Belle

Mon Couer

I always feel inclined to write thoughts.

I scribble them in notebooks.

My thoughts are spread amongst multiple journals, scraps of paper, online channels, and I want to keep them collected, in a way.

I'm not sure what to do with my LJ, but I feel like my thoughts can be kept safe here.

I feel like I can collect these thoughts when I'm at a computer at work or at home.

I'm still in love with the same man years later.

I've made strides to become healthier.

I've learned more about myself and who I want to be.

I still love the same music.

I have become stronger in more ways than I have thought possible.

I'm still working on a couple areas, but I feel like overall, my life is much better.

I have seen more of the world.

I have made great friends in Seattle.

I'm continually learning on a daily basis on cooking, health, technology, the business world, love, and more.

I will continue strong in life.

Maybe I'll post more here, we'll see. <3
Colors

Hello?

This place is so quiet...

Wow...

Maybe I should write personal feelings/thoughts here.

There's less of a chance of someone finding them and reading them...


Hmmm...
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    working working
Belle

Here's Looking at You, Kid

Ohhhh, how I hope you get burnedddddd!

I'm well on my way to changing bad habits and creating a new lifestyle, for fucking real this time.

I don't drink anything outside of water, and I've been working out every day.
I'm starting to feel soooo good already.

I know it's take take a long time to get where I want, but omg, I can already picture what I'm going to do with myself. I'm super excited to wear my cute clothes again, to be confident, to start working at a company/business in Seattle, to find a cheap apt for myself or to live with some complete strangers, and to explore the city I love so much.

I don't like how foolish and stupid I've been. I don't like how it's made me hold back because I've been afraid of judgement and not being adored. Although, I know a lot of this doesn't just have to do with me, but also with him. He has some stuff to figure out. Some stuff to realize. Things I can't do anything about.

BUT.

I'm definitely not letting this shit get to me.

I'll be strong.
I'll be independent.
I'll be who I want to be.
  • Current Music
    "Spring" - Two Door Cinema Club
JulesUCOD

Day 26: Your Dream Wedding

My dream wedding?!
OMG
I don't even know if I want to even dream about it quite yet....

I have an idea of what I want, but I don't really know how to put it in words. :/

I'm just going to say that it's going to be amazing, I'm only planning on marrying once. <3
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Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs

"Price of Gas" - Bloc Party
"I Like It Rough" - Lady Gaga
"'97 Bonnie and Clyde" - Eminem
"The Prayer Position" - AFI
"Holiday" - Vampire Weekend
"2 Into 1" - Army of Me
"Is This It" - The Strokes
"Now I Wanna Sniff Some Glue" - Ramones
"Unwanted" - Avril Lavigne
"Rat in the Walls" - The Bravery
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