January 10th, 2005

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School went suprisingly well today. Today was the first day since November that I participated in gym. It almost killed me, but man it felt good. I'm so good I can actually work out now. I forgot how good it feels.

I don't think Chemistry is kicking my ass half as bad now. I have everything turned in & I'm keeping up with all my work. English looks good too. Our final for Communications is a speech, so that isn't too bad. I actually can't wait til finals because I'm tired of the classes now. I definitely need a change.

Things are good, bitches... things are good.

PS} I lost the X-Mas cards I was gonna send to the people who wanted them, so you'll probably get them really late, or you'll get V-Day cards :)

I feel slightly retarded today.

Oh yeah, & I got my ACT scores back. I got a 21. I know I can do way better.
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I can't sleep so I'm up doing some research.

Friday, I went to the gynecologist. She's told me before that I have polycystic ovaries, so thats no suprise. Everything came out normal this time, I don't have any cysts on my ovaries right now. Mom told her about the ongoing health issues I've been having, & how she suspected it could have to do with my adrenal glands. So my gynecologist is supposed to refer me to an endocronologist to get me checked out. That's sort of scary. If I really do have problems with my adrenal glands, it could take surgery or radiation to treat it, & I don't want to go through that. I'm so tired of being sick. I'm tired of always being sick & never knowing the cause of whats making me sick. Its been like this for me since I was really young, & I'm just so tired of explaining this to everyone. I'm sick all the time. I don't know what else to tell you. Sometimes I get so sick, I'm immobilized. Other times, I can deal with it enough to function. Being sick all the time is keeping me from living normally. Do you really think I enjoy staying home from school, being miserable? Do you think I stay home & play video games & have fun? Hell no. I'm miserable. I'm a nervous wreck. My body hates me.

So kiss my ass.