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let me break the ice

One Look Could Kill, My Pain Your Thrill.

Today i've been so depressed.. I can't help it.

I talked to D again, I was happy for a few minutes.. Hung up and reality sunk back in.. He doesn't want me like I want him, apparently.

Once I get gastric bypass I know i'll be happier. It's inevitable, I have to. I can't live like this, not anymore.

I've had it with everything & everyone.

♥ C
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let me break the ice

I Hear Your Voices, When You Call.. I Am Your Angel.

So, i'm sitting here talking to my friend C from facebook, he goes to my school & he seems really cool. We made plans to hang out tomorrow, I can't wait to see how that goes. It should be good to get my mind off of certain people and I really do think we'll connect because we like a lot of the same stuff.

I saw D once today and I didn't really feel much of anything, although I did smoke with him last night and we took a walk around the school and stuff. It was fun, ya know. But I really don't think there will ever be anything between us after what he did to me, I will never fully be able to trust him, ever. Yes, I did like him a lot but thats the past, and I need to focus on the future and the well being for myself.

I really hope that something can happen for me soon, I really do want a relationship, I truly think i'm ready to commit to a relationship again, I miss feeling loved and wanted and being able to share my thoughts and feelings with someone who will never judge me.

I've just been so down lately, I can't help it.

♥ C
let me break the ice

.. don't let it go to your head.

you can slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

i really can't take life anymore. it's too depressing. too much stress, too many problems. i wish everything would just go away and i wish everyone would leave me alone. i'm so lonely & nothing will change that. i just wish for once in my life i could be happy & be able to do the things i want to do and not worry about the consequences. i have no date for prom which is upsetting & i just wish someone can come into my life & make everything better, but i know that will no happen because i could never be that lucky.
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