FFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!! i just ordered the stupid flat iron and then after i ordered it i realized there was an ad for a coupon code at the top of the page. fuck. i'm so dumb. this is why i'm not impulsive. because whenever i try to be impulsive i screw something up!!


You Are a "Don't Tread On Me" Libertarian
You distrust the government, are fiercely independent, and don't belong in either party.
Religion and politics should never mix, in your opinion... and you feel oppressed by both.
You don't want the government to cramp your self made style. Or anyone else's for that matter.
You're proud to say that you're pro-choice on absolutely everything!

har har




i just watched an american crime. OMG THAT MOVIE IS ALL SORTS OF FUCKED UP. it's really good though! and stars ellen page. and james franco was in it and i wasn't expecting him, haha. i have been making an ultimate list of movies i need to watch!! it's exciting. so if you really think i need to see something tell me and i'll add it to the list!


omg aww luke finally realized that he and lorelai should be together!! it only took four seasons!

the snow is melting. it looks so.. i don't know. i look outside at the cemetery and there's still a lot of snow but you can see the grass. it's weird.

i need to type out this fucking hilarious scene in gilmore girls. it actually made me lol. but first, let me tell you about my epiphany yesterday. well i don't know if it happened yesterday but i vocalized it yesterday. and that is: love is love, and lust is lust. because i'm not gonna judge someone on who they love, but what about someone you don't love? just because it isn't serious doesn't mean you can be looked down upon for whoever you happen to be fucking around with. i don't care! i don't care if you're 18 and he/she is 60, i don't care if you are gay or straight or bi or asexual and i don't care if your lover/partner/boyfriend/girlfriend is. i just really think that people don't ever include just lust. yeah people say love is love, but that doesn't include people who aren't in love and who don't have any plans or whatever to be in love. i don't know. i'm just rambling.

i also really really want to plan my wedding XD the funny thing is, yesterday i was also talking about marriage and how i have no plans to get married for at least ten years, and even then it's so iffy. when i was dating colin i was young and naïve and i thought we would spend the rest of our lives together and blah blah blah. and i seriously can't imagine thinking that again.. breaking up with him was the most eye-opening experience ever. it made me realize i don't need a guy to be happy. and that relationships don't have to be and probably aren't going to be really serious. and it made me realize bad things too.. i mean, i would love to meet someone and think that we're so in love and we'll be in love forever and nothing will ever go wrong, but i just can't believe that anymore. i know a lot of marriages work out. i can name people whose parents are still married. but i'm just too cynical to believe that i will fall in love with someone who is in love with me and we really will spend the rest of our lives together. and even then, i don't know if marriage is right for me. because if something were to go wrong, you can't just get out of it like you can if you're not married.

it's funny.. i worked with this girl rayna at joann, and she had been with her boyfriend for five years and she told me when they started going out, she didn't expect it to go somewhere, she just went with the flow.

on this whole marriage note, if i ever do get married i really don't think i'm going to change my name. habgood isn't common! and as much as i hate it because it's so annoying and uncommon and for some reason no one can pronounce it, it's my last name! and it's part of me. and i don't know if i want to give that up for a marriage that might not even work. my aunt didn't change her last name and my parents complain about it whenever someone brings it up. i'm sure they will just be soo proud of me when i tell them this. my parents can be so traditional and conservative sometimes, it drives me nuts.

anyway, back to where this all began.. i don't know if i want to get married, but i do want a wedding! how depressing is that? but i want a wedding, and i want a small wedding. and i want it to be outside on a beautiful day, in a beautiful garden. and i want to wear a simple cute dress and i want to wear converse or something along those lines. and i don't want people to dress up. only me and the groom will be dressed up, but we'll actually be "dressed up" because i'll have converse on. and he can wear, i dunno, some band shirt with nice black jeans and a blazer or something. AND HE WILL HAVE A SEXY BEARD. and i want someone i love to marry us, not some minister or whoever marries people. i want someone to get ordained online and marry us. like my brother, because that would be absolutely ridiculous.

also, me and sam both want our funerals to be like in ps i love you. we want people to take shots or whatever they do in that movie.

i feel like such a loser for all this wedding talk. i think it's time for me to type out the long quote that made me lol.

(they're at a bachelor party, some chick offers luke a lap dance and he says no and stands up)
TJ (the groom): you gonna stand all night?
luke: if i stand, there's no lap to dance on, everything will be easier.
TJ: wow that's something there
luke: what is?
TJ: well you just said, about your lap. the fact is: there is no such thing as a lap
other guy: come on
TJ: think about it: it's there when you're sitting, but it's gone when you stand.. so where does it go? it doesn't go anywhere! meaning it never was! so a lap is just an illusion!
jess: are you gonna sit?
TJ: he doesn't wanna make a lap
other guy: a lap is an illusion!!

yeah that's funny shit.


oh my fucking god it was AMAZAZING. so fucking good. soooooooo fucking gooooooooood. i am fucking exhausted though so i'll maybe go into more detail tomorrow. all i know is suburban legends is fucking bomb, as is goldfinger, and big d and less than jake continue to amaze me. seeing bands you love live is such a fucking fantastic experience. i've decided i want to see big d as many times as i can. as long as the rest of the show will be good, haha. and fucking less than jake. i've never seen them before and holyyyyyyyyy shit. it was amazing. and also they are amazing because they don't fucking only play their new songs. they played songs that i fucking know and fucking love and i got to scream/sing and wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

SKA IS THE FUCKING BEST. how could anyone not like ska? how is ska not the most popular thing on earth? tell me how you could choose fall out boy over fucking ska please.

okay i'm going to die or something so BYE.


Books from the 100 Most Frequently Challenged Books of 1990-2000 that I've read:

Scary Stories (Series) by Alvin Schwartz
Harry Potter (Series) by J.K. Rowling
Goosebumps (Series) by R.L. Stine -- i've read a couple, anyway
A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L'Engle
Go Ask Alice by Anonymous
The Stupids (Series) by Harry Allard
The Witches by Roald Dahl
Anastasia Krupnik (Series) by Lois Lowry
To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes -- or an excerpt, in our eighth grade literature book
A Light in the Attic by Shel Silverstein -- i think?
The Anarchist Cookbook by William Powell -- yeah okay i haven't read it but i've read parts of it. exciting! also exciting is Steal This Book
Are You There, God? It's Me, Margaret by Judy Blume
Carrie by Stephen King
Where's Waldo? by Martin Hanford -- okay so this doesn't really count
How to Eat Fried Worms by Thomas Rockwell -- ahem, my kindergarten teacher read this to us

and the books I plan to read:
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain -- for school. wait, is that what we're reading?
The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
The Giver by Lois Lowry
Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes
Cujo by Stephen King -- mostly because i'm kind of interested in reading anything by stephen king
American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis
Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Lord of the Flies by William Golding

also, a hilarious story about my dog. it happened a while a year or two ago, but i just told it to people and cracked up.

one day she looked fat. bigger than usual. and my parents kept talking about it. then she went outside and i was there, and she threw up. and then she looked normal again.


in other news, drugs hate me.

ps the entry before this is hilarious. especially the last link.


Movies to see:
An American Werewolf in London
Boondock Saints
Breakfast at Tiffany's [again]
Dead Poet's Society
Dirty Dancing
Empire Records
The Exorcist*
Fight Club
Garden State
The Hills Have Eyes*
How to Marry a Millionaire
House of Wax*
The Mole People
My Fair Lady
Pulp Fiction
Run Lola Run
Sin City
SLC Punk
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre*
V for Vendetta


Books to read look into, and read if interested:
The Looking-Glass Wars by Frank Beddor
Ham on Rye by Charles Bukowski
Post Office by Charles Bukowski
Running with Scissors by Augusten Burroughs
House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski [in progress]
Crank by Ellen Hopkins
Rhymes with Witches by Lauren Myracle
Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
Naked by David Sedaris
The Beatrice Letters by Lemony Snicket
The End by Lemony Snicket
Cathy's Book by Sean Stewart and Jordan Weisman
The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan
Walden by Henry David Thoreau [again]
Cocktails for Three by Madeleine Wickham

This is just for myself. Because..I'm cool? *makes another list*

to do:
study for finals
get boxer pattern
get pajama pants pattern
buy fabric
get freezer paper
try stenciling
blah blah!

PS Colin's funny because there was an empty green tea bottle in this .. dresser thing. So I decided I'm going to be like Colin and hide my trash instead of throwing it away. Fun stuff.

Also, it's really fun to not update for weeks at a time. I want a Vespa.