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Update on my current situation [30 Jan 2004|03:41am]
I have not updated this journal in some time. Things have happened. However, I am not willing to discuss them right now. There are issues I need to resolve. If you are a friend, and are worried about me, know that your concern is appreciated.

A more detailed update is forthcoming.
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My emotion chip [16 Nov 2003|08:11pm]
cptpicard has asked that I consult with cnslrdeannatroi regarding the reactivation of my emotion chip. I find myself agreeing with this suggestion. It is indeed unsatisfactory not to have access to my lost emotion-related memories. However, I can not help but wonder if this procedure risks harming my positronic matrix further.

Ah well. There are some risk in life one simply must take.
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My current status [04 Nov 2003|12:19pm]
I did not wish to update my journal at this time. There are other tasks which I consider more important. However, cnslrdeannatroi appeared shocked when she discovered that I had not updated my journal in what she somewhat inaccurately described as "weeks and weeks". Unless I update by 2300 hours tonight, she has threatened to "post a security detail outside my quarters to keep (me) locked in there until (I) do".

I have checked Star Fleet regulations, but I have been unable to ascertain wether or not this is actually within her power. Nevertheless I have now updated.

I was asked to mention that my condition remains the same, but that I am slowly learning to deal with my loss of memory and certain personality components. There are, however, times when I regret my lack of emotions.

This concludes my "update". I shall now return to Engineering to assist geordi_laforge.
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[29 Sep 2003|08:05pm]
There is nothing new to report concerning my condition. I wish there were. If this continues... It must not continue.

I have returned to my duties, somewhat. Mostly I stay in my quarters running diagnostics on various systems on the ship. It makes a welcome change from running diagnostics on myself.

Spot is still shy around me, though she does accept food when it is offered, particularly feline supplements #6 and #9.
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No change in status [08 Sep 2003|11:31am]
I have not updated this journal because I have had nothing new to report. Most of my memories from after my emotion chip was installed has returned. I can only assume that my "personality" has also returned to "normal". Though I must say I am not quite sure what "normal" means in this instance.

I have little way of knowing if I am any different from what I was before. My actions and thoughts now seem to match those of my intact memories, but I might have changed in later years, after the chip was installed. I find it very unsatisfactory not to know.

cnslrdeannatroi has advised me to wait and see if more of my memories re-surface before I try and activate the chip. She wants me to "work through them", as she puts it, with a non-emotional and more rational mind first.

But I find that the situation is becoming less and less satisfactory. I am stagnating. I belive I will have to do something to correct this soon.
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Update on my current status [04 Sep 2003|06:47pm]
I have made a somewhat disturbing discovery.

Of my memories from before my emotion chip was implanted, 98.574% are intact. However, only 17.03% of my memories after the chip was implanted are intact. This would seem to indicate that some of the memories are directly linked to the emotion chip. I have theorized that since emotion was a part of my perception during that period of time, I will be unable to recollect those particular memories without the aid of the chip.

However, I have been asked not to activate the chip. I seek advice in this matter.
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An update on my current status [03 Sep 2003|05:43pm]
Since I am for the moment confined to my quarters, there is very little for me to do to occupy my time. I approve of this, as it allows me to concentrate on making a complete recovery.

My memories are gradually returning, as my positronic matrix re-adjusts to its new settings. Or old settings. It is hard to tell which is which any more, even for me. It is a disorientating "feeling", although it is nothing like the emotions I experience when my emotion chip is active. It would be unfortunate if the chip is permanently damaged. I do not hope that this is the case, but until I reactivate it there is no way to tell. I hope I may do so soon.

I have had few visitors. I noticed people looking at me when I was escorted back to my quarters from Engineering. Perhaps they were afraid of me. I cannot remember what I have done while I was not myself. Was I violent, perhaps? That does not seem plausible. I could easily have killed everyone on board if that were the case.

It is unfortunate that I do not remember.
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My current status [02 Sep 2003|11:54am]
I do not recognize this these rooms, or these computers.
I have been told they are mine.

geordi_laforge and cnslrdeannatroi advised me to set up this journal. I have done so. They also suggested I "update" it as soon as I felt up to it, to inform the rest of the crew of my recovery. Although I do not currently "feel" anything, since my emotion chip has not been re-activated, I have chosen to update now.

I seem to have a cat. I think her name is... Spot. She is hiding. It would be satisfactory if she were not hiding.

I would like to see her.
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