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25 November 2009 @ 06:31 am
This trip is finally winding down. Finally. I cannot express just how relieved I am to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel again. I just... I think I just wasn't expecting it to be like this. There was something in me that tried to rewrite the memories from the last time I was in Japan. By college, I had pushed down the reality and only spouted romanticized drivel about my previous trip, but in the back of my mind, I could always hear my real thoughts. You're lying, I'd tell myself, you never wanted to go back. You got so depressed last time you were there. That country makes you feel sterile, mechanical, part of a well oiled machine. It drains you. Still, I didn't listen. I used Japan like I always have- as a place to run to when my life has fallen apart and, oh how I love to run away. I don't regret it and being here this time has done nothing but strengthen me as a person, but I would be a liar if I said I haven't wanted to go home for a long time. I can't put my finger on it- maybe I feel that I've significantly solidified myself, re-established myself as a person, but, whatever the case, a wave of relief washed over me when November 20th came and I had 1 month left.

Coming here has, in effect, pressed the reset button, sent me back to a sort of equilibrium. When I go back to UR, I have no obligations to the wrecked friendships, the idiotic actions I elected to take as a D'Lion, and won't be trapped by my frequent passivity. There's no one to withhold secrets from anymore and I'm not ashamed of what I am. My atheism, my veganism, my political radicalism, it's all out on the table. I just hope I'll be stronger when it comes to expressing my wants and needs. Argh. At least I won't be stuck in the framework that freshman year created for me... those people never really understood who I was. I guess I come off as extroverted, but, for as long as I can remember, I've been an introvert. A terribly analytical introvert. Hurrah for INFJ.

Oh well, all those wrecked relationships can finally be left behind me. Right now, I'm just so happy to have Sam and Steve. They make me so happy and I'm ready to go back home and see them again. I find that these classes tend to bore me to tears and, generally, nothing of substance is really said. However, my Art History professor surprised me on Tuesday when he asked "How much of your life do you think you've spent waiting for something?" The question chilled me perhaps more deeply than intended. My life tends to be a constant countdown to something or another- a week before I talk to Steve again, 24 days until I go home, 32 days until I see Steve, a year and a half until I graduate, a month and a half before I get back to UR... all of these countdowns are constantly in my head, not to mention the waiting for things whose time is yet to be determined. I wish I could express more eloquently how it struck me, but I seem to have recently fallen short of all the right words recently.
Home. I'm so close to going home.
Feeling: contemplativecontemplative
02 March 2009 @ 10:26 pm
So, I'm back. I think. Haha. I've come to the point where I just have a lot of time on my hands due to ... err... a lot of personal happenings. So, looks like I'll be more than available to do everything fandom related at least until my CS4 trial runs out.
As a result, I finished re-editing a project for Chained Heart and we finally had another release, I bought more things on LJ (lol), and created a layout for my LJ. It needs some more tweaking, but I'm done with it for now, I suppose.
Yep! Just thought I'd leave a note telling you all that Ame is indeed alive.
Feeling: artisticalive
17 October 2008 @ 02:15 pm
XD Entertainment Weekly called the Kirk/Spock relationship even between Pine and Quinto "bromantic." Hahahaha... I need a life.
23 September 2008 @ 12:53 am
Allllright... so... a couple of reactions. Have some questions/theories about tonight that I want to know if you guys get too. Just holler out to me ;)

Because I know you want to jump me like a milk-loving Indian SpidermanCollapse )
I've spent the entire day editing and translating this doujinshi (The Day God was Produced by Emotional Q, scanned by sakurazukalori) and I have finally finished one page. orz I thought "well, we should really have a release... I wonder what the shortest doujin we have is so that I could just do everything by myself?" I was pretty pleased when I realized this one is only 12 pages. So, I went and got a different trial of photoshop and started on my mission-- translating, editing, and adapting at the same time. Needless to say, I understand why there are scanlation groups and not individuals o-o

Wah @_@ Anyway, so I thought I would share my progress here and see what you guys think. (Work safe images under da cut)

Behold! The...er... fruit of my labor?Collapse )
16 April 2008 @ 05:17 pm
Meme stolen from napkins, with adaptations from me XD
a. Post a list of 20 fandoms.
b. Have your friends list guess your favorite character from each one.
c. When guessed, bold the line, include the character name, and write a sentence about why you like that character.


01. Death Note-L
02. Kyou Kara Maou-Wolfram
03. Tokyo Babylon-Seishirou
04. X- Kamui/Subaru
05. Loveless- Kio
06. Inuyasha- Miroku
07. xxxHolic- Yuuko

American Cartoons
08. Invader Zim- Dib
09. Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends- Bloo
10. Animaniacs- Yakko
11. South Park- Cartman
12. The Boondocks- Huey
13. Hey Arnold!- Helga
14. Bonkers- Bonkers

TV Shows
15. Star Trek: The Original Series- Spock
16. Heroes- Sylar
17. How I Met Your Mother- Barney
18. Seinfeld- Jerry
19. Blackadder- Edmund
20. Red Dwarf- Arnold

Alright! good luck with some of those XD And as for the obvious... haha.
29 January 2008 @ 12:19 pm
Okay-- It's time to play what's that lyric? I have scoured the internet for the right lyrics and I've found a million interpretations. It's your turn!

Something</b> by the Beatles:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBe85UKa1GQ

And... Fill in the Blank! =)
"I don't want to leave her now, You know I believe __________"
23 January 2008 @ 10:29 am
I stole this from tju_tju_tju_tju and she gave me my questions... so, here's the memexplanation and onward!

1. Leave me a casual comment of no particular significance, like a lyric to your favorite song.
2. I will respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better.
3. Update your LJ with the answers to these questions.
4. Include this explanation and offer to ask someone else in your own post.
5. When others respond with a desultory comment, you will ask them five questions.

Read mine and I'll give you yours.Collapse )
23 January 2008 @ 10:22 am
Alright, I haven't been on LJ in about two weeks, but I logged in today to find that Dark:The Death of Innocence was nominated under two categories- Best Adam/Hiro Fic (R-NC17) and Best Non-Con. I am so ecstatic! Thank you for your support and loving nominations. I really wasn't expecting to be nominated for anything, but thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone sending me their love.

...Now, to get back to revising the next part of that fic. Haha.
Feeling: giddygiddy
07 January 2008 @ 03:45 pm
Medium: Television
Fandom: Heroes
Subject: Kensei/Hiro; Adam/Hiro
Title: The Death of Innocence
Warnings: Spoilers through Volume Two
Notes: If you would like the songs or the zip up on different servers, please comment. Thank You! The Cover Art is previewed under the cut and provided larger with the mix. Again, made with my loving Comic Life~!

Small Preview:

Includes Songs by Death Cab for Cutie, R.E.M., Nine Inch Nails, Goo Goo Dolls, and 30 Seconds to MarsCollapse )
Feeling: accomplishedaccomplished