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[12 Feb 2005|01:47pm]
add it.

[05 Feb 2005|02:19pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

so i guess i got the internet back.
kind of. our phone is turned on, but the jack in our room doesn't work.
so i have to use their(richards mom & her boyfriend) computer.
i reallyreally hate using someone elses computer.
so i probably won't be on much.
anyway, i'm about to start a new journal, i think.
i guess because i feel i'm starting a new chapter in my life.
kind of lame, i guess.
but whatever.

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[16 Dec 2004|07:22pm]
[ mood | cold ]

i haven't been on here in almost three months. crazy.
now i live in jackson. still with my richard.
we live with his mom & pseudo-biker boyfriend. i hate living with them. but it was nice of them to let us move in.
& i quit my job almost a week ago. without warning. & i still haven't called. the people totally sucked & deserve it.
& um, duh, we don't have the internet still. but i've managed.
i read some. okay, tons. i'm almost on nerd status.
i'm at brandons now. listening to them talk about guitar crap & his dad talking about a candle lighting the house on fire.
but um i guess i'm done. because i don't like typing out my life with four people in the room.
so i guess i'll update whenever i can. probably in another three months.


[20 Sep 2004|11:42pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

kay. this weekend was kind of crazy.
waking up at seven in the am. two days in a row. jackson & apartment hunting. bush signs in the rich fuck neighborhoods & ten seconds into the ghetto, huge kerry signs. proven points. whoa!!1 that's fucking scary. exoctic hair desgins. his family reunion. & i like his family tons better than mine. too sick to work. but i did it anyway. happy meals & hello kitty toys. waking up too early & can't go back to sleep. ew.
&& it's gayyyy that my mom went crazy & we have to move out like three days after my birthday. & i don't think it really matters if we have a place to go.
but it's okay!!1 we're going to jackson tomorrow to look for jobs & we're gonna look at another apartment. & if we like it & they let me sign two weeks before my eighteenth, we're so getting it. we're packing our shit & leaving while she's at work. & she doesn't know.
but, if we don't like it, we're gonna look for something else & if we can't afford anything else, WE'RE GONNA NEED A ROOMIE. this is why this post is public. we might need someone. we'll probably take anyone that we kind of know. but you can't suck & you have to listen to good music. just because god forbid & vanilla ice don't sound good together. so if anyone reads this, that lives around jackson & maybe wants some roomates or to move. email me or leave a comment. cross__myheart@hotmail.com.
i'll know after tomorrow if we'll need one.
it's crazy the stuff people post on livejournal nowadays.

this is because i'm bored.Collapse )

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[31 Aug 2004|09:34am]
[ mood | kay ]

i don't update much. probably because i'm uncomfortable with the idea of random cunts reading my journal. i never have 'real' updates. probably because i go & delete the entrys seconds after i type them out. & holy fuck!!! this is my journal. i shouldn't have to dwell on whos reading or if i'm going to piss someone off. so um duh;

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[21 May 2004|11:46pm]
[ mood | tired ]

i worked eleven hours today. we needed someone tonight so i said i would. it wasn't as bad as i thought. plus i needed something to do; richard went to jackson to practice with his band & i didn't want to attend. & now im sitting here in my jammers listening to the deftones super loud, because theyre loveler, waiting for him. && doing thisCollapse )


[19 May 2004|08:17am]
[ mood | okay ]

pedro died. it saddens me bunches. i had him for a day & i got so attatched.
so last night we went & got a tiger something fish & named him nemo. he's super cute. & hopefully he'll last longer than a day.
on a more positive note; i wanna go out this weekend. with some friends. but i don't have money for gas or to really do anything, seeing as how i only have eight dollars & my mommy doesn't give me money like every weekend & doesn't fill my checking account up every week. & i'm not sure who i'd hang with. okay so maybe that wasn't positive?

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[18 May 2004|09:01am]
[ mood | good ]

some people really do suck. no, really. & now i remember why i don't hang with the people i used to. theyre either a) high out of their minds all the time & listening to nu metal like it's still cool. b) two faced bitches that claim to be your best friend one minute, then go talk ridiculous shit to another best friend whom they've done the same thing to. or c) they just fucking suck. mostly c.
kay anyway. i had an awesome weekend.(except for being super sick sunday & still having to go into work, because they 'couldn't get anyone else to come in') richard & i went to jackson saturday. & i spent a little more than a hundred dollars. & now my total comes to thirteen or so. yeah, i know. almost two hundred dollars in less than two days. but it's okay-i'll get paid next week. & i WILL NOT blow it. nonono.
& yesterday i bought a fish. i can't spell or really remember what it is. but it's orange & white with black stripes. his name is pedro & i'm sure i didn't spell that right either. we were gonna name him nemo. but he looks mexican, so richard named him pedro.
&&&! FAYE; i wanna see you sometime before you leave, so uhm, call me since i'm never on, my numbers in the previous entry, & we'll work something out?

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[13 May 2004|07:43am]
[ mood | good ]

i for serious never update anymore. looking back, i used to like every second of every day. i'm never on either. i guess it's because i have a job, my boyfriend here all the time, & we go out-a lot, & maybe i don't have a reason to be on anymore. so, if anyone ever wants to go out or something, you can call me at 6627859.
on another note; i'm getting paid tomorrow. & i reallyreally don't need to blow it all like last time. but i'm a girl & when we get money we want to shopshopshop. & i'm going to jackson saturday. & probably to the mall. but i can't spend more than like a hundred. probably not even that much. & it sucks. i know i'm gonna go to AE, A&F, buckle, victorys secret, & it's gonna be OV(over). & while i'm near there, i think i might stop by the OHC, seeing as how i haven't been there yet. or maybe i won't. thats like ten dollars i could spend on clothes. !!!

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[10 May 2004|07:30am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

so i got my hair done thursday. & i hated it. the blonde was okay. but the auburnred was reallyreally gross. i wanted an auburn/copper color. but they put the red on first, THEN the blonde. the red was on for over thirty minutes & it was supposed to be on for like twenty or twenty five? so instead of it being auburn or copper it was bright ass crayon red. & to me that looks really tacky. but i didn't say anything, cus i wanted to get out of there. so i go around with that mess on my head until yesterday. i dyed it dark brown. it didn't cover all of the red. but it's more of an auburn color now. & it's kind of cute.
&& i still haven't gotten my scores back. but my mom called my teacher & he said he thought i only did bad on the math. so this morning i have to call & see if i failed another part & if i can take those over this month, which would be this saturday. i hope i can. i don't wanna wait til like july to start beauty school.


[06 May 2004|07:32am]
[ mood | anxious ]

i forget why i've been up since six thirty. & why i'm eating goldfish & drinking kool aid at seven in the morning. but whatever. i've been watching the memphis news & everytime i've watched it, it's made me sad some how. like this morning there was a fire & a three year old died. & it made me super sad. i hate when bad things happen to really young kids. it's so not fair.
but on a good note; i'm excited for work today. why? cus i'm getting my hair did after work. i hope i can get the blonde. i want it. reallyreally bad. & i guess i'm going to talk to someone about attending beauty school sometime soon. that is, if i ever get my fucking scores back.
&&! tomorrow!!@$!


[17 Apr 2004|09:45pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

i took my test this morning. i know for sure that i did terrible on three parts of it. reading & english are the only ones that i know i passed. on the math, science, & essay i totally blanked. & during my science the teacher lady was making THE noises while she was eating. & yeah, no that didn't help. thanks. i got done around one thirty & went shopping for pants for work. & i got a cutecute purse. then i came home & talked to richard for all of thirtysomething minutes. then i had work. it was okay for the first thirty minutes. then the big glowing ball in the sky shifted a little to my right, where it stayed for a good two hours, all up in my grill. this resulted in one of the worst headaches of my life & my being an asshole to everyone that came in between the hours of five thirty & eight. && to make matters worse, it was soso busy & peoples orders kept getting messed up. i was for serious thinking about banging my head on the counter about a trillion times.
after work, i came home & talked to richard. & fell asleep on the phone. then i got up to put the phone on the charger & it woke me up. like always. & i tried to send him messages on his phone. but it appartently hasn't worked. or else i would be talking to him right now instead of doing this. i miss him a lots. wake up mister. pleasepleaseplease.


[15 Apr 2004|09:30am]
[ mood | tired ]

i've been super busy since saturday. i went to look at cars. & i fell in love with a mercury blahblahtriowhatever. & the key was heart shaped. but i couldn't get it. my moms credit sucks. & i don't have any. & it made me soso sad. but it'll always be in my heart. richard called when i got home & asked if i wanted to go to his grandparents with him for easter. duh. so sunday i had to get up super early again. i met him at ten. we went to his grandparents. i met most of his family. & they were all really nice. before we left we went to a park. he pushed me on the swings. & i pushed him on the merry go round. & it was cute.
i stayed at his house til yesterday. it was the bestest. like always. we came back here & had cuddles. then i had work. i had to wear a shirt that was like a billion times too big. i felt total gangsta.
i go to class for the last time tonight. this saturday i take my test. & i need to look over some math stuff. i reallyreally hope i do okay. everyone is sure i will. i hope i don't let them down. especially him. after the test i'm going to look at more cars. & going shopping. & then i have to work.
i woke up this morning with the biggest urge to listen to norma jean. reallyreally loud.


[09 Apr 2004|02:08pm]
[ mood | sad ]

this is the first time i've been on in like a week. a tons happened in a week. i met richard in jackson saturday night. we hung out with some of his friends. & went to steak n shake. & i never want to go there again. our waitress sucked at everything. but i didn't care. he was there. beside me. with my hand in his. like forever.
we got home around three. it was tons of fun.
the rest of the week we did a lot of nothing & everything at the same time. like going grocery shopping. & to marshalls to check prices for stuff we'll need in our apartment. & going to target & trying on bunches of clothes just cus. & dancing in my kitchen. & me giving my all to play guitar. but i still sucked. & making a cake for my moms birthday. & cuddles. & i'm rick james bish! & kisses. && he left about an hour ago. & i miss him. i hatehatehate being away from him. he left his guitars here & i've been running to the window everytime a door shuts to see if it's him. but it never was. i wish he would have came back. i wanted one more hug.
ohoh! i got a job tuesday. at taco bell. i start tomorrow. so i can't hang with faye. but we can make other plans. &&! i'm getting up super early in the morning to go look at cars with my mom. i'm sosooso excited.

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[02 Apr 2004|03:50pm]
Your next Date.... by hellostarkitten
Will be on:April 20, 2004
You eat at:Krystal
Your bill is:$84
Who pays?Neither of you..(RUN FOR IT!!)
Then you go:To the park
You get home :just in time for work/school
2nd Date?no
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

thats a ton of krystals.
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[30 Mar 2004|05:43pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

today was a good day. richard got a job. his first try. lucky boy. it wasn't good at first, cus we thought we'd never get to see each other. but like always, we found our way through it. i have to wait one more day before i see him this weekend though. butbutbut! he gets to stay from saturday until sometime wednesday. yayay. i for serious can't wait. i miss him times forever.
ohoh! & some things have really been annoying me. like, kids that live for their 'scene'. it's fucking pathetic. why get so wound up in something that won't be a year from now? why not live for something WORTH living for? you won't have the scene forever. yeahyeah; 'live in the moment.' 'be a teenager while you can.' this is true. but some kids take it too far. they base their whole lives around this. maybe it's just me; but that's sosooso sad & almost makes me want to puke out my brains for days on end. & almost makes me not want to ever go to a show in a memphis. or any big city. or a show ever again. i thought 'hardcore' was about the music & being united & welcoming people that were 'different.' not douche bag 'crews' & giving people awkward stares the first time they come to a show. maybe i'm wrong.
& as for local bands; why give your money to something that'll fade with time? whywhywhy. i've heard a few locals from memphis. & if i wanted to listen to norma jean, i could just stay home.
kay. the end.

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[29 Mar 2004|06:02pm]
it's funny how your worst enemies always seem to turn out to be all of your best friend's best friends.
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[29 Mar 2004|11:13am]
[ mood | good ]

dirty dancing is the bestest movie ever. i can never watch it too many times. ever ever. i always cry when johnny has to leave. it's so sad. just thinking about it almost makes me cry. i lovelovelove that movie.

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[27 Mar 2004|02:39pm]
chris carrabba needs a haircut.
the end.

[27 Mar 2004|04:22am]
[ mood | silly ]

i just spent almost an hour trying to do something to my journal. some of the overrides messed up & i'm special, so it took me a while to find the problemo. lamelame.
instead of doing this i totally should be sleeping. but i can't. there was a snake in richards yard today & it creeps me. yes. a snake, that is now no longer breathing life, that was in memphis, an hour & a half away, is keeping me awake. hush it. i keep hearing noises in my room. paranoia, for sure. but still. theyre coming for me. i know this.

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