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[29 Dec 2004|10:27pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

havent used this journal in a while.. :)

there really is no point to this entry. lol <3

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[08 Oct 2004|06:27pm]
[ mood | worried ]

well.. im waitin for sarah to pick me up for the football game.
i'm a little worried it might turn out like last night's did though, thats why i was considering not going.. he's gonna be hangin out w/her, and im gunna be sittin there getting all sad.. and sarah will come and suffocate me with a bear hug :)

i hafta meet jess b there dang it. i love that chick and evrything, just she pulls me out of my group when she comes to thing like this.. and she has no idea wats been going on the past few days :-/

but i think sarah is here.. actually i've thought that for a while now.. but i g2g

hopefully i'll c you at the game :) and wish me luck!


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and i thought it couldnt get any worse. [07 Oct 2004|09:40pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

this is exactly what i least expected. why didnt i expect this???? its the second time its happened!!!!!!!!!!!!

he likes another girl- wont say who because she reads this and i wouldnt do that, its already bad enough i'm posting about it

no wonder she wouldnt talk to me today though.. everything makes sense that didnt before, i mean, if i think about what other people where saying and doing, if i put it all together it just fits all too perfect. i hate it.


you know, that song i posted the other day, some of the parts didnt EXACTLY match me when i posted it, but now its perfect. just so happens it came onto my media player a minute ago.




gosh you guys i truthfully dont know what to do,

what am i supposed to do tomorrow when those eyes i once loved catch me? what am i going to do when he says hi? and when he asks if we're still cool? and MOST of all, when he says he's sorry...


i don't know how 2moro's gunna go by. i really dont.


omg. he's calling me

holy crap wat do i do

ahh! it sucks that when u hear a phone ringing you just have to answer it..

i'll see you 2moro


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[07 Oct 2004|03:45pm]
3 teardrops| lets color the sky with our tears

dont give me that same shit(oki mushroom) excuse as before.... [06 Oct 2004|10:12pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i've never typed in this while putting lotion on, so forgive me if i slip a few times..

well i skipped my third dance class today.. it was ballet... i dislike that teacher.. oh well though


2moro should be boring.. and awkward.. and i hope i dont cry... i dont want to be a more emotional freak than i already am :-(

cant wait for my magic man to give me a hug though :) lol yes you.



gonne go, justin told me to call him. so i will for a few  b4 i faint off to sleep..

</3 Jess


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[06 Oct 2004|04:12pm]
[ mood | i feel like poop ]

well thats it

its over

no more "me and jordan" or "my second half"


my heart broke at about 2:10 today...

but it's "just for now"... yea sure

rite now im watching cartoons and eating comfort food- which is currently carrots and dip. it gets me so frustrated though, because EVERYTHING has a memory with him. from carrots, to spongebob, to the macarena, to the color blue, and even to aranguatangs(the spelling is memoriac too)...

but i'm gunna get ready for dance... dont feel like going to the stinky place that usually give me joy today.. i 'strained' my quads yesterday at poms.. and it just so happens we do quad stretched in jazz, which is my first of 3 classes 2nite. ergh. but oh well, i'll live

gimme some hugs tomm :-/

</3 Jess

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[05 Oct 2004|08:28pm]

right now i am feeling pretty good. i've been thinking a lot, and i figure that the best thing to do, is just act normal as though nothing has happened, and remember that life goes on. i talked to justin after school and it sort of helped, like actually more than sort of, more like a lot. and the i sort of sat around for a long time until i had dinner and went to poms. then suddenly i had a horrible stomach ache like i was gunna throw up, i had it for like 30 minutes. man i hate that feeling


i have a bad feeling about this upcoming convo.. last night it didnt go well at all, i couldnt get a solid breath into it for about a half hour. i hope tonight goes better


ahh theres the phone

c ya

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I just said back off, it doesn't mean i'm leaving... [04 Oct 2004|08:52pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

song that reflects me:

Green Day: Extraordinary Girl


She's an extraordinary girl,
In an
ordinary world,
And she can't seem to get

He lacks the courage in his mind,
Like a child left behind,
Like a pet left in the rain

She's all alone again,
Wiping the tears from her eyes

Somedays he feels like dying,
She gets so sick of *crying*

She sees the mirror of herself,
An image she wants to sell,
To anyone willing to buy

He steals the image in her kiss,
From her hearts apocalypse,
From the one called whatsername

She's all alone  again,
Wiping the  tears from her eyes

Somedays he feels like dying

Somedays it's not worth trying,
Now that they both are finding,
She gets so sick of



last night jordan told me he wants a less serious relationship, today was a very bad day :-/

i should talk about something happier.


oh! me, kris, and shiny decided we're putting bags over our heads for halloween .. just cutting out little holes for our eyes and mouth.. kris decided we're going to go up to the doors and say "BOO" :) dont ask.

aww man kris! we didnt get the boot today :( there was a boot in the movie i watched after school tho..


the school day was bad, and i'll leave it at that

and chloe and sarah both werent on the bus home from school so i just decided to do my hw on it. people were looking at me like i was psyco, but do i sound like i care? ...i got like 1/3 my spanish done so that was good. then i came home and derek was in a really good mood so i sat down with him and we watched the last samurai untili fell asleep :-X then i woke up and it was about 5:30 and dinner was just getting finished :) so i ate, finished my spanish, and came up here to type my la paper. i finished that, then burned cupid (dont ask) a cd, and talked online a bit. now look at the time, its like 9:05...

dont have much else to say, except

thanks for the hugs to:
kris, justin, & jeff

and justin- when u picked me up it made me so... smiley :) it was awesome. thanks

_________i'll see ya'll 2moro

hoping for a better day 2moro :-/



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[03 Oct 2004|06:52pm]
[ mood | want to talk on the phone... ]

got my pics from last nite already :) i have some good ones..

i think im gunna go to bed.. i just wanted to update and tell sum1 to call me. i want to talk to sum1.._..but i can't :(

CALL ME!!! :)

bye babes

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Nobody likes you, everyone left you, they're all out without you, having fun... [03 Oct 2004|05:29pm]
[ mood | crappy ]


nothing to say about that party, just depressing and i hurt my foot.

i reeeally didnt want to see her there, makes me sad :-/ and jordan barely even gave me a hug the whole time.. b4 he left he's jsut like "bye" and waved..


well, gunna go se if i hav hw and then go to bed EARLY hopefully nobody calls and i hav to wake up and talk to them... unless its kris or jordan, then i'll b fine

c ya guys tomm at school... ugh. school.

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[03 Oct 2004|04:50pm]

(me , not me)


-i love sunsets
-i am single

-i have an uncountable # of fav songs
-music rocks my socks
-i have an anger problem
-my heart has been broken twice(or more)
-sometimes i'm depressed for no reason

-today is saturday
-in the past week i laughed so hard i cried

-i'm on the phone
-i am racist
-i have a crush on two people right now
-i drive
-i miss someone
-i had a bad day
-i had a good day
-i am in love
-i got hugs from someone special today
-my first real kiss was in middle school
-i've never been kissed
-i love my past

-i play a musical instrument
-i am on some kind of team
-i love taking pictures
-i am waiting for a phone call right now
-my average bed time varies from midnight to 4am every day

-i have a huge crush
-i am getting annoyed of this survey
-i am glad this is the last bullet


lets color the sky with our tears

[03 Oct 2004|10:41am]
[ mood | anxious ]


gosh was i wrong, i had the best time ever...

i felt so.. special(?) when i had my hair all done up and i was in my dress... my hair looked pretty funky when i took it out too :)

and now kris and alex are a couple :) they're so cute!

everything was all :-D until the end when casey had to leave.. i was rite- she did cry. but i felt really sad for some reason, and bry and jordan almost started crying, in fact, bry did cry after she left. i didnt know how to help, all i did was give hugs :-/

and then after most evrybody left i went to find my mom and found out cooper's jacket got stolen :( that sucks BAD

but i gotta go get ready for karins party.. i'm gunna be late!!

<3<3 jess

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hm... [30 Sep 2004|08:19pm]
[ mood | dont ask ]

homcoming in two days... not TOO excited, i'm only anxious to get my hair and nails done and put my dress on and feel all pretty... that will be cool :)

dinner and the dance won't be the funnest... i know i'm going to be really uncomfortable from the moment the hug and reunite to the moment the hug and say goodbye... she'll be all crying and stuff.. and then she'll be like "bye jess!!" and me acting all :) will be like "bye! it was good seeing you!!"....

i dont want to be all >:0 about it though.. you know what i mean? its like, idk. i'll stop talking about this now

so are you guys all excited???? i bet :)

crap gotta do hw...

dont laff at me when we do our dumb dance at homecoming (and i mess up) :-X

lets color the sky with our tears

[29 Sep 2004|09:00pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

hola! i skipped dance today to go to poms :-X really i should be at it for another 45 minutes.. it was from 6:30-9:30, but i went to poms from 6-8 and mom didnt want to take me to my last dance class after, so i was like "ok :)" and ya... shhhhh

but um.. 2moro, for famous face day i'm wearin a Bulls jersey, and old one, a Michael Jordan one :) so i have Jordan written on my back :) hehe! and me and chloe are putting those black stripe things on our faces like football players do :)


well, i'm gunna go, cuz i g2 fnish my hw, and find a red headband for 2moro, and like take a shower and stuff... so ya

see ya'll 2moro mornin! bright and early :-/

good night, sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite!

*sweet dreams*

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[28 Sep 2004|09:39pm]
[ mood | caraaaayZay!! ]


hehe.. confused yet?

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[28 Sep 2004|04:26pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

yay!!! NEW JOURNAL :):)

if you want to be added comment :-D

i love you all :-*


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