October 24th, 2004

I AM A HAPPY KID

I wrote an amazing entry, and then my computer decided to unplug itself from the wall. And I thought, "Why must you tell them everything that happened? Why can't you just post pictures and have them figure it out themselves? It was our weekend; the best day of my life. I don't want to give them the details 'cause it'll ruin it."

So figure it out yourself.

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My life is amazing because these kids made me realize how amazing life can be. And even when it's terrible, it can't get past a certain point of terribleness because I know that I will always have myself and my talents and Alex and Elize. I love them more than anything I've ever known or felt or seen. They are my world, they are everything that matters. I feel at home when I'm in their arms or holding their hands or just thinking about them. I am safe; I am loved. It's a truly amazing feeling, and I want to devote my life to helping other people somehow experience it. Whatever I can do to make people feel what I feel when I know I'm at home, I want to do it for them. This is what life is about. It's about feeling your heart speed up as the car does, and driving around a city you don't know to music that's not really playing (but you're singing along anyway). It's about knowing that you matter. You, as a person, mean something. I mean something, and I'm spectacular. I truly love myself for the first time in my entire life. And it's never going to stop.

I love these kids so bad.
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