Since someone showed my dad my LJ, & apparently I trash talk people & I worship satan, I'm not going to be using this journal anymore To the asshole who showed my dad my LJ, thanks a lot. You can go to hell.
I'll comment in your journals with my new name to let you guys know it's me.
EDIT!!!!! I AM TAKING EVERYONE OFF MY FRIENDS LIST ON THIS JOURNAL. MY NEW LJ IS
I have honestly lost all hope for everyone. Every time have faith in people I am always let down. So what's the point? I used to think giving someone the benifit of the doubt might be worth it, but now I know its not.
People are changing lately, & not for the better. Yes, I know everyone changes, but these changes are fast & significant, almost like they shouldn't have taken place. It's pretty much people just trying to be something they're not, or giving into something they once detested, which makes no sense. I'm finding out a lot of stuff about people that I never DREAMED would be the way they lived, but apparently its true... so weird & disappointing.
I've also noticed that I'm becoming bitter. I'm always angry, & I'm always talking about how something is pissing me off. I don't want to be that person. I KNOW those kinds of people, & I cannot see myself being one of them. I certainly do not want to be one of those people that I myself look at now & think "why are they so angry? whats the point?"
I'm not saying I'm perfect in any way, but people just disappoint me so much lately. Its almost gotten to the point where I just want to stay inside all day so I won't have to associate with them. I don't want that to happen.
& I hope I don't have to make anymore entries like this.
My brother was supposed to pick me up from school today at 2pm, right? Well he didn't. I was at the school til just a few minutes ago when Mrs. Bowling offered me a ride. My appointment was at 3:30pm in Charleston, so mom had to cancel & reschedule which will cost my dad $50 dollars because we didn't give 24 hrs. notice.
None of this would have happened if dad would just take off a day to take me to the doctor. He never takes off to take me to the doctor, its always someone else & sometimes I feel like such a burden to people because they're always hauling my ass around.
I haven't seen my therapist since January 4th. You can't begin to imagine how crazy I'm going.