clementine

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I will always love you.
I would have followed you anywhere.
I wish you believed we are connected.

Whenever you pay attention to me, I am the happiest girl in the world.
I thought you were the one I had waited for.
But you love someone else.
And every day when I see you with her, I cry all over again.
I wish I was a better person, so that instead of focusing on my own failure I would be thankful that you are happy, because you deserve it. But I am weak, and the jealousy is damaging me.
I know you want to be friends, but I can't do it anymore.
I'm sorry. I hope you understand. I hope you forgive me someday. xoxo
clementine

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I don't understand why you look for me. I don't understand why you didn't block me when you fell in love with her. Trying to stay friends with you is torture, it reminds me of my failure. I wish you wanted to talk to me, I wish you wanted to kiss me, I wish you wanted to do all the things you do with her with me instead. Someday I'm sure you will marry her, and it is going to destroy me. I am not doing well, but you don't have to be nice to me anymore, it is not your fault. xo
goth girl

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I hope you see this someday, so that you understand I never wanted to leave:

I don't want to know anymore, it's too painful. I hate myself already, and every time I see how happy she makes you I get more depressed.

You have been kind to me, and I truly appreciate it. But really there's no reason for you to be nice to me when you are planning a future with her.

I love you, and I'll always wish you had chosen me instead. But now in order to survive I need to forget. Good night sweet prince. I'm sure I will still dream about you. xoxo
goth girl

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It is surreal and ironic and depressing that we were at the same place at the same time today; a cruel reminder that I failed, otherwise you would have been there with me instead.
goth girl

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I don't even know if you see this anymore, but I need to write it down anyways.

I want you, I need you, I think we would be good together.
I wish you felt the same way, but you never choose me.
I can't be just friends with you, it's too painful, I cry all the time.
I will always love you, but you love someone else, so I need to give up hope.
I won't bother you anymore.
Goodbye xoxo