I'm really tired, yet I'm awake at the same time if that makes sence.... Tonight I went to Minaco with the football players for the game. It was the playoffs, and if we lost... not only would it be the last game for the seinors and for the season, but it would put everyone in a pissed off mood.Well.... we were losing and in the last 2 munites of the game, we scored a touchdown. So we went into overtime for literally an hour.... and the other team had the ball and they were passing it by the touchdown pole and J.c Percy from our team intercepted the ball and we won the game. Best/more intense game i've ever seen.
and most deff the most beautiful game. because in the end, i saw joel and i tapped him on the shoulder and told him congrats. (we don't talk anymore, he used to be a gooooood friend of mine... my moonlight) and he hugged me and i started crying and he started crying and it was one of the best moments of my life ever. it was like that broken past of ours became fixed. what a relief.
miria... i owe you so much girl!! thnkx for giving me the guts to do something i wouldnt have ever had the guts to do.... ever. you made my day...completly!!
lastnight i went to georges with ashlei, we all watched some stupid movie while george cleaned his room.
i have a lot of roadtrips coming up! on the 18th, brock and i are going to vegas. were going to stay with my aunt for a night and hopefully shema too. in may, whitleigh and i are going to california. and this summer, im going to France. im scared, but im sure it will be fun. im going to miss 2 weeks @ isu, but i talked to the pppl there and they want to get me started right away on the make up work.... my hell.... it isnt for 8 more months!!
anyway im going to bed now... goodnight you guys. and i just want you guys to know that i love you! serously, after whats been going on... i know u guys are special and im greatfuk to be a part of ur lives!
i guess you could say im hurt.
it would qualify for the understatement of the year,
but you could say it was so.
because i do hurt.
here i am in the middle of this circle
gaxing out and watching my world fall apart.
my friend who has always been so deat to me and true.
the light of my world,
the guy of my dreams.
they both feel so guilty.
and yet i do too.
because ii dont want him to hurt for
what kind of a love is that if we both get fucked over?
the thing that gets me so is this, they regret even doing a thing.
it "just happened"
so why should i bother over somehting that meant nothing?
i will take all the pain.
dont feel guilty.
it IS ur fault u 2 mingled but i
love u enough to do anything for you
maybe i should not have came here
i should have stayed home
it would have been safe for my heart
but now that it comes down to it,
it doesnt matter if my heart is safe because my heart is yours.
just know that your words are like a gun to me.
i want to die in his arms...
i hate him.
but i love him.
help a sistah out!