January 13th, 2005

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Alright all you bisexual lovers out there, imagine this scenario for me. I'm not even someone who considers myself "bisexual," but the fact of the matter is, I have loved a guy, and I have loved a girl. Imagine you have once been in the same situation. This girl says she'll do anything for you; she is head over heals in love with you and would drop any boy at the mere possibility of being with you officially. The boy loves you, too, and is aware of this exchange of feelings between you and the girl.


I want to know if it is ever okay for a close friend (male or female) to get together with an old love of yours. Furthermore, I want to know when it is ever okay for two people who both have histories involving love with me to get together. This is the second time I have had to deal with my closest female friend going for someone who I would consider to be "off limits" to them, not only because he used to be the love of my life, but because of all the bizarre and fucked up things that caused us to end it dozens of times. Today I found out that James and Sondra slept together on the day she left to go back home to Atlanta. He brought her to the airport the following morning, and even kissed her goodbye. That was supposed to be me. I wanted to make love to that girl before someone like James got to her. I wanted to bring her to the airport that morning and kiss her goodbye.

I really want to know if it is ever okay for a close friend to get together with an old love of yours. I really want to know how to feel now that my only two loves have done just such with each other. How would you feel?