alicia collision. (__liliaceae) wrote,
alicia collision.

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I am in the shittiest mood because my plans always get messed up and I never really get to do the big things I spend so much time planning. Instead of going to Boston next year like I've been planning for a while, I might have to go to Towson and there's a possibility I might have to live at home. Fuck this, I'm going to Boston even if I have to go alone.
Honestly, why must people stray from plans? Is it really that hard to just do what you say you're going to? I really don't want to have to spend a year at a school I don't want to go to in the first place when it's not my choice to go there. Fuck that.
If I do go to Towson, I am NOT living at home. Steph and I are going to get an apartment. Since I'm sacrificing the school and city I want to go to, I might as well be able to live where I want in Towson. That's ridiculous.
So, I'll spend my summer not going on any vacations and making my own clothes because I will have to work my ass off to be able to pay for everything without even being able live where I fucking want. At least Towson apartments are a little cheaper than Boston and Steph will be living with me. I just wish I had known all of this before I got so excited about going to Boston. That always seems to be the way it is, though. I'm easy to let down.
I am so upset.

Edit: I have gotten over it and I think that it'll be nice for a year, though I'd rather not have to transfer twice. Living with Steph in the city will be great.
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