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[13 Feb 2007|01:00pm]
hey everyone! this will be my last entry in this journal. i have created a friend's only journal, so if you want to be on that one please let me know. the username is darkangeleva. leave me a note on the first entry and i'll add you:)

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omg a fucking update! [15 Jan 2007|05:31pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

yes, yes, i know it's been a while (shut up, erin) so i decided to, in an exclusive LJ post, let everyone in on a few little secrets.

secret number 1 - doug, kaety, and i are moving on friday. just across town, so no worries, but we definately need our own place again. it's a miracle i havent' killed anyone living here.
secret number 2 - i'm pregnant again. yes, please hold back your shock. i found out about a week and a half ago, and i'm due on september 13. we are very excited and hoping for a boy this time.

well, that's it. i need to go get packing, as i only have 3 days to utilize, but there's my shocking secrets, and my update for now!

(♥ me not)

2006 [01 Jan 2007|03:31pm]
happy freaking new year, people. so much has happened that i don't even know where to start. but i thought that since it's a new year that it merrited an update. anywho, here are the highlights (good and bad):

Feb 14 - kaetlynn was born. she is the best thing i've ever done.
March 23 - My grandpa died. worst day of my life.
April 4 - got my 2nd tattoo, also doug's 22 bday
July 1 - i turned 21....woot!
July 7-Aug 6 - SLRF. it wasn't the easiest job i've ever had, but definately one of the most fun.
Sept 23 - my and doug's one year anniversary. it was a fun night:)
Mid October- we moved from our house into doug's parents' house
Nov 1 - started writing my novel...it would be finished but my computer crashed...

kaet learned to walk, she grew 6 teeth, she can say some words, and she's smarter than any 10 month old i've ever seen.

Doug decided to join the military.

and now a 2006 survey..

2006...
1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before? i gave birth

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i did...i didn't get pregnant again...lol and yes, though i havent' decided yet

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? i did

4. Did anyone close to you die? my grandpa

5. What countries did you visit? the good old USA

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? sanity

7. What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? i listed these above

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? having and raising kaety

9. What was your biggest failure? i dont' want to talk about this

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? a broken toe

11. What was the best thing you bought? um........i really don't know

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? douglas

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? certain people whom i will not name

14. Where did most of your money go? food and bills

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? kaety

16. What song will always remind you of 2006? "time in a bottle" by jim cross

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier

b) thinner or fatter? thinner

c) richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? lots of tihngs

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? lots of things

20. How did you spend Christmas? with family

22. Did you fall in love in 2006? yup, with kaety

23. How many one-night stands? none

24. What was your favorite TV program? f.r.i.e.n.d.s, and lost, and scrubs

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? yes and at the same time a huge resounding no

26. What was the best book you read? captivating

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? hagred

28. What did you want and get? my daughter

29. What did you want and not get? 10 million dollars

30. What was your favorite film of this year? pirates of the caribbean 2

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 21, and got drunk...lol

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? if i still had my own house

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? comfortable

34. What kept you sane? douglas

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? im still gonna say johnny depp

36. What political issue stirred you the most? the elections i guess

37. Who did you miss? laura

38. Who was the best new person you met? nicole

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006. you don't know what tired is until you have a baby.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: there's not just one....lol

(♥ me not)

quotes from anita [22 Dec 2006|03:47pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

taken from "Incubus Dreams" by Laurell K. Hamilton

Sometimes you fight what you are, and sometimes you give into it. And some nights you just don't want to fight yourself anymore, so you pick someone else to fight.

I promised not to poke at things anymore. I promised not to break things if they were working. I promised not to stir up shit, if it didn't have to be stirred. I said a little prayer to help me keep those promises. Because, God knew, that the chances of me keeping any of those promises without divine intervention were slim to none.

What is love? What does it feel like in its rawest form? Lust, need, desire, and that aching want, as if the center of your body was carved out and hollow, and the only thing that can fill it is the person that you're touching.

What is love? Sometimes it's just letting yourself be who and what you are, and letting the person you're supposed to love be who and what he is, too.

There comes a point where you just love someone. Not because they're good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn't mean you'll be together forever. It doesn't mean you won't hurt each other. It just means you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it.

I'd like to say that I had something equally salacious to say, or something sauve, but for the life of me, the only thing I could think to say, was, "okay". It wasn't sauve and debonair, but when you love someone, you don't always have to be sauve and debonair, sometimes you can just be yourself, and okay said at the right moment is sweeter than any poetry and can mean more to someone that all the pillow talk in the world.

"You have the look of a fallen angel, ma petite. An angel does not stop being an angel merely because they fall from grace; their wings are not so easily taken."

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the keys to my heart [14 Dec 2006|04:01pm]
[ mood | blah ]

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

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keep an open mind... [12 Nov 2006|06:01pm]
just a note to all you LJ friends who don't do myspace. i cut off my hair. as in i can spike the back of it. it's realy cute, and i like it. just wanted to let you know!

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on military pay... [02 Oct 2006|08:40pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

a friend of mine posted this on her myspace and it pissed me off to read it. especially as the daughter, granddaughter, and wife of a future military man. it really makes me wonder why no one complains about the pay of sports stars, or movie stars, or musical artists...people who have much less important jobs than protecting our country....anyways, just read and you'll see what i mean...

This is an Airman's response to Cindy Williams' editorial piece in the
Washington Times about MILITARY PAY, it should be printed in all
newspapers across America. On Nov. 12, Ms Cindy Williams (from Laverne and Shirley TV show) wrote a piece for the Washington Times, denouncing the pay raise coming service members' way this year -- citing that the stated 13% wage was more than they deserve.

A young airman from Hill AFB responds to her article below. He ought
to get a bonus for this.

"Ms Williams:

I just had the pleasure of reading your column, "Our GIs earn enough"
and I am a bit confused. Frankly, I'm wondering where this vaunted
overpayment is going, because as far as I can tell, it disappears every month between DFAS (The Defense Finance and Accounting Service) and my bank account.

Checking my latest earnings statement I see that I make $1,117.80
before taxes. After taxes, I take home $874.20. When I run that through the calculator, I come up with an annual salary of $13,413.60 before
taxes, and $10,490.40, after.

I work in the Air Force Network Control Center where I am part of the
team responsible for a 5,000 host computer network. I am involved with
infrastructure segments, specifically with Cisco Systems equipment. A
quick check under jobs for Network Technicians in the Washington, D.C. area reveals a position in my career field, requiring three years
experience with my job. Amazingly, this job does NOT pay $13,413.60 a year. No, this job is being offered at $70,000 to $80,000 per annum... I'm sure you can draw the obvious conclusions.

Given the tenor of your column, I would assume that you NEVER had the
pleasure of serving your country in our armed forces. Before you take
it upon yourself to once more castigate congressional and DOD leadership
for attempting to get the families in the military's lowest pay brackets
off of WIC and food stamps, I suggest that you join a group of deploying
soldiers headed for AFGHANISTAN; I leave the choice of service branch up to you.

Whatever choice you make, though, opt for the SIX month rotation: it
will guarantee you the longest possible time away from your family and
friends, thus giving you full "deployment experience." As your group prepares to board the plane, make sure to note the spouses and children who are saying good-bye to their loved ones. Also take care to note that several families are still unsure of how they'll be able to make ends meet while the primary breadwinner is gone -- obviously they've been squandering the "vast" piles of cash the government has been giving them.

Try to deploy over a major holiday; Christmas and Thanksgiving are
perennial favorites. And when you're actually over there, sitting in a
foxhole, shivering against the cold desert night; and the flight
sergeant tells you that there aren't enough people on shift to relieve you for
chow, remember this: trade whatever MRE (meal-ready-to-eat) you manage to get for the tuna noodle casserole or cheese tortellini, and add Tabasco to everything. This gives some flavor. Talk to your loved ones as often as you are permitted; it won't nearly be long enough or often enough, but take what you can get and be thankful for it.


You may have picked up on the fact that I disagree with most of the
points you present in your opined piece. But, tomorrow from KABUL, I will defend to the death your right to say it.


You see, I am an American fighting man, a guarantor of your First
Amendment rights and every other right you cherish. On a daily basis, my brother and sister soldiers worldwide ensure that you and people like you can thumb your collecive nose at us, all on a salary that is nothing short of
pitiful and under conditions that would make most people cringe. We
hemorrhage our best and brightest into the private sector because we
can't offer the stability and pay of civilian companies.

And you, Ms. Williams, have the gall to say that we make more than we
deserve? Rubbish!

A1C Michael Bragg Hill AFB AFNCC

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a brief synopsis of the weekend. [25 Sep 2006|11:30am]
[ mood | blah ]

i can't believe that it's been one year already. on saturday doug and i celebrated our one year anniversary. we had the whole weekend to ourselves, with kaety at doug's parents house. we rented movies friday night (tristan + isolde, v for vendeta, and gone with the wind), got ice cream and booze, and had a good night just spending time together:) saturday night we went to bella notte for dinner and omg it was so good. i had carmellized scallops for my antipasta, and then crab stuffed whitefish for dinner. and tirimisu for desert. sooo good. when we got home i gave doug my present which included candles and rose petals and a trip to victoria's secret earlier in the week (thanks eryn!), but i'll leave the rest of the evening to your imagination. it was really nice to just get to be together without any interuptions.

but now it's over and done and we're back to everyday life.

kaety is getting bigger every day, doug's joining the navy as soon as he looses some weight, and we're moving to brooklyn in a month. and i have therapy again this afternoon. w00t well i'm hungry. so i'm gonna go eat something. and that is all.

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i wonder [10 Sep 2006|03:34pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

tell me when it will ever get better?

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here's the lowdown [06 Sep 2006|08:35pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

i know it's been a while since i posted something real, so here it is. the latest developments. the short story.

on the baby front: kaety is now almost 7 months old, officially over 17 lbs and has started standing up on her own. she pulls herself up onto everything and attempts to walk. although she isn't so good at that. at all. but she's really excited that she can stand by herself now. me, on the other hand, worries that she's gonna kill herself. we've already had some scary falls resulting in lots of bumps and tears.

in regards to me and doug: things have gotten better lately as we had a long discussion and figured some things out. we're both being more considerate of each other (or at least i'd like to think i am, i know that he is), and though we still argue about things (as every couple does), we're getting back to where we used to be. i was really upset the other night (i'll spare you the boring details) and he pulled me into the living room, turned on music, and we slow danced for a good 15 minutes. it made me feel better:)

on my relationship with God: well, you see, here's how it is. we've been having a lot of discussions lately and i've told him that i want to trust more and be the woman who he created me to be. and then he decides to call me on that. with something that i'm not entirely happy about. actually not at all. but i know that it's something i have to do. or rather, let douglas do. more on this once i actually know what's happening. just pray for my sanity.

other random crap: the tree outside our house is swarming with thousands of wasps (fun! *sarcastic laugh*) and last night i saw 12 (count 'em) 12 bats flying above my house. i had never seen bats before except in the zoo (yes i know, keep your shocked gasps to yourself please), so it was quite a cool thing for me. and we finally have a bed frame. i've virtually been sleeping on the floor for years now and so this is exciting. and weird. i actually can't reach the floor with my feet when i'm sitting on the bed. but it has shelves and drawers to store stuff. it's pretty awesome.

anywho... im gonna go get something to drink and read my book for a while before heading to bed. and that is all. goodnight.

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originally posted in june 2004..... [28 Aug 2006|09:10pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Quotes from A Ring of Endless Light
By: Madeleine L'Engle


"And you do things like go to church and saying grace and zuggy stuff like that. I don't know anybody else in the world who does all that. And the weird thing is that in spite of it all you're real." ~Zachary

@}~`~,~

"You're sanity in an insane world. You're reason where there isn't any reason. Reason to live. I need -- Oh, I'm so damn confused." ~Zachary

@}~`~,~

"If we knew each morning that there was going to be another morning,
and on and on and on, we'd tend not to notice the sunrise, or hear the birds, or the waves rolling into shore. We'd tend not to treasure time with the people we love. Simply the awareness that our mortal lives had a beginning and will have an end enhanses the quality of our living. Perhaps it's even more intense when we know that the termination of the body is near, but it shouldn't be." ~Grandfather

@}~`~,~

"We do have something very special going, Vicky. You know that. Our chemistry really works. Why don't you just let go and enjoy it?"
"I do enjoy it, Zach, but--"
"But me no buts. I can quote Shakespeare, too. I'm not as illiterate as you may think."
Swiftly, Zachary turned himself so that he was kneeling, facing me. He was right about chemistry. Ours really fizzed. It fizzed too much.
And I saw Adam's face, felt Adam's hands, not Zachary's. Why did Adam have to interlude? He hadn't called me; he'd made it quite clear that all I was to him was a child. And even if he wasn't jealous of my communicating with the dolphins, it wasn't bringing us any closer. Adam didn't want me, Zachary did. So why was he superimposing on Zachary, like a double negative? I did not like it, and I couldn't blot out his image.

@}~`~,~

"It was small comfort to know that I was more on Leo's mind than he on mine, because it gave me a vague feeling of responsibility toward him.
Zachary was like being out in a storm. It was exciting and frightening at the same time.
Adam represented the grownup world, the world of the lab, and Jeb Nutteley and Nora Zand and all the other scientists there. And Adam was swimming out to meet Basil, and sharing the loveliness of Norberta and Njord. But if I was more on Leo's mind than the on mine, the reverse was obviously true with Adam and me. I thought about Leo only when he called, or I was going out with him, or he was taking Zachary and me to or from the mainland. But Adam appeared in my mind without warning or reason.
Did he ever think about me except in connection with the dolphins and his experiment? Not likely. Does it ever even out, what two people feel for each other? Or does one always care more?" ~Vicky

@}~`~,~

And the best is last.....

@}~`~,~

Adam was at the beach ahead of me, standing on his head.
I body-surfed in, stood up, shaking waster, and splashed in to meet him.
He flipped over onto his feet and I looked at him wonderingly. "I called you --"
"And I came," he said.
I moved toward him and we were both caught and lifted in the light, and I felt his arms around me and he held me close.

(♥ me not)

stolen from amy, rachel, and katie [28 Aug 2006|08:31pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Name: shaula kirstin hutt

Single or Taken: Taken

Happy about that: yes

Eye color: greeny brown

Height: 5'7"

What are you wearing right now?: alpha 1 shirt and gap shorts

Righty or lefty: Righty

Can you make a dollar in change right now?: sure
----------------------------------------------------------
FAVORITES
Kind of pants: my shiny ones

Animal: white tiger

Drink: rum

Month: im gonna say.....september

Juice: grape

Favorite cartoon: um...hte old school stuff that doesnt' suck...like TMNT, pinky and the brain, stuff like that. and anime.
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HAVE YOU EVER...
Given anyone a bath: kaet gets a bath every day

Bungee Jumped? no

Made yourself throw-up? definately not

skinny dipped? who hasn't?

Loved someone so much it made you cry? yes

Broken a bone: my foot junior year of highschool

Played truth or dare?: fingers rocks!

Been in a physical fight: quite a few

Came close to dying: a few times

Been in a hot tub: yes!

Fallen asleep in school: in college yes

Ran away: just down the street

Broken someone's heart: yeah

Cried when someone died: yes and i miss my grandpa terribly

Fell off your chair: probably

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: in highschool

Saved AIM conversations: yes, the ones that are important to me

Made out with JUST a friend?: yes

Used someone: probably

Been cheated on: yes

---------------------------------------------------------------
WHAT IS...
Beside you: computer stuff

Last thing you ate: chocolate
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Ever Had...
Chicken pox: yes

Sore Throat: every day

Stitches: twice; from my wisdom teeth and katie's birth

Broken nose: no
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Do You...
Believe in love at first sight: lust yes, love no

Long distant relationships: they suck

Like school: i did when i was in it

Question yourself: every day

Who was the last person that called you? dad

Who makes you smile the most: katie

Who knows you the best: douglas

Do you like filling these out: sure

Do you get along with your family: sometimes

------------------------------------------------------------------

Final Questions:

What did you do yesterday: um...stuff?

What car/truck do you wish to have: a flying car.

Have a lava lamp: doug does

How many remote controls are in your house?: um....7?

Are you double jointed? no

When you last showered: this afternoon

Scary or Funny Movies: funny

Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

Rootbeer or Dr. Pepper: Dr. Pepper

Silver or Gold: silver

Diamond or pearl: diamond

Sprite or 7up: cherry 7up

Coffee or tea: coffee.

Phone or in person: depends on what i have to say

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Today did you...
1. Talk to someone you liked: dad, chris, erin, douglas,kaet

2. Buy something: nope

3. Get sick: yes

8. Talked to an ex: no

9. Miss someone: yes
________________________________________________
Last person who....
10. Slept in your bed:doug

11. Saw/heard you cry: doug

12. Made you cry: doug

13. Went to the movies with: um.....doug, rob, nick, josh

15. Said "I Love You": doug

16. Ever been in a fight with your pet?: plenty of times

18. Been to Mexico: nope

20. Been to Europe: not yet
_______________________________________________
Random.....
21. Do you have a crush on someone right now: im married to him but sure

22. what book are you reading now: captivating

24. Future KIDS names: connor michael, eva marie, rachael something...

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yes i do

26. What's under your bed: carpet

27. Favorite sports to watch: hockey and martial arts

28. Favorite Locations: my bed and wisconsin. and deep in the woods or at the beach.

29. tattoos or piercings? 4 piercings in each ear, navel, nose and tongue, and 2 tattoos.

30. What are you most scared of right now?: something

31. Who Do you really hate? i could tell you but then i'd have to kill you

33. Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with? everyone has...

360. Are you lonely right now?: yes

38. Song that's stuck in your head right now?: you and me // lifehouse

39. Have you ever played strip poker: like once

40. Have you ever gotten beat up?: nope

41. Ever lied or cheated? unfortunately

42. Have you ever been on radio/TV: yes

43. Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: its great fun

44. Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed?: yes
_______________________________________________
Random...
what color is your underwear right now? white, pink, and blue

Whats the first things you notice about the opposite sex?: eyes and smile

Your Favorite Food?: mexican and thai

Ever get so drunk you dont remember?: once or twice

Are you too shy to ask someone out?: i don't need to

Hugs or Kisses?: both together

dogs or cats?: cats, but I do like dogs

Favorite Flower? daisies

Have you ever fired a gun? yuppers

How many pillows do you sleep with?: 5

What are you missing right now: someone

Do you think (any of) your ex(s) miss you: maybe

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gentlemen, start your engines... [15 Aug 2006|02:49pm]
well, it's official. i didn't want to mention anything until we knew, but the first 4 boxes are packed. we are moving in a month and a half. we have a house we're working on getting, but if that falls through (heaven forbid) there's a forclosed home auction on sept 19 and the starting prices for some of those houses are less than $500...i shit you not. but in any case, by Oct 1 we will be out of this house and into a new one. i've started packing now so that there's less work to do later. just things we won't use in the next month...winter clothes and stuff. but every little bit helps, you know! anywho, pray for us that this all works out smoothly. im working on getting back into school too, so that's another huge thing.

on the baby front, kate is now 6 months old. here is a picture of her in the pool a few weeks ago...


and one of her trying to swim...



she crawls everywhere and since she's teething BAD, she's in a constant state of sliminess.

well that's all for now, i need to get back to work!

(♥ me not)

and so the story is complete [07 Aug 2006|08:50pm]
well that's it, SLRF is officially done for the summer. 5 extremely long weekends, 8+ hours a day in the heat and humidity, smiling and playing and being happy with everyone despite real life. and now it's over. i must say that while i will miss everyone dearly, for they have become part of my family, for now i am relieved. i know that come saturday i won't know what to do with myself. and that i will miss being in garb (but who's to say i can't dress up at home?). but i definately need a break from the happy, carefree though-somewhat-evil Ellyllon whom i have been playing this past summer.
im drinking a nightcap which i have come to love thanks to cameron, and missing the fun nights we had at sam's house playing fingers. (hey, how do lesbians have sex? lol). we're gonna party soon and that makes me happy:)
it feels to me like camp is over and i shall miss my special "summer" friends until next year. and so i must say...

to my cast: you have meant so much to me and i have come to love you all.
erin: even though i give you alot of shit, you really do make a good queen:)
matt: we're the most kickass pirates ever!
jess: you have been a special encouragement to me and you have no idea how much that means.
kendra: thanks for putting up with me though i know i wasn't very good at my job:)
dave and paul: i've been rouge blades fans since the first time i saw a show, but it's made faire all that much better for me knowing that i am your friend. and paul, i love the monkey:) hehe
KOI: those of you whom i got to be close to will always remain in my heart. i feel like i can learn a lot from you and i appreciate the friendship you have shown me.
katie and steve: you guys are great and put up with so much from us that i don't know how you do it but i thank you that you do:)
and finally my douglas: i know that things have been hard for us lately and i know that im not the easiest person to live with, but i thank you for your understanding, your patience, and your love for me. i love you so much.

that's all i can say for now, except that i am looking forward to october when we audition for next year and the cycle begins again. live the magic:)

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quick update [24 Jul 2006|02:56pm]
[ mood | blah ]

well here it is, my first update in only God knows how long. faire this weekend went well overall. obviously there were minor setbacks with things such as "visiting royality" and kids attacking erin's pony, along with the kid who was seriously convinced that he was a knight of the round table and went around attacking people including threating matt and i. it was great fun. i had my own personal reasons for not liking yesterday including but not limited to feeling sick all day and the fact that im not on meds and i need to be, but we're not going to go into those details here for it is neither the place nor the time. well i'm about to get ready and go over to megan's to hang out with her and kenny and go swimming, so i'm outa here. peace.

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*sings* la la la la la la la la la la la SLRF! [10 Jul 2006|12:31pm]
[ mood | blah ]

well the first weekend of SLRF is over and complete. i was terribly nervous friday but really it went ok. saturday we had a record number of people for opening day and for a faire that wasn't suposed to happen this year, that's amazing. we had a tv crew, i had my pictures taken by some media guy at the sponsor dinner, and yesterday at the drum jam josh, doug, and i had the guy from the kalamazoo gazette (? maybe it was battle creek..i can't remember...) taking pictures andd writing down our names. it was very cool.

im really excited about the fact that we're making a difference in teh lives of the kids who come to see us. i've had the same little girls come up to me several times and want to show me the dance that erin and i taught them. and i mean yes i love to play dress up and walk around and be someone else, but we really are doing something worthwhile. we're supporting the american cancer society this year which i am so glad about since my grandpa just died from cancer.

the soak-a-bloke drench-a-wench contest had been a lot of fun to run and we've gotten a lot of people to participate. the coolest thing though had to be yesterday afternoon during our jail scene we arrested josh and doug after erin was set free and then i got to have them tied up and they had to dance and sing for their freedom...needless to say, i let the audience help me decide if i should release them and they said no. so it was back into jail for the criminals. very cool:)

erin had an asthma attack yesterday and then i almost passed out from my own lovely problems...yay so much fun. i am so sore though this morning. my feet are so bruised and swollen that i can barely walk adn my legs are burning, but i still wouldn't trade it for anything.

so all that being said...faire runs for 4 more weekends (though doug and i won't be there this coming weekend) and the themes are as follows - july 15-16, celtic weekend; july 22-23, romance/corination; july 29-30, fantasy; august 5-6, pirates!

so every one of you should come because its great fun. yesterday the powers that be told us that between the cast and KOI (knights of iron) we are disneyworld. how cool is that.

and that's all for now folks.

(7 ♥ me+♥ me not)

pictures [14 Jun 2006|10:04am]
two more pictures from the other day.

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that is all.

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its a quickie [12 Jun 2006|06:40pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

so for those of you who don't know, this weekend sucked. shit with my mother-in-law and doug having to work friday and yeah it was just bad. the best part was probably saturday night, we had a bonfire and doug and i took a walk on the golf course and he sang to me and we danced. its things like that that make me remember why i love him so much.
on saturday we had rehersal and first we handed out flyers at the worlds longest breakfast table in battle creek. it was great fun. see?
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thats not what im actually wearing for faire, but good news.....i got my dress in the mail today! im hot....lol

anyways, i need to figure out what's for dinner. so i'm outa here.

much love!

(♥ me not)

new sn [02 Jun 2006|05:23pm]
just so everyone knows, i'm gonna start using one of my old SN's every once in a while for AIM, so incase you want it, its SeXyPirAte85.

(1 ♥ me+♥ me not)

a little ventilation... [02 Jun 2006|05:15pm]
can anyone tell me why i love to torture myself and relive past pain? i was going through old entries that i have in here and it was all good and happy until i got back to when adam and i broke up and all the shit taht went along with that and before that and seriously, why do i make myself go through that again? i don't love him anymore, given the chance i would never ever go back to him, but it still hurts, you know? the entries i had when doug and i first got together were great and it makes me smile to read the notes he left me. like when he said that he'd be a bad husband. ha. thats a lie if i've ever heard one:) but the other things, they just hurt.

oh, just to let anyone know who cares, i'm not pregnant.

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