sally mann

and i love you dumb and colorblind.

i feel the need to write something here, but i'm not exactly sure what about. everything is going well in my life right now and by all intents and purposes i should be very happy. and i am. but something is bothering me and i'm not really sure what it is. i think i'm afraid that if i put it down into words it would make it real. whatever "it" happens to be. something just isn't right.

i feel like i'm walking on a tightrope or something, and if i sway a little bit everything will just fall. or like...i don't know. like things might just slip out of my hands if i look away for a second.

i think i might have already lost something, but i just don't know what it could be.

oh, god, i feel like i'm going to vomit.
edvard munch

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and how much time do we have left before it's midnight and you see that i was never the right size?
harvie krumpet

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on my first day of college, i got into an accident. and then it started raining. don't ask about it because everything is fine and it wasn't a huge deal i guess, i just feel like an idiot, but at the same time am proud to carry on my family's tradition of having an incredibly shitty first day of college.

just felt like i should record this for posterity.
harvie krumpet

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wow, i really want to move to philly. there's just a few things holding me back.

in related news, angie and papi are having a baby! this is so exciting! we're thinking beatrice for a girl and dante for a boy, because we're losers. the nursery will be inferno-themed.

and in semi-related news, i saw rufus wainwright last night and i love him.
harvie krumpet

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we had to take desmond to the emergency animal hospital tonight, because he seemed really weak and wasn't eating and we were worried. as it turns out, he's fine. however, it cost us $300. which is awful. and apparently my dad didn't pay as much as he should have this month. and biloxy is off, we don't have enough money. and whether or not we can even stay in this house is now up to a judge. i'm really scared. i'm not really into praying and stuff, but it would be nice if you could think good thoughts. i don't even know how we're going to pay for college.

on a lighter note:

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