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.she's trapped inside her room with reruns on the screen old books and movies but she can't stop thinking i'm torn between myself my radio my friends. .i want to read good news i want to be innocent again i want to read good news but nothing good is happening.

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.I think there's something more, life's worth living for Who knows what could happen. Do what you do, just keep on laughing One thing's true, there's always a brand new day I'm gonna live today like it's my last day.

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[Saturday,
January 22nd, 2005]
[ mood | cranky ]

Mmkay.. New journal. It's x_my_reply  so if you want to keep reading my journal, go to that one. :)

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[Thursday,
January 20th, 2005]
[ mood | depressed ]

Hm.. Language Art's Mid-Term was okay. Looooooooong but okay. I probably sort-of failed it. Hmm..okay. I was supposed to take the Social Studies mid-term today, but I couldn't find the teacher, so I just went to the class I was supposed to be in. Chorus. Blah. It was pretty fun. Brittany, Alyssa, Christina and Hayley were twisting Sam's hair weird. So then Me, Alyssa, Christina and Brittany decided to put our hair in side-ponytails. I didn't want mine anymore because everyone was taking them out. So yeah. Then we all just went and sat in the Cafeteria for the rest of it. Hahaha good times Christina. (I got this letter, but it wasn't mine, so me and Christina thought of something.)
"Watch it's a form for a mental institution and then they come and get you, and lock you up in a straight jacket. I'll teach you how to say bye with your feet." lol. Wow. Study Hall was..umm fun.

Um.. Me and Jess are... friends again? I don't know if were friends again, I just know I don't hate her. And I'm not mad at her. Hopefully she's not mad at me. She thought I said I hope she died. I felt so bad after, I was like, "I didn't say I wanted you to die, I just called you a bitch." But I really felt bad! Sorry Jess!!!

Ummm.. I feel kind of sucky because (even though I know you had plans already) I was supposed? to go with Dev and Jamie and Hunter to the movies tomorrow, but Dev told Cori she wasn't and then she asks Jessie if she wants to go. Mmmkay cool? I want to go but I don't think they want me to.. and I would feel bad because I would sort of be inviting myself (even though Dev asked me to, and I was supposed to go, but whatever.)

AHH my stupid Mother is making me go to a Homework Tutor because if I don't, I will fail the 8 grade. And she's making me go to a Girls Club because "I don't talk to her and I should hear other people's problems." Who gives a shit about other peoples problems. If I don't know them, I really don't care. Ahhhhh. I hate this.

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[Wednesday,
January 19th, 2005]
[ mood | cranky ]

Sunday-- I went to Church. :-\ After I went to Dunkin Donuts. Then came home and ate. Hung out on the Computer most of the day. Then went upstairs to Study. I studied and then Dev came over. We just hung out, as usual. Went on the computer. Mom ordered Pizza, so we ate that. Then came down here and hung out and the Computer. My house is boring, so I really only have the computer to go on. Oh well. Later on we went into my room and took pictures and just talked. Dev read magazines. We were just being retarded. lol.

Monday-- We woke up at 11ish. Umm.. Dev hung out on the Computer. I did chores and studied because if I didn't Dev wouldn't be able to stay over and then I wouldn't be able to go to the movies with her and Jamie. So we just hung out all day. Mmm.. I called my Mom at work to see if I could go to the movies. She said No but I bribed her into it. hehe. So Dev called her Mom and she wasn't allowed to. :-( So she went home and I hung out here and probably studied more. TODAY WAS MINE AND SAM'S ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY FOR BEING FRIENDS FOR A YEAR! WOOHOO!

Tuesday-- Blah school sucked. Hahaha. I was supposed to take an exam, but I missed both reviews, so I'm just taking it tomorrow. After I had counseling. Blah. It was okay. I think I'm leaving soon! Wooh. Ahh. After, it ruined my night. My Mom told me that I was supposed to spend February break in Arizona. Wow, thanks for telling me Dad. You obviously didn't want me out there. I mean, even if you don't want to see me, I could stay with Erika, or some other person. Geez, on the fucking street would have been fine. I'm sorry I'm a hassle and you can't buy a plane ticket or what not. Atleast tell me I was supposed to and say "Gee sorry Kyr, I don't want you out here." Instead of having my Mom tell me that I was supposed to. Wow. Am I that bad of a daughter? Maybe I'm over reacting, but come on, you don't not tell your kid your supposed to see them. Wow whatever. I wonder if he'll want to see me for Summer Break. If not I'll go with... Erika or I'll find some random stranger and go live with them for a month. Whatever, fuck you.

Today-- Today was okay. Math Mid-Term was eeeeeeasy. The Science one was okay. I probably failed it. After School I stayed after for Yearbook. Haha Me, Sam and Dev got to look at all the kids pictures, and now we have to number them so they can actually go in the yearbook. Haha. After we dropped Dev and Sam off at Sam's house. I came home and did nothing. My Mom was supposed to take me to the Mall, but it was snowing so she said No. Oh well. I'll just freeze my ass off in Capris and 2 pairs of pants. :-\

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[Wednesday,
January 19th, 2005]
[ mood | sad ]

Wow I'm a loser. But this song is real sad.
Konstantine.Collapse )

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[Tuesday,
January 18th, 2005]
Friends Only!


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[Monday,
January 17th, 2005]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Here are some pictures of me and Dev last night.

 

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[Saturday,
January 15th, 2005]
[ mood | sick ]

Friday-- School was okay. Oh boy, Gym was the best. Me and Missa didn't want to play Blitz, so we sat out. Haha, good times. Writing "Your dating Robert, not his parents" on the Gym wall. "She's a bitch and I hate her." Laughing real weird. Wow way more, but I don't feel like writing them..lol. Then I had a Study Hall for exams, but the teacher kicked me out of her classroom because she had Lunch. So Me and Alyssa went in the Cafeteria with the 7 graders. Then I went w/ Ms. G to Study Social Studies. After School, I came home. I was going to go to the movies, but I didn't want to. I went to Cuckoos Nest for dinner with my Mom and Stepdad. It sucked because in the truck I almost threw up. blah. Then I came home and couldn't sleep so I slept upstairs on the couch. I didn't sleep because all night I went into the bathroom, having to throw up, but nothing would come out.. (haha not that you care if I throw up or not.)

Today-- I woke up and ate breakfast. Then Sam asked if I wanted to go out to a Movie and Dinner with her and her cousin. So I could, but first my Mom was taking me to the Mall for pants. I got a Pair of Pants that don't fit so I have to return them, and a new hoodie. Then I went to Sam's. Me, Sam, her cousin and her cousin's boyfriend drove around for alittle while. Then we went and ate at Pizza Works. After we went to Wal-Mart and then to the Movies. We saw In Good Company. It was a good movie. I hated the ending though. Then I came home and went online. And talked to Devyn on the phone. Hah, "What does TATA mean?" lol. "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, you'll never know dear, how much I love you, please don't take, my sunshine away." <Don't ask, Dev was singing that to me on the phone/internet. haha.

Damn. No cellphone. I have to wait until midterms are over, and then they are just going to add me to their family plan. It's better than having to buy my minutes.

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Hmmm... [Thursday,
January 13th, 2005]
[ mood | thirsty ]

Woohoo, depending on how my Mom feels tomorrow, she's taking me to get my cell-phone. This would be the one I want..
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[Thursday,
January 13th, 2005]
[ mood | dorky ]

Wow I feel like a loser, but whatever.

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[Thursday,
January 13th, 2005]
[ mood | dizzy. ]

I woke up this morning and was real tired, so I went upstairs and asked if I could stay home. So my Mom said yeah so I came back down here and went to sleep. I woke up at like, 11:30 and went upstairs and ate. It was gross so I threw it away. Lately, I haven't been eating as much. Everything I taste is gross. My Mom's going to start thinking I'm anorexic, which I'm not. She just makes and buys gross food. So after I watched T.V and then came down here and played on the computer and then watched Passions. Hah. Haven't watched that in forever. Then I made another Study Guide. Ate Chinese Food. Blah. Talked to Dev on the phone. Then went to my Aunt's house to pick up my homework that my cousin brought home for me. Now I'm here, feeling dizzy about to throw up. Yuck. Midterms start tomorrow. I'm lucky because while everyone will be taking theirs, I'll be in a Study Hall. Haha. Oh well..

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[Thursday,
January 13th, 2005]
[ mood | blah ]

Gr. I tried doing this earlier, but the post was too big, so here are the surveys. hah.
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[Thursday,
January 13th, 2005]
Hah, I got a new layout because the music was realll anoying..so yeah.
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[Wednesday,
January 12th, 2005]
[ mood | full ]

Hah. Today was bad/good. lol. The first 3 classes were okay. Then during Period D, (Study Hall) Me and Cori went to Mr. Rydeleks to type stuff. So we get in there and are typing. Blah Blah. And then Cait and Brooke and Sam came in. So me and Sam were talking about Vin and Mr. Rydelek "joined" our conversation. We were like, You never liked Vin. lol. So we printed off pictures of Vin and stapled them to his board thingy. Then we mad a sign that said "Mr. Rydelek <3's Vin" lol. So me and Sam were getting ready to leave and she wanted Mr. Rydelek to sit in his spinny chair so she could spin him. lol. She was like, "Come on Mr. Rydelek, you never had a child hood. Your missing out." lol. I said he problably got abused as a little kid. haha. Then Matt was in Art and I was talking to him through the door. lol. I said Mr. Rydelek smoked Pot! haha. Then we went in the Study Hall and we didn't want to stay, so we snuck out of class and went to get Deodorant because Sam wanted it. lol. It was so fun/funny. Then after School we all waited for eachother in the hallway because we were all walking to Jakes house. (Me, Missa, Cori, Dev, Jake, Jake and Josh). It was freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezing. My hand turned purple. lol. I stepped in a puddle and was freezing because someone threw a snowball at me. lol. We went to Madelines<spelling. house and said Hi. Then we just hung out at Jakes. Me and Missa were sitting in the smallest chair ever. lol. "Our Square." haha. Then Dev's Mom gave me a ride home. I just came home and finished a Study Guide. Ah I have to get B's in Social Studies and Science, or else. blah. Oh well, if I study enough and know everything, then I'm sure I'll pass, I hope.

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[Wednesday,
January 12th, 2005]
Ew, I hate my new layout but thats okay..its sort of cool because I made some "adjustments" so yeah.. blah.
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[Tuesday,
January 11th, 2005]
[ mood | crappy ]

Hm..

Monday- School sucked. Not like any other day. It was 'effin horrible. I seriously hate school. Anyways. After Ms. G brought me home. We went to Staples first. Then she brought me home. I stayed on the computer most of the night. blah. Boring day.

Today- I didn't do anything. I was going to walk home with Cori, but my Mom was picking me up so I said I couldn't. (Dev was going to come over, but she hung out with Jess instead. Big Surprise.) Anyways. So I went where my Mom usually picks me up, so I was like, great, I'll just walk home with Cori. But my Aunt was there picking up D.J so I just went home with her. Hung out at her house for a little while. Then went home. It was boring. Got Study-Guides ready for Mid-Terms. =\ boring.

My sister called me. She's such a bitch. She's like, You sound sad. blah blah. And then we were talking about me coming out there for February break, and she's like, "You know what, don't come because your just going to be quite and ruin everyone's fun and just be a bitch." (She was kidding, but still. You don't talk to your fucking sister like that when you haven't seen her in how long?) And then she's like, You can bring a friend if you want. I was like "Yes!" lol. I already thought of 3 people, I just don't know which one to pick.. lol. and I don't know if they would want to because it's a break and they might want to see other friends and shit like that..so yeah, I don't know.

Wow, I seriously want to move back to Arizona. I was thinking and I was like, Wow, in Arizona it was kiddie drama, shit about boyfriends and what you wear and who your friends with. It was like a Popularity contest. But out here, it's like Wow, you fuck up then you've basically lost everything. It sucks. Life's not fair, and thats the sucky part. I'd rather be out with all the preppy whores who think their the shit than out here losing everything and wanting to kill myself. But I don't know.. blah..

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[Tuesday,
January 11th, 2005]
[ mood | pissed off ]

today sucks.. I want to go home.. computer's is gay.. lol. I didn't want to go to study hall so me an cori came in to mr. rydeleks.. blah. Im hungry. Yay break is next. I'll go talk with Missa. Atleast she doesn't hate me.. i hope. lol.Wow I hate writing.. I'll write when I get home..

Love ya Cori!! < I <3 how your sitting right next to me!

Haha thanks Jess! You rock. (the thing on the board!)

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[Sunday,
January 9th, 2005]
[ mood | cold ]

Boring surveys.
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[Sunday,
January 9th, 2005]
[ mood | depressed ]

Wow. I seriously want to move..or die. I hate Westbrook.

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Oh fucking boy. [Saturday,
January 8th, 2005]
[ mood | Fucking Happy. ]

Friday- After School, I was going to go to Sam's, but my Mom didn't want me to because she just wanted me to come home. So we brought Devyn with us because I wanted to get my stuff from her house. So we stopped at Stop & Shop for Grocheries. lol. Fun. "I feel like I practically live at your house because I'm telling you what to buy." After we went to the Package Store and the Mail place. Then we went to Devyns. We came back to my house and just hung out. We were going to go to the movie's, but Sam said she wasn't. Then she said she was but with other people, so we just said forget it we don't want to go. So Me and Dev were listening to Music and my Mom came down and said to turn off the music and then asked if I could sleep at Devyn's because the music was bothering Dev, and she didn't really want me here. So we went to Devyn's. We went on the computer. Then we played PS2. Wow I love that game. After we went up-stairs and took pictures. (As in the journal entry before.) After pictures we just listened to sad music and lay in the dark and talked. Steve called, so we went down and talked to him. After we went and again, lay in the dark and talked. Wow, good times.
-Me- OMG!
*Jump under the covers*
-Dev- What!
*Like, 10 minutes later*
-Me- I thought I saw Tsunami boy, buy it was only your hoodie on the door.
(We were talking about the Tsunami and weird scary stuff.lol.)
Then we fell asleep and it was burning hot in her room. lol.

Today- We woke up at like, 10ish. I called my Mom and asked if she would pick me up because I wanted to come home and Shower and do laundary. So she picked me up and instead of doing those things I stayed on the computer. Then I went up-stairs and got something to drink and my Mom asked if I wanted to run errands with her. So I said Yes and then I came down-stairs. Then like, 15 minutes later we left. We first went to the Eye Doctor's place. It was pretty boring. lol. Then we went to Wal*Mart. I almost got my CELL PHONE but my Mom's a loser and said she didn't have any money and I dont know. I am going to get it soon though. yay. Then we went to McDonalds.Then to Benny's. lol. After errands I came home and showered. Then I went and picked up Dev. We came here and talked to people online.
Sam or Tosha had asked if we wanted to go to Denny's with them, so we said Yeah. It was going to be Sam, Tosha, Steve and I don't know the other person? But then we were talking to Jamie and Hunter online and they asked if we wanted to go to the Movies with them. (Probably because we said we would have a 3-some with Jamie, and then they were going because they thought we would do stuff with them..lol.) But anyways. So we got ready and then they called and told us they were leaving for the movies. So we said Okay and hung up. Then Dev's Mom picked us up and we went to the Movies. We bought our tickets and went inside. We called them because they weren't there and asked where they were. They said they had just left. Oh boy. So we went inside and saw my Aunt. lol. She came up and talked to me. Then they left. So then Sam Lamark and Steph came up and started talking to us. lol. Jamie called and said they were outside in the line. I told them to come in and we would work something out because the line was real long. So they came in and sat down. lol. We went over there and for like 10 minutes and disscussed how we would get into the movie. lol. So we finally got in the movie and sat down. It was Dev, Jamie, Me and then Hunter. = ) then Sam and Steph came in. So it went Steph, Sam, Dev, Jamie, Me and then Hunter. But Jamie and Hunter wanted to go "do something" so we watched the movie. We thought they had left so we called and they were eating popcorn in the bathroom? because they didn't want to tell us what they were really doing (even though we knew what they were really going to do..lol.) so they came back in and sat where they were sitting. Me and Sam were texting each other. lol. Then Steph and Sam left. It was so fun w/ just us 4. They were hungry but didn't want to go get food. lol. Then they were playing with Cell Phones and taking pictures. And calling people on my cell phone. lol. Hunter called my mom. Loser. lol. And Jamie called Steve, 2 times. lol. (Don't mean to rub it in, you know who you are) but I was trying to get my cell phone back, and Jamie was like, holding my hand. I was like, AW. Then Jamie was like, sleeping on Dev. lol. Oh boy, he had this stupid spinney thing and it said "You buy" or "I buy" so we sat there spinning it.
-Me- What was the point in that.
-Jamie- Shit I forgot to get my money out.
lol.
Then Hunter was trying to take pictures of my ass and boobs to put on Jamies camera. lol. And he was trying to get Jamie to call Dave, but he wouldn't, so he was like, leaning/sitting on me. lol. He's so fucking hott. lol. Hah, Hunter was trying to get me to give Jamie a hand-job..lol. oh boy, he's fucking hott. Then they were like, leaving so we went with them. We went outside and were talking, sort of, but went back inside because we were freezing. Then Jamie and Hunter left so me and Dev went home. But oh boy, tonight was the best fucking night.

Then I came home and came online. lol. What else?
Dev, I'm sorry about what happened. You saw it coming though, but it's still really sad. lol. I <3 ya.

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Fun time last night.. [Saturday,
January 8th, 2005]
[ mood | sick ]

Here's pictures of me and Dev last night..

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