me and rocky

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so my birthday was awesome
it sucked at first cuz no one was coming
it was just me roger ben jason gary krystina and rachel and aaron was in and out
then rachel roger and ben went to bens p.o i was gonna go instead of roger but roger made me stay...i found out why later
i thought ben had drug class too but he didnt he came home like 30 minutes later and was like lets go to the porn store((cuz i wanted to go earlier that week))
we were about to leave then brandon came so instead of cramming into one car we took two and brent showed up while we were gettin in bradons car
on the way there it was halarious...okay krystina roger brent and gary went with rachel and me ben and jason went with brandon...out of nowhere we see roger jump out of rachels car and do some tuck and roll shit it was so funny then he jumped into our car
we spent an hour at the porn store...mostly cuz i couldnt decide what i wanted and then when i did decide it was too expensive so i put it back and he made me pick something else and i was like goddamn one thing is enough i dont mind not getting everything lol
then we went to spencers and then back home
rachel went home gary passed out upstairs in the hallway and jason went to work and roger and krystina were having a talk so it was just me ben and brandon chillin downstairs drinking
i was even more upset about no one coming cuz it was only like 10
then ben made me get something from roger but i wasnt aloud to look and roger was like h you know shes gonna look so then they shut the dorr then called me in and they get a huge bag out of rogers closet
ben spent all his money on me
he got me pjs a hello kitty ipod pillow and so much more i was like omg wow
then all his friends started showing up out of nowhere just for my birthday and his friend beefy who works at spencers randomly walked in and handed me playboy bunny shot glasses i liked and was like happy birthday i was like omg
it was fucking i got crunk and blazed and had one of the best birthdays ever
i seriously was so happy..all of his friends came cuz mine didnt how fucking awesome is that

and yea not much else since then
i think i might get my ged instead of my diploma cuz at this rate ill never get my diploma
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so tuesday i went to glory days with mom and jered and then i went to rogers
got drunk and smoked a little
at like 1am roger broke up with anna
she flipped out
so from 1 am till 6 am there was nothing but blood and violence
i was the lucky one who cleaned up the bloody bathroom that looked like a fucking crime scene
my hand was covered in blood
ben made anna do it after i started
she barely did it
me and megz went back in the bathroom and there was still blood fucking everywhere
anna was all flippin out and ben aaron and nick had to hold her down
then her mom came
she talked her mom for two minutes screamed something then tried to run
they caught her
she bit ben roger and aaron
we called the cops
i cleaned the entire house
roger made move a big pay phone that they found and braught home
that sucks
it was heavier than me and i was all draggin in and shit and roger was like hurry hurry
i was like umm i cant really go any faster i couldnt even pick it up lol
cops came ambulance came
shes not coming back any time in the near future

then ben was passed out ost of the day
krystina came over
then left with roger
then matt and whitney came over
smoked a j
matt went to work
me and whitney chilled for a while
we dont really like eachother i dont think
it seemed like we were getting along when it was just her and i but i dsont know nor do i care
krys and ra ra came back and we chilled
aaron took me home at like 4
took a shower and got all pretty
went to bible study
megz and ben picked me up
went to rogers and chilled there all night

sex lol
got walked in on
got pissed off at some fucked up shit and im not gonna talk about it on here but its straight cuz me and aaron made a pay back plan lol
chilled with aaron
went to bens interview in hoodbridge with him and kevin
he didnt get it cuz of past misdomeaners
went to five guys
went back to rogers
went home

did house shit
and did nothing
dinner with mom and john
aaron picked me up at like 10
luckily mom a john knew before 10 that he was on his way and they were still awake so they didnt care that it was so late
ben was already at work
roger went to work
aaron went to sleep
i played guitar hero and talked to marc
cleaned rogers room and some other shit in the house
megz came home
chilled with her till she went back to work
aaron and i watched a movie then played a game
then aaron went back to sleep cuz he had a headache
megz came home
roger came home
ben came home and megz passed out
i made them watch mean girls
they like it lol
but rogers ps2 is gay so it skips shit and it was skipping through a lot and my movie totally sounded like fucking satan and shit lol fer serious it was high-lur-ious but creepy as shit
i had sexy outfits for ben so when he was upstairs washing his face roger picked an outfit and made sure ben stayed upstairs while i changed into it
then he had to help me fuck with the corset and then he made me wear my boots that i dont really like...he said that theyre hott and to waer em for him not me
dude my legs are so fat lol...we couldnt get them zipped so it took both of us
then we let ben come downstairs
he was very very very pleased lol
lots of hardcore sex lol
he took pics of me in the outfit but i dont think i like them

saterday i had sex and cuddled
then me ben and aaron went to mcdonalds and they took me home

i love living 15 minutes away
ill probably move in before i move with marc if i move with marc
im starting to feel like im not much more than a best friend
but half the time i know i am
i guess we'll just see how things go
thats why im waiting a year anyway

this is really long
my bad
me and rocky

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90. First off, what is your name?

89. How are you?
upset and a little hurt

88. Do you have a same sex best friend that you can talk to 24/7?

87. Do you have any siblings?
j-ra and a little sister in may

88. Where are you exactly?
the office

85. Favorite color(s)?
pink blue green purple sometimes orange

84. What does the 7th message in your [cell] text inbox say?

83. Who sits beside you in math?
when i had math regina did

82. Who sits to the left?

81. Where is your dad right now?
canada i think...idk

80. Do you have any kids?

79. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from?
theres only two roger and ben...and idk why cuz i was over there that day

78. Closest black object?
my shirt and hoody

77. Closest silver object?
my ring and some earings

76. Have you ever jumped a fence for any reason?
haha time my coat got stuck and i was hangin there for like 10 minutes while erica was half way on the fence tryin to get me unstuck hahaha good times

75. Do you sing in the shower?
oh yea

74. Do you own any pets?
not anymore

73. How does your hair look right now?
i hate it

72. Last time you listened to country music?
idk sometime in the past week

70. If you could kill someone, who would it be?
dont worry about it

69. What are your fears?
dont worry about it

68. What do you hear right now?
tv and jared

67. How many drugs are in ur system right now?
a lot of theraflu and advil

65. What are you wearing?
pj pants a bike show shirt and my jack skellington hoody

64. Who was the last person to comment you?

63. Do you sing?

62. Screamo or Country?

61. Rock or Rap?

60. Chocolate or vanilla?
chocolate flaver vanilla scent

59. Who did you last call?

58. Who last called you?

57. What jewelry do you wear daily?
all my earings my ring and my nose ring

56. What are you doing now?
this shit

55. Who was the last person you said I love you too?

54. Would you die for someone?

53. If so, who?
i think we all know the answer to that

52. Are you cold right now?
no but i have one

51. What do you smell right now?

50. Do you have to pee right now?

49. What did you dream about last night?
i dont remember

48. What are you doing tomorrow?
idk...maybe going to work

47. If an ex asked you back out, what would you say?

44. Bedsheet color?
blue and stuff on one side yellow and stuff on the other

42. Carpet or wood in your room?

41. Bad rumor about yourself that you've heard?

38. Can you do a cartwheel?
i wish

37.What's your favorite candle scent?

36. Ever gone a whole day without eating?

35. America or Canada?

34. What makes you mad?
lets not go there

33. What if you found out you were adopted?
well i look exactly like both my parents so that wouldnt happen and if it did id have more reason to move to marcs sooner

32. Jeans or Sweatpants?

29. Do you have socks on?

28. Do you own any big sunglasses? nose and sunglasses dont mix

27. Have you ever cried so hard you puked?

23. Have you recently talked to an ex?

22. Person who posted this before you?

19. Favorite TV show?
that 70s show

18. Do you like 80s movies?
love em

16. Last two numbers in your cell phone number?
20...guess what comes before that...oh yea

15. What kinda music do you like?
all kinds

14. Are you a crazy stalker?
im crazy but not a stalker

13. Best city you've visited?
the one i live in...703

12. Been to London?

10. Favorite subject at school?

9. Been to college?

7. Favorite time of day?
when im at rogers and on the phone with marc

6. Ever Licked someones cheek?

5. Watch all spiderman movies?

3. What are you looking forward to?
the next time i go to rogers so ben can make me feel better

2. Ever gotten lost in the dark?

1. Do you snore/talk/walk in your sleep?
ive heard that i snore really tiny...ive heard that i crack my own and other peoples nuckles....and when i have zombie dreams i always wake up fighting

why was 17 missing?????
me and rocky

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so most of friday i did nothing
straightened my hair...i dont like this haircut i got when its not straight
took some porno pics lol
im very proud of them
i sent them to marcs brother and he said they were nice
when john came to pick me up to go to work he just decided to take me to rogers
when i got there no one was there except ben and gary
i took ben into the bathroom to show him my hott panties
then i showed them both the pics
they liked them
then me and ben fucked lol
played guitar hero
showed roger the pics he didnt say naked is nothing new to him
kristen came over and took me and ben to roberts
chilled there for a while
then dick took us home
ben had to go to work
i smoked rogers dad up
that was pretty cool
we played more guitar hero
then i went to aarons room and showed him the pics then called marc
i was having two convos at once and it was fun
aaron said i have a nice ass
and marc liked them too his favorite one was the one with my face in it
i was like aww you think im pretty and he was like whatever ill take weed over a girl anyday lol i was like thats so not the point loser
haha me and aaron were talking about sammy and how i used to be like psycho obsessed with him and i was like i dont think he liked me very much and aaron was like i think you creeped him out i started crackin up and totally agreed...i was like dude it wouldve creeped me out
i was such a fucking loser but we've all been there
then aaron went over to sammys and i talked to marc more and played guitar hero
roger came home and made me watch hot shots and airplane
i told him me and aarons convo about sammy and he told me that on tuesday he came over after i left and roger told him i was there and he was like ugh and roger was like nah she dont want want you anymore
gary drove a fucking four wheeler over
brand was hott
sammy and aaron came over for 5 secs and i wasnt even payin attention
i looked at him once and continued watching the movie
when ben came home he gave me a flower for me i was like aww im so special lol
and then we played more guitar hero
dazed and confused
i fell asleep in the middle then woke up and had more sex then we went to sleep
saterday all we did was fuck play guitar hero and talk
mom picked me up right after so i was still out of breath and when i got home i had to do a bunch of shit so i never got to catch my breath till like 9
then i went to bed till alicia called and i talked to her and marc all night
church was canceled this morning
i went back to sleep and woke up with a major cold
ate some pancakes and drank some theraflu
talked to marcand passed out for three hours
and i havnt stopped sneezing and blowing my nose since ive been up
ben said if i was over there hed make me some chicken noodle soup
hes so sweet
i feel so bad that we cant really date
we could but im not gonna date someone while im on two peoples nutz
im hopeing i go over there this week
my moms gettin pissed cuz everyone says theyll give me and ride but they never do
so were gonna have to figure something out so i can still go over there a lot

im gonna go lay down and hope this nyquil kicks in soon
me and rocky

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69 Confessions

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
♥ marc duh ♥

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?

4. Do you take compliments well?
oh yea...too well..jon and ben were arguing over me and i was like damn im hott shit lmao

5. Do you play Sudoku?
im obsessed...its that damn jewishness with the math and whatnot lol

6. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
i have no fucking clue but probably not for long

7. What song are you listening to?

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
candy land

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
duh everyone knows a whore and a homewrecker lol

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
usually that i have marc i just like to be persued

15. Do any songs make you cry?

16. Are you continuing your education?
yea but it would be nice if i knew when...i thought i wouldve started by now

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
a bb gun lol

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you'd grab?
the fire extinguisher cuz i have a lot of valuable stuff

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future
all of the above

21. What is your favorite children's book?
peter pan

22.What color are your eyes?

23. How tall are you?
5 something....shorty

24. Where is your dream house located?
i dont really have one

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
yea...i love em

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
i have no idea

32. Do you like mustard?
on hot dogs

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?

35. How long does it take you in the shower?
i dont time myself and it depends on how jewish my hairs being and if i need to shave and what i need to shave

36. Can you do a split?
not since i was little

37. What movie do you want to see right now?
hanable rising

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?

42. Do you own a camera phone?

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?

46. How many hours of sleep do you get at night?

48. Do you like care bears?
love em

49. What do you buy at the movies?
skittles and a blue rasberry icey

50. Do you know how to play poker?

51.Do you wear your seatbelt?

52. What do you wear to sleep?
pj pants whatever shit im wearing or a tank top
underwear and tank top
it depends on the temp and where i am

53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
i dont think so

54. How many meals do you eat a day?
meals or snacks lol

56. Do you always read MySpace bulletins?

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
both...they need to know when its the appropriate time to act a certain way

59. Ever been to Europe?

60. Did you eat a cookie today?
actually yea i did lol

61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
dont download music till i get my laptop

63. Do you hate chocolate?
hellz nah

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
they dont talk

65. Are you a gullible person?

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?

67. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be?
a famous person duh
i WILL be a tattoo artist/peircer and a scuiside girl

68. Are you easy to get along with?
idk am i

69. What is your favorite time of day?
talking to marc or being at rogers...oh oh oh talking to marc while im at rogers...ooooh yea
me and rocky

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so we've decided that rogers house is my second house and i have two rooms
megz room which has another bed in it so yea awesome
and bens room which is the living room and the couch folds out into our bed lol
so ben really likes me but i dont know what im gonna do cuz im not gonna date someone and have marc on my mind 24/7
and everyone knows im movin in with marc including ben
i mean we can be like a little thing like we are now and have a lot of sex but i dont wanna date anyone
its not fair to me marc or ben cuz then i have two guys to worry about 24/7 and i drop everything for marc and im sure ben wouldnt appriciate me still doing that if we dated and if i dated someone marc would probably be like wtf and id probably end up not moving in with him and be heartbroken so yea

work on tuesday fucking sucked
i had to shred a box full of papers and the shreder just kept stopping and i kept having to fix the end of the day i was covered in shreded paper seriously it was even in my hair
went to rogers and as soon as i got there i plopped down on the couch smoked a cig changed plopped on the couch again watched some of waynes world and smoked the rest of my pot
then after a little bit we went upstairs and played guitar hero and nick came and i got more pot and more people showed up
and the drinking started
ben went to work
me and megz took this girl brittany home....she threw up on the way
i got home and partied more
got really bored so i went upstairs and went to bed
woke up a 5am wondering why i didnt get woke up
went downstairs to see that ben found a big monitor at work lol
him and roger find some weird shit
then me roger anna ben and aaron all went to aarons room and watched grandmas boy then not even half way through we decided to watch the new chocolate factory cuz ben hadnt seen it and we smoked a lot of pot and then roger and anna went to bed and me and ben went downstairs and it was like 7 am and josh was passed out on our bed so we woke him up so he could go to work
woke up to find out i didnt have to go to work till later
kristen and brandon left
rveryone who didnt live there was gone so i could finally have sex the way i wanted to
so we did
then slept
then had sex
played guitar hero
watched grandmas boy
had sex
roger came down and was like arnt you suposed to be at work
i was like ummm no and im kinda having sex right now
he was like oh continue im just getting a drink
then ben and roger are having a conversation during our sex
then we continued to watch grandmas boy then started to have sex and the doorbell rang and i thought it was my stepdad so i grabed my pants and ran to the bathroom
it was just gary
i told him he was an asshole and he told us to continue lol
so we started to have sex again and the doorbell rang again
sp i grabbed my pants and ran again lol
it was just kevin and beefy
then we just chilled and drank more...i only drank one cuz i had to leave soon
john called and was on his way so i got dressed so fucking fast it wasnt even funny
chugged my beer smoked a cig and realized i didnt have a bra on so i got it
smoked half a cig and john was there so i gave my cig to anna grabbed some gum and ended up not even going to bible study
it was so funny we were like nothing goes better with a night of sex pot and alcohol then some good bible study the next day lol
gary and roger might go to church with my sunday cuz its friend day
im scared of that lol

yea thats about it
i have no clue why im not at work today and i hope i go tomorrow
if i dont then im having megz or roger come get me before megz goes to work

okay going to change my myspace shit
peace nuggas
me and rocky

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so ohio wasnt that bad
we moved my grat g-ma into an assited living home
that sucked
she gave me a bunch of jewelry...i got a necklace thats a question mark...its pretty fucking awesome lol
and two hungarian dolls and two little warier people statue things
they wouldnt let me have the naked lady statue thing
and i got a million pics
found one of my mom and dad
ive never really seen a pic of them together so it was weird
and he had hair lol
that was the first thing alicia asked lmao i love you

on superbowl sunday our whole family went to eat at this new place and they had a wine thing that said woodbridge...i took a pic with my phone
after lunch my cousin aaron whose like 25 took me with him to his friends house for a superbowl party
it was fun...i almost won at darts and i havnt played in forever
i watched them play beer pong and i tried doinone ball but of course i missed
ive never gotten drunk or stoned with aaron before so it was cool
hes handed me a beer here or there at family things but that doesnt really count
they had clear papers and i was so confused cuz i looked over and saw a joint being rolled but no papers and i was like wtf how is he doing that then someone said something about them and i was talking to this one chick about them and i was like wow ive never seen that before thats awesome
it was a fun night

and me and my cousin casey went to see the messengers
as if we wernt scared of creepy old basements enough already lol
on the way theyre we were like maybe we should play lasertag and we decided if they didnt take our movie passes then wed go to laserquest
they took our passes of course and we so should have gone to play lasertag lol
we were holding eachothers hands all hudled up in our seats and screamed every 5 minutes lol
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i got back friday...droped my suitcases off at my house then went to gregs
i was pissed off well no i was extremely fustrated
so when he gave me my drugs i took em right then and there
too percs and a morphine pill
ive never done morphine before and i didnt know what it was till after i took it
thanks for the heads up greg
we called roger and roger didnt feel good so he didnt wanna go out
so me and greg went to rogers
i played guitar hero and i sucked more than usual cuz i was fucked up
got my nose re-peirced and greg got pissed cuz i dont wanna fuck him
so he ditched me
i didnt care all i cared about was having a ride home before church on sunday
im a whore and im not gonna go into details but i was faught over and thats fucking awesome

i have a job
im there now
im going to rogers after work today and spending the night
hes taking me to work in the morning
so yea rogers place is now my second home lol

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im back in the 703
yea son!!!!
im not in woodbridge and that kinda sucks but im close enough
i have lots of peek-a-tures but i forgot how to do an lj cut and theres nothing to click...i dont know if its just my comp that theres nothing to click or if everyones lj is like that but w/e
somebody should just tell me how to do it manually cuz yea

i also got my ipod...yesh!...its pink and its awesome....but chris put all the music on it therefore there is nothing psychopathic and theres a lot of other shit that isnt on there and theres some shit that i dont want on there....i think ill be fixing that tonight...i hope

tomorrow morning im going to ohio with my g-ma for two weeks
i really dont want to go for two weeks but i want to chill with my cousins so im going
and when i get back me and krystina are gettin our tattoos
three stars on our left feet thats all
its gonna hurt like a bitch but i dont care
i might not even have enough money to get it
i only have 40 bucks but ill probably talk to her about goingto see ahead of time how much it is and then if i dont have enough money ill get some from my dad or something
and if i cant get more money ill get something peirced...or re-peirced...who knows

only a month and 19 days till my birthday!!!!
you know what that means
i get to see marc in a month
im so happy
i cant wait to see him
i cant wait to sleep in his arms
i cant wait to have all the awesome fun were gonna have
but im gonna try not to get to excited cuz theres only a 50 percent chance ill get to go....i have to remember to ask him what airports closest to him so i can find out how much a ticket costs
probably like 400 bucks or something
that would be why i might not get to go
but hopefully my whole family will pitch in cuz they all ask me what i want and ive told them all i want is to go to oklahoma for a least a week and a half...possibly two weeks...yea two weeks would be nice
whatever...we'll see
ill look up how much it costs and ill write it down and whatever happens not gonna stress it cuz in a year at the most ill be living with him and he said he might come here sometime...its okay either way...i get to talk to him almost everyday and thats good enough right now

oki doki i have to go now cuz were going out to eat...peace nuggas