Why can't I think of anything but him? I haven't talked to him in forever but its like when I see him all the old feelings come back again. He's never made me happy so why am I acting like this? I need security in my life more than anything. I need someone who is always there for me, someone who genuinely cares, and I don't have that from anyone in my life right now. I wish just one thing would go right once in awhile and good fortune would come my way. I'm not a bad person.