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friends.school.shit.drama [22 Nov 2005|09:46pm]
[ mood | lovin.life. ]

some things never change, huh?
yeah so i haven't updated in like a month and a half.
shit hasn't changed, people still piss me off.
its fucking stupid because right now im at the point where i dont know which friends i can freaking trust.
and i didn't say people, i said friends.
people i grew up with, and spent my whole life with.
anyone will stab your fucking back.

omg, like last week the most random person talked to me.
and then asked me to do the most random thing.
i still dont trust him.
or her.
i dont think i ever will.
but i do like someone new.
and omg, this boy is perfect.
im pretty sure i'd never have a chance with him, and plus we are really good friends so it'd be kinda awkward.

so no more volleyball for me.
just running.
it was such a hard decision.
like between something i love with all my heart.
and something im really good at.

i AM glad we're out of school for like 5 days.
i really need a break.
i've been such a workaholic.
and my grades are so good right now
i have 100's in five of my classes.
and then a 98 and a 99.

i just wanted to write a quick update.
oh and, michelle and lori,
you guys are crazy.
but i love yall.

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i love the weather [11 Sep 2005|02:13pm]

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so frustrating! [05 Sep 2005|04:37pm]
i try so hard to make everyone happy and be cool and joke around.
and i know i used to be all uptight, but most of ya'll know im not like that anymore.
so why the fuck are getting all pissed off when i joke around, and telling me, "SHUT UP ASHLEY, YOU CAN'T EVEN TAKE A JOKE"
oh really, since you know me way more than i know myself, right?
i guess.
and im always calm about things with everyone.
but someone has to start yelling at me, and if you yell at me im going to yell back, that doesnt mean you need to tell me to calm down when you're the one that started yelling in the first place.
and when im talking to my cousin about something and you're not involved in the conversation, just mind your own buisness.

ok, i had to get that out because everyone is always treating me like a bitch when i havent done anything.
because of how i USED to be.
im not like that anymore, i've changed so much, but none of my friends take the time to notice that.
thanks guys.
its so frustrating when im trying to have a normal conversation about something and other people will turn it into an argument, then walk away b/c they say they dont want to argue.
you know what?
im sorry.
im sorry, ok?
i dont know what i did to everyone.
but you guys are the ones that need to chill out.
not me.

everything above was to the volleyball team.

and the rest is for everyone that it applies to.

stop calling me a bitch already.
especially if i dont even know who you are.
since you probably dont know
im one of the most sensitive people you will meet.
and im not joking or being sarcastic.
you know.
i cant even watch cnn, cbs, abc, fox, or any of those other news reports about the hurricane right now because it brings me to tears.
i saved all my lunch money for a week, which is about $25, and i donated it to the hurricane relief fund at my church.
that means i went a whole week without lunch because i want to help these people as much as i can.
and when the tsunami hit sri lanka and indonesia, i donated money for that too.
i took a day off of school to be with my best friend at her grandpa's funeral.
i was there to help her get through it.
i was there crying with her.
i forgave my dad for abandoning us [my family] when we were younger.
i forgave my best friend for going out with my ex-boyfriend.
i apologized so many times for what i did to brandi because i know what i did was wrong and i just couldnt live with that, and knowing she hated me.
if you are reading this right now and was bitchy towards you sometime.
think about what you did to make me do that, because im not going to do that just because i like being a bitch.
but im sorry.
and if you took the time to read all this thank you.
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heya. [28 Aug 2005|08:01pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

oh gosh. its been so long.
im just lazy and busy.
good news.
i made varsity for cross country.
so im on JV volleyball, and varsity cross country.
i have no extra time for anything.
which is why i havent updated.

mmm, oh yeah.
these past two weekends i stood up in two quinces.
i was in alyssa's yesterday.
the after party was fun.
there was a lot of people, and she didnt have any drinks or anything, so everyone left except for a few people.
then her cousins went and got a keg.
so that was cool.
i didnt even drink much, though.
i did a keg stand, haha.
i didnt like it.
because i threw up right after.
i hate beer so much.

last friday i missed most of the day at school, because i went to amanda's grandpa's funeral.
it was so sad, i cried so much.
i've known him since i was little, and it was so unreal seeing him in that coffin b/c i was just at her grandma's house the weekend before, and i was talking to him.
so unreal, it was like a dream.

thats pretty much all i feel like updating about.
peace out.

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[03 Aug 2005|06:42pm]
[ mood | happy ]

guess who fuckin' made the junior varsity volleyball team?!

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yayuh! [02 Aug 2005|06:34pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

so, tomorrow is the BIG day.
team announcements.
i really hope i make it.
im pretty confident in myself.
i swear, i've never been this scared/stressed/nervous/anxious in my whole life.
this is what i've been working for all summer.
and if i dont get it, i dunno.
something bad.
uhm, i dont really have anything to write about.
just volleyball, b/c thats what i've been busy with for the past two weeks.
no hanging out, no movies, no nothing.
yeah, well.

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[20 Jul 2005|04:25am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

ok, so...
today i was actually unlazy and i decided to make my myspace all cool with a bunch of pictures.
so now everyone can look.
go here: http://www.myspace.com/6689424
just copy and paste.

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alright.... [15 Jul 2005|01:58am]
well i should've known...
not to let my guard down, and bring another guy into my life so quickly.
haha, i never knew i guy could make me feel like this.
you know, i probably regret asking about you.
"who was that guy with the hat?"
gosh, 7 fucking words!
i should have just kept my mouth shut.
and saved myself from this heartache.
NOW you can fucking apologize for my time.
NOW you can tell me not to bother.
i dont even know what to call you!
im speechless.
i dont hate you, but im just disappointed.
that you've turned into this totally different person.
you are not the person i knew last year.
thanks for breaking my heart.
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yayuh! [12 Jul 2005|08:50pm]
[ mood | im tirreddd ]

i have found a new love.
open gym.
haha, just playing.
but gah, volleyball is my life.
haha, i played bad today.
b/c im sore from going to the weight room yesterday.
tomorrow erica, we gonna go.
i cant wait till aug. 1.
but i CAN wait till aug. 15.
ugh, the gym floor has just been polished.
and the smell got on my shirt.
anyone know that smell?
haha, ANYWAYS!
oh yeah...

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no way out. [11 Jul 2005|09:32pm]
[ mood | stfu! ]

man, i had a long day.
well, not really. but
i had a hard workout.
went to the track, ran a mile.
went into the weight room.
and did the usual volleyball routine.
blah blah blah, theres more.
but im too tired to type it.

last night, erica and manda came over.
we watched coach carter, its REALLY good.
gah, and then we got hungry.
so i was like, "wanna go to the store?"
so we were gonna take my dad's truck b/c my mom wouldnt be as mad if she found out and i had taken my dad's truck where as if i had taken her car, she probably would have killed me.
so i start the tuck and pull out of the driveway and...
we cant figure out how to turn the lights on.
so we end up taking my mom's explorer.
it was a fun night, crazy!
but fun.

and im thinking about making this journal friends only.
b/c im tired of bullshit from bitches.

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anyone will do tonight. [09 Jul 2005|08:02pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

all guys just suck.
well, except for a few.
but, gah.
most of them are just assholes.
it makes me so mad.
almost to the point where i want to cry.

today andy brought jojo to pick up his video.
stupid fuckers.
now my mom knows they were here.
but anyways,
when they were driving off andy flicked me off.
i dont even know why he's fucking mad at me.

august first is getting awfully close.
so i've started running again.
what a pain in the ass, since i havent ran in like 28568769234 days.
with my ankle being hurt and all.
but, i am almost fully recovered, i just need a brace, so it wont happen again.
gosh, i have such high expectations of myself for this year. (in sports)
and i just know im not going to be happy with myself b/c i cant perform like i used to.
fucking injuries!


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[06 Jul 2005|05:17pm]
[ mood | sick ]

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i've adopted. [04 Jul 2005|11:44pm]
[ mood | angry ]

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.warped tour. [27 Jun 2005|12:06pm]
[ mood | bored ]

it was so awesome.
me and kevin had a great time.
we saw:
my chemical romance
senses fail
armor for sleep
hawthorne heights

i almost died while watching underoath.
everyone was going wild, like
i was getting crushed and some guy kept hitting me in the face with his elbow.
when fall out boy came on i went crowd surfing, and the third time i did it, i fell, but i was just like fuck it, and i told them to put me back up, and like 10 seconds later i fell again but this time i like slammed my face into the concrete when i fell.
and randomly joseph was right there, and he saw me fall.
i had a good time though.
i saw a lot of people i knew.
alright, thats it.

<3 ash

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happy birthday chelsey! [25 Jun 2005|11:59pm]
[ mood | tired ]

today was my sisters birthday.
my cousins too. it's cool b/c they're cousins and they were born on the same day.
they had a party at the park, and it was pretty fun.
we all went to the pool.
ha, im such a loser.
b/c i got yelled at for running.

my dad has this friend from work that moved here from mexico like a few years ago.
i take care of his son a lot, and today they were at chelsey's party and there was another person with them.
it's usually just my dads friend, his wife, and their two sons.
anyways there was an older guy with them.
and i was like, "i didnt know tony jr. had an older brother."
but anyways i was asking my dad about him b/c i was curious.
and tony sr.'s wife was standing right behind me and she was like, "do you want to meet him? b/c i'll take you over there to meet him."
ok, and if you know me, you know i'm shy.
so i was like, "no, no, i cant, im too shy"
but like before they left they were like, "come here ashley"
i was so shy, i couldnt even talk.
hes tony's nephew, and he is 17, and he's visiting from guadalajara, i hope i spelled that right.
when i was standing in front of him i just forgot all my spanish, and i couldnt even answer him, so we had to have tony jr. translate for us.
i felt like such an idiot.
that guy was really nice though, so next weekend, im going to show him around town. so i have to brush up on my spanish, so that i cant at least carry on a conversation with him.


warped tour tomorrow.

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haha, wow. [24 Jun 2005|12:44am]
Random Comic Generator v2.0 by Delya
Paper or plastic?
panel 1
panel 2
panel 3
Quiz created with MemeGen!

how funny is that?
panel two reminded me of andy b/c he always says 'gah' like napoleon dynamite.
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good, things are good. [24 Jun 2005|12:02am]
[ mood | anxious ]

well the spurs came through and won.
it's really exciting.
im so proud to be a spurs fan,
well i always am, but it just feels good to know what your team won the championship after a lot of people wanted them to lose.
ok well some of yall know how i have the spurs on my phone as a screen saver and it says "Go Spurs Go" and one of the guys that was at the rec on monday took my phone and changed it to "Fuck The Spurs"
yeah, i was pretty pissed off.
it just goes to show how immature these incoming freshman are.

i'm going to the movies with jose tomorrow
i'm really happy about that.
it just as friends though,
so calm down.
but i do like him.
there's just so much going on right now.
everything is just bad timing.
really bad timing.

<3 ashley

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ok, I'm updating now [22 Jun 2005|12:34am]
[ mood | awake ]

so lori wants me to update.
here i go.

the show at gordo's on sunday was awesome.
lenna did great, and a change of pace was too freaking awesome.
i have never screamed like that before.
oh and i got a busted lip.
cool, huh?

anyways, warped tour.
I'm going, and so far Kevin is going with me.
im still waiting on word from lori, michelle, brandon, and phillip.
it's going to be so awesome.
this is my first concert, so i'm really excited.

new love intrest?
maybe, maybe not.
i hope so, because i've liked him for a while now.
first day of school to be exact.
he is such a cutie.

i did something bad today.
i should probably die.
and i'm the worst sister in the history of sisters.
and brother tries to kill himself.
it scares me to death.
he's only 8!

and my mom was being really rude and judgemental of my friends.
she was like, "i dont trust that girl."
and i said, "why? you know her?"
and she said, "well, no, but..."
and then i interupted with, "well then dont judge her if you dont know her! gosh, i hate that crap, it's so stupid!"
and she didnt say anything back.

alright, i think thats a good update.

<3 ash

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Fedachi [18 Jun 2005|08:52pm]
so how is everyone doing? yeah well today i got picked up by lori at 9:45 in the morning for christine's sleepover. we went to go see lenna at redrum is was pretty cool.

ok i was gonna make an entry but this is gay so just forget it.




no but really.
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i have no words [11 Jun 2005|10:43pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

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