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Daniel Lucas

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[21 Feb 2010|11:07pm]
i get really self conscious sometimes. :(
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jeez I could so be a cullen with this constant taste of blood in my mouth [21 Oct 2008|01:14am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

okay seriously, constant bleeding from my mouth isn't fun.
I know I should floss everyday but it hurts and my teeth are so close together that most of the time I can't get the string in there, then when it gets in between it like shoots back there and causes a massive amount of blood to flow

I'm so calling the dentist tomorrow.

then I need to go get a pysical cuz I haven't ever met my doctor for the past 2 years of having one. hopefully I don't have something wrong with me.


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[10 Jul 2008|06:10pm]
Visitng my boyfriend is amazing, I just wish he didn't have to leave for work at 4am and not get home till 4 pm. This suckckckckkcs!

His mom is super amazing, so nice and sweet, I haven't met his brother, his mom came into the room just now to tell me she's going to get some food and to go watch tv with carlos, louies brother... I don't want to really, I think itd be akward... and I so don't want to meet his dad, supposly louies dads an asshole and still doesn't know that louie is gay. His dad had an accident at work so now he's paralized fromthe lower back down and usually just lays in bed. I'm hopeing hell just stay there the whole time. Hahaha.

Seriously... this town he lives in is SO fucking small. Its like the size of Ashleys and my familys living area... just the block... and its all mexicans... so when a tall blonde hair blue eyed boy goes into the only 2 pumped gas station.... lets just say its very akward. Hahahaha.

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[11 Feb 2008|12:20pm]

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[26 Jan 2008|04:19pm]
hey guys i wrote a blog about WBC


ive gotten a really good response.

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[04 Dec 2007|01:44am]

be jealous.
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[07 Nov 2007|03:23am]
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[11 Oct 2007|09:16pm]
I'm so stoked on life right now.

I'm going to England next month with Jeffree and go on tour with him. This is seriously so amazing.


Life is pretty good right now... I'm just really wanting to move to LA now!

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it ends tonite [17 May 2007|05:35am]
My life is such a fucking roller coaster of emotions. I wish for once I can be happy for longer than a week. When I was in LA I was the happiest person. I was with the boy I like, the friends that I love being with, doing the things I wanted to when I wanted to, just living life and having a blast. Then I come back "home" and try to live life enjoyably, if that's even a word... and I just can't. No matter what I do I'm not happy! And all I can do is talk about Mitch and SoCal. I've been taking so much vicodin just so I can feel numb and not feel likei have to deal with anything. I seriously feel like I have nothing, and no one. I don't want anyone to feel like I don't care abou them or don't feel the same, I love you all but this is how I feel.
I feel like I'm all alone in this world and will always will be. I feel like no one will love me the way I feel like I need to be loved. Not in my family, not in my friends, not in anybody. I feel like ill never be complete.
I'm so tired of all the pain that I put myself though. I know I can be happy, I know I can feel loved but something inside just won't let me. I look at everyone and they all have happiness in their lives, even if they do have sadness, I fake my happiness just so I won't die.
I miss being a child and not having any worry in my life, but its time to face it that I'm an adult and I need to stand on my own two feet and live.
All I want is someone to love and someone to love me. Life is just too much sometimes.
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[05 Mar 2007|07:47am]
Is it weird that I don't even wanna talk to guys on aim because I know they'll hit on me and all I want is Cory... let alone flirt with anyguy... I just can't.
All I think about is Cory... and its going to be 20 bazillion times harder once tour happens. Ew.
I wonder if I "really" like him... uhhh weirdd.

Another thing I'm screwed on is my living situation. I need a new place to live by the end of March, and don't have a clue of on...

But realy my eyes are clsing on me ima jus pass out now...

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[05 Jan 2007|10:56pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

im sitting here in my room.

im either gonna quit my job or end up getting fired.
like i love working there and i hate it all at the same time.

i dont know what to do with my life.

i am def going to start saving money cuz i need to be out of here by july..
i just need to.


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[26 Sep 2006|11:26pm]
So i liked this boy.
I liked him a lot.
We have been talking for about a year now.
We lived 9 hours away and still have never met.
We've been through so much and i loved him.

We talked everynight and he knew me more than anybody.

The whole distance thing really got to me and made me feel like we'd never be.
So i started to pretend and come off like i didn't care anymore and pushed him far away and did things that i would never do to a human being and treated him like shit.

We didn't talk for a long time after that.
I tried talking to other guys but none of them compared to him.

A few months later we started talking again... as "friends."
I was good with this... everytime we talked i wanted to be with him and never told him how much i cared.

He got a boyfriend.
This bummmed me out like whoa.
And hurt me just like i hurt him before but i never told him.

They broke up and this made me complelety feel up with joy.
We started talking again but again as just "friends"

I told him how i really felt a couple of days ago...
He doesn't feel the same anymore.
He's moved on.

Now we'll never be.
I guess i got what i deserved.
I lost the one i truely loved.

Daniel Hilton

a funny thing is when we were talking in the begining we discussed how much we loved Kelly Clarkson and how both of our favorite song was "I Hate Myself For Losing You." So that was "our song," even though it was a song about breaking up haha...

now this is my song to him...

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now, dyin' doesn't seem so cruel

And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here

You got what you deserved
Hope your happy now
Cause every time I think of her with you
It's killing me inside
And now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness of living without you

And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you

And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore

What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again
I hate myself for loving you
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[20 Jun 2006|10:35am]
im pretty sure i already added everyone on here

but if i didn't...



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[21 May 2006|07:40pm]
[ mood | shittttt ]

i drank SO much last night and felt like shit ALL day long.
drinking is bad.

but i might drink tonight.

im such a lush.

oh and a bad lush at that...
i got a message from one of the guys i hung out with's girlfriend/fiance saying
you're adorable and all... but dont touch my boyfriend ever again.


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[06 May 2006|09:41am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

i am so nearvouususs!!!!!!!!!!!

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[21 Feb 2006|03:10pm]

hi. can you see us?
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[13 Dec 2005|02:22pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

I was tagged.Collapse )

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[06 Dec 2005|07:57am]
[ mood | creative ]

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