout yet again :) isn't it nifty? Yes. It's Dora. cos my isis love's dora. and i'm messing with this mood thing too.
Please Check it out- there's links to stuff in my "Current Mood" section- let me know if it's good, not good, do you like the music? should i get rid of this? give me your feedback.. or die :) thanks <3


im trying something new.
this also keeps my mind busy. Im expirementing with php, lamejournal and my domain thinger. i want to add it over there where my Homepage link is. but for right now u can check it out here. i wanna make it so my poor readers can customize MY journal. k?

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    Electric Hellfire Club - Epitaph

happy bday

Today 1-15-2004 one year ago.. just about this time - 12:24 AM, i was taking mel to the hospital. Providence Memorial Hospital. Yasmine Isadora Castro was born today One year ago. I can't really recall what time it was right off hand now. I remember taking isis to melissas parents house. I remember Rita getting mad at the fact that i had to drive all the way down to the other side of town just to drop isis off with melissa in the car/in labor, when her damn parents could've taken one of the 5 vehicles they have parked outside their home and met us at the hospital. It was different from when Isis was born. Isis didn't want to come out haha :)
Yasmine sorta popped out. I remember i got to cut her umbilical cord. I was scared. Mom and mel still laugh at me, because when the doctor asked - "where do you guys live?",
I answered "5013 Mt. Vernon..." when he meant what side of town do you live on.. im such a retard haha! :P
The 14th, Melissa had worked in the morning and didn't even realize she was dilating. She always made me proud about that. She was tough and still is. I was working 3pm - 11pm that day. I remember mel brought me some chicken enchiladas. Damn they were soooo good. She brought them to me at work- we were still living at my moms, so she came walking with Isis in the stroller. i saw her and she looked sick and pale. I told James [a regular customer who was hanging out with me at the store] and Rita who was still there, there's something wrong with her. she looks sick. they insisted no. I was right.

melissa and i were watching the ring today before she went to bed. i don't know what it was about that movie today. it made me uncomfortable. i guess the little girl being dead and all. yknow? bad timing for that movie i suppose. we came upstairs and mel was crying. my mom tells me that my grandma used to cry even up to old age about losing one of my aunts as a baby too. i don't think this pain will ever go away for either of us.

I know i can't hold you in my arms anymore.
I know i can't make up to you what i did wrong.
I feel like i'm going crazy sometimes.
Why did you had to leave me so soon...
leave me to cry forever. I'll never see your first steps.
I'll never hear your first words. I'll never get to give you away at your wedding. See you dressed up on prom night. Argue with you about frivalous little things. See you drive for the first time. Walk you to school. Those opportunities died the day that you left us. I blame only myself for ruining our family. Only because i was so careless. If i had only checked sooner, maybe i would have gotten to you on time. All i can do is blame myself for you being gone now. I hope you know i will always love you. Though i won't see your precious little face again, or hold your warm little body in my arms close to me, I love you my precious little angel. Happy 1st Birthday.

Yasmine Isadora Castro
1/15/2003 - 6/08/2003

for anyone intersted in looking at the above link. my baby is the 3rd photo down on the right, 4th entry down on the left.

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