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09 February 2007 @ 08:38 pm
9 Crimes -- a Brian/Justin fanmix  

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I really, really hope you all love and enjoy this mix. I spent roughly on and off two months choosing the perfect songs to best capture each specific scene and emotion involving Brian and Justin; and then another two days on the artwork. :p And I am so pleased with the results!!! I love how this mix came out, so I really hope you all enjoy it as well.

It strange to me that I chose to do an s5 mix, seeing how I loathe this season more than any other one. But for some reason the songs I heard just reminded me of all these different facial expressions and emotions within season five, and I wanted to be able to show a different side of Justin and Brian, revealing feelings that were not voiced in that season, with songs.

Please give each song a chance; and listen to them all -- I really think you'll be pleased with the ending. Yes, there are songs that are utterly devastating, but they are completely worth it.

Click on the images to download the songs.
And comment please! Comments are ♥

There really isn't that much to be said, words passed to one another as careless bits of afterthoughts, non-committal responses to his own incisive prattle. Justin wishes the low voice touching his ear would peak and rise with interest, that perhaps Brian may even release one of those rare chuckles of his.

A long pause stretches between them and the tiny metal phone in his hand feels empty and useless.

I miss you, he says, and somehow even that feels like a worn out phrase.

There are things that want to be said. Things like i wish you wouldn't go and things like i wish that you weren't moving so fast and leaving me behind --

unspoken words trapped in throats hoarse with guilt and regret.

There is a split second, a fractured moment in time that hangs and stills before breaking into all chaos once again, that Brian is absolutely terrified.
It's the kind of fear that squeezes deep in his throat, robbing him of all breath until he has to gasp desperately for it -- for deargod let him be alive.

Something rank fills his nostrils.

And for a terrifying moment, everything stops.

Brian smiles against Justin's ear; long arms winding across the front of his chest, nimble fingers skirting down the buttons of Justin's finely pressed suit.
It's a teasing smile, and Justin's eyes flicker in amusement to the curve of Brian's mouth as he whispers wonderful words of silly nonsense.

Brian thinks, silently to himself, that this is perfect.

So, it's alright with you then? Justin asks, the soft raise of his brow subtle in the warm light of the loft.

Brian looks away, but not before his face betrays that small wave of anguish -- a twist of his mouth, the tiny lines that form
and vanish at the corners of his dark eyes.

Yeah, he says, it's alright with me.

I thought you said you didn't want to live a life filled with regret.

The words settle between them, and for a moment Justin is hesitant. But then he crosses the distance, filling the gap between them because it is clear that Brian will not; and he touches his shoulder, feels that silent exuberance at the familiar sensation of warmth beneath his fingertips, that soft underlining scent of all that is Brian filling his senses.

I did, he says.

Brian's eyes flicker for a moment, before dulling once again.

Then why are you here?

Justin's lips curve at the corners, and suddenly everything seems so simple. Then he is kissing Brian and christ it feels so good that -- after three months and twenty-seven days and godtoomany hours -- it is finally Brian's mouth, firm and sweet and there -- against his own.

Brian pulls away, and there are questions in his eyes, shrouded with dark secrets of pain unspoken and nights unslept.

Justin smiles, softly; and there is a tender reassurance in the way he threads his fingers through the edges of Brian's hair, traces his mouth with the underside of his thumb.

I'm making sure I never regret a single thing again.

songs + cd cover art zipfile

Credit for the origonal caps goes to qaf-caps.com and kwaf. All the above images were edited and created by me, so please give credit to diet if you take or use.

Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
the future is bulletproof: brian/justin - last kisserraticonstilts on February 13th, 2007 03:01 am (UTC)
eeee! this mix is fantastic, definitely worth the wait. ones that particularly stand out to me are bloodsport (love that song!), the last high (i've always thought that was such a brian song. i think we've talked about this before), hear me out, the scientist (woo i'm so glad you decided to use it! the part you bolded is the part i think is most them), tragedy, and all i need.

i love the graphics (yay black and white), and how you interspersed little bits of fic in between the songs that helped explain what was going on and where they were in their relationship. OMG you should write qaf fic! the mix is excellent, seriously. i love it :D i'm downloading all the songs i don't have, thanks!
Rebeccadiet on February 13th, 2007 04:58 am (UTC)
Oh my goodness you like it, thank you!!!!! And thank you so much for telling me what songs you particularly liked.

Bloodsport is such an awesome song -- I like the dirty feel to it. And of course Last High had to be used for Brian. -giggles- I've wanted to use that song in a mix since the first time I heard it. I LOVE Hear Me Out. I love that song so much, and I actually added it in at the last moment. I wasn't going to include that scene at first.

Thank you for the Scientist, it really worked out for that scene, and I'm so glad we were both drawn to the same lyrics in that song. ^^

Oh gosh, isn't Tragedy devastating? It is so beautifully tragic, and I think it just fits that last time of theirs. :\ And I am SO happy you liked All I Need. ^-^ It's such a special song. You have to give it time because it moves along slowly, but once it reaches the end it just crests into this beautiful moment. -sniff-

OMG you should write qaf fic!
Oh my gosh, you've totally made my night. -huggles-
Kung Pao Chicken?: bj - 513 kisscuemypulse on February 13th, 2007 05:27 am (UTC)
omg. I am so excited. SERIOUSLY. I cannot even comment on how beautiful this post was. I love the black and white photos and how you cut in parts of fic. I feel like I'm going to bawl my eyes out while listening to this mix. *downloads immediately*

♥ You are too awesome.
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:46 am (UTC)
Hee. Thank you so much, KT. I really hope you like the songs after you download them. ^^ Tell me what you think, okie?

I love the black and white photos and how you cut in parts of fic.
-squeeze- Thank you so much for telling me that. ^^
She manufactures illusions...: Chopstickswordsalone on February 13th, 2007 05:32 am (UTC)
I haven't downloaded the songs yet but I will! I promise. You put together a really wonderful collection of songs. Thank you so much for all of your hard work!

"The Scientist" is a song that just breaks my heart whenever I hear it. Chris Martin & Co. are geniuses as far as I'm concerned.

Also, thanks so much for using "Grace." That song always makes me cry because it reminds me of Denny (a.k.a. the perfect man). Hopefully, it'll take my mind off of that.

Thanks again!
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:44 am (UTC)
Your icon is AWESOME. XD I love it.

And thank you so much! I really do hope you love the songs when you give them a listen to. ^^

Denny from grey's? Hm, I don't remember Grace related to him . . . for me it is Chasing Cars that always makes me think of that last episode of his. :\
(no subject) - wordsalone on February 15th, 2007 01:27 am (UTC) (Expand)
_partlysunny_ on February 13th, 2007 05:43 am (UTC)
There are no words to express how I feel right now. Just amazing. My goodness I'm beyond excited to hear this. Great choice of songs: Coldplay, Imogen Heap, Kent, Damien Rice, etc. <3

I don't know why I have the sudden urge to cry but it's so moving. I'm speechless and just gah. You out did yourself. Beautifully done, I can't praise you enough.

I LOVE IT!! Thank you so much for all your effort, it definitely shows your passion towards it. :D
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:42 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, Sadie.

I know what you mean about feeling sad about it. Gosh, there were several times when I would find myself almost crying while I was putting this mix together. When I would look through the screen caps for different moments, I had the song for that moment playing so I could really capture the essence of it all. Gosh, songs like You Could Be Happy and Pills just tore at me. -sighs-

But I hope you liked it still. ^^
It was all worth it in the end.
~~~moon__river on February 13th, 2007 05:44 am (UTC)
this is fab! i'm DLing as soon as i get to my home computer.

ps. i've always thought of B/J during Snow Patrol's You Could Be Happy too! that song makes me ache. I need to go drink some wine now, thx. and while we're on the subject of B/J/SP, have you ever thought "Run" would have been amazing as the background of their last love scene in 513?

Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:36 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! Tell me what you think after you've heard the songs. ^^

I remember that song! Oh, I've not heard it in a long time, but it is gorgeous. You are right -- it would work beautifully with that B/J scene. But I wanted more of a tragic, slow and sad feeling to it, rather than something pulsing. But thank you nonetheless!
lastglances on February 13th, 2007 05:46 am (UTC)
wow. this entire thing is amazing. the black & white photos. the song choices. your commentary. i wish i could say more, but this is just amazing.
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:33 am (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much. Everything you said meant very much to me, so thank you for the comment. ^^
Moonwitch Iconsmoonwitch on February 13th, 2007 06:01 am (UTC)
Dandys ♥ + Snow Patrol ♥ + Cat Power ♥

I really like this. You've done a great job. :3
Moonwitch Icons: pa &; cbt samuraimoonwitch on February 13th, 2007 06:03 am (UTC)
Oh, my favourite bits are your writing inbetween the songs/graphics.
(no subject) - diet on February 14th, 2007 12:32 am (UTC) (Expand)
cantresistgale on February 13th, 2007 06:03 am (UTC)
i can't wait to listen to it all!!! will comment again once i have!
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:31 am (UTC)
Ooh, thank you! And be sure to comment because I would love to know what you've thought of the songs. ^^
scrap of sassafras, eh sisyphus?sister on February 13th, 2007 06:12 am (UTC)
this mix has seriously rekindled my b/j obsession!!
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:30 am (UTC)
Your comment wins at life. ^-^

now go make more of those rare beautiful b/j icons!
akasha6: BJ akasha qafakasha6 on February 13th, 2007 07:26 am (UTC)
So many great new songs for me.....TY so much for this post. You did a wonderful job here.......the pics are amazing:))
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:29 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you think so. And I am especially glad that you got the opportunity to find new artists! ^^
piazza new york catcherlaughforthelove on February 13th, 2007 08:15 am (UTC)
OMG imogen heaap.. and and and everything else... it's all just... AWESOME, BRILLIANT AND AWWWWWWWWWW ROLLED INTO ONE.

I ♥ you even more for doing this!! The song choice is beyond incredible. THANK YOU!!!! You are just full of awesome and brilliantness.

Can't wait to download all of em'. ♥
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:28 am (UTC)
-blush- Thank you so much, lovie. This mix means a lot to me, so thank you so much for your compliments. ^^

Do tell me what you think of the songs after you've downloaded them!
i've missed you so much._sara_pie_ on February 13th, 2007 10:31 am (UTC)
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:26 am (UTC)
Thank you! ♥
Still want him in your pack?_alicesprings on February 13th, 2007 12:01 pm (UTC)
Wow. This is so amazing! Beautiful. Well done.
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:26 am (UTC)
Thank you very much. ^^
Sorchasorcha5 on February 13th, 2007 02:32 pm (UTC)
MAGNIFICENT. I can't imagine the time you spent making this!
We're having a blizzard here and it's so wonderful to find this to listen to and stare at the gorgeous photos you added to the songs.
Favorite is Damien Rice, love him but listening to "All I Need" which I have never heard it might well be the best song on the mix ! Great B/J lyrics...
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:25 am (UTC)
Oh goodness, thank you so much for this comment! It means a lot to me, so thank you very much. ^^

. . . but listening to "All I Need" which I have never heard it might well be the best song on the mix !
Oh my goodness, that is truly wonderful. To me that song meant so much because it was that binding moment between Brian and Justin -- and it is such a subtle yet meaningful song. So I am glad you liked it. ^^
kiraciii on February 13th, 2007 05:41 pm (UTC)
It's really wonderfull ;_____; I love it! Thank you VERY MUCH :) :) :)
Rebeccadiet on February 14th, 2007 12:22 am (UTC)
You are SO welcome. ^^