You say over and over again how much you love her, but I don't listen.
I know it's the end times, and I don't want to be alone anymore.
I have so much love to give but I am selfish to force it onto you,
when you are clearly here to lead her, not me.
I will be more grateful for the blessings I have been given.
Thank you for your patience.
I will always love you. I thought you would lead me.
But I can't be just friends with you, it's not enough.
You don't have to worry, I won't bother you anymore.
I'm so sorry. Please don't be angry. It makes me sick to think I've hurt you. But I've cried every day for a year because you love her instead of me, and I don't want to cry for the rest of my life. I don't know what else to do.
I have accepted the fact that you choose her. I know now that no matter how much I want you, you'll never be mine.
I will always love you, I think we would have been magic together. I know you want to be friends, but I don't think you understand how difficult that is for me, when seeing you with her only reminds me of my failure. I'm trying. xo
I will always love you.
I would have followed you anywhere.
I wish you believed we are connected.
Whenever you pay attention to me, I am the happiest girl in the world.
I thought you were the one I had waited for.
But you love someone else.
And every day when I see you with her, I cry all over again.
I wish I was a better person, so that instead of focusing on my own failure I would be thankful that you are happy, because you deserve it. But I am weak, and the jealousy is damaging me.
I know you want to be friends, but I can't do it anymore.
I'm sorry. I hope you understand. I hope you forgive me someday. xoxo
I don't understand why you look for me. I don't understand why you didn't block me when you fell in love with her. Trying to stay friends with you is torture, it reminds me of my failure. I wish you wanted to talk to me, I wish you wanted to kiss me, I wish you wanted to do all the things you do with her with me instead. Someday I'm sure you will marry her, and it is going to destroy me. I am not doing well, but you don't have to be nice to me anymore, it is not your fault. xo
I hope you see this someday, so that you understand I never wanted to leave:
I don't want to know anymore, it's too painful. I hate myself already, and every time I see how happy she makes you I get more depressed.
You have been kind to me, and I truly appreciate it. But really there's no reason for you to be nice to me when you are planning a future with her.
I love you, and I'll always wish you had chosen me instead. But now in order to survive I need to forget. Good night sweet prince. I'm sure I will still dream about you. xoxo
It is surreal and ironic and depressing that we were at the same place at the same time today; a cruel reminder that I failed, otherwise you would have been there with me instead.
I don't even know if you see this anymore, but I need to write it down anyways.
I want you, I need you, I think we would be good together.
I wish you felt the same way, but you never choose me.
I can't be just friends with you, it's too painful, I cry all the time.
I will always love you, but you love someone else, so I need to give up hope.
I won't bother you anymore.