so long sweet summer

change of heart

going to the place that stole my heart 2 years ago. truth is, my heart already found its way back and now its too late! for i've booked flights to go retrieve it. talk about change of heart!

now, i just wanna stay in and

forever and ever.
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    blah blah
so long sweet summer



And now, to the Borobudur for the 5km path to Enlightenment.

I am broke, in debt, bankrupt etc.
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    Hjarta› hamast - Sigur ros


heartbreaks are so overrated.


Aiba-chan i need some of your sunshine sparklies! 誕生日おめでとう! ♥♥♥
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escape artists never die

King of my heart, also bored with his reality.

Holidays is Arashi days! Need to spend less time with real-life lovers, and more time with dream-land lovers. For the material fades away but dreaming will never betray!

Sigh reality, what exactly are you for??

- Escapes to oblivion -
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    quiet of the night

desire dreams

When we dream of someone, we must know that the dream is then not about that someone.

I had a dream about a crush <3 so lovely right. And everything in that dream was perfect and desirable. But there are two ways of looking at it. One, is that my desire has created this dream, and having this dream validates that I'm channeling energies into the world to pull in what I desire. YES. Two, is the annoyingly rational way of interpreting dreams, thanks to the men (I repeat, MEN) of psychoanalysis from our civilized past.

I'll not go into details, but what this dream tells me (according to these, MEN) is that I'll be very happy and comfortable in a marriage, despite what my beliefs are for now and whether or not others judge me for it.

but, NOOOOO that's not what I want in reality! I don't wanna get married! Darn this sub conscience.

I guess in the end, life is bigger and badder than us, and we can only try to fight it. So when we let go of our individual ego, we allow a bigger badder universe happen to us. Once we clear our minds, the universe rushes in. That's what I'll do, I'll let it rush in.


"What we choose to fight is so tiny!
What fights with us is so great!
If only we would let ourselves be dominated
as things do by some immense storm,
we would become strong too,
and not need names."
- - Rainer Maria Riike
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    chipper interested

waiting for the end

This is how I feel right now


Whenever I'm in my most passive, reflective, introverted state, I have things come looking for me.

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Bloody childhood band is still alive and in my head.
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    Waiting for the end is not leaving my head
so long sweet summer


can't sleep, don't know why.

either something is bothering my head, or making my heart flutter.

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its been very long since i've had insomnia.
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    awake awake