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Aug. 22nd, 2005

06:48 pm

You Are Boot Cut Jeans

You're fashionable and sexy - in an understated way.
You're more about looking good than following the latest look of the week.

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Aug. 8th, 2005

03:11 pm

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will...You will have your heart broken probably more than once, and it's harder every time...You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken...You'll fight with your best friend...you'll blame a new love for things an old one did...You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you dearly love...So take too many pictures...laugh too much...and love like you've never been hurt...Just remember, every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back...

Current Mood: blankblank

Jul. 28th, 2005

11:50 am - letting loose

There comes a time in every relationship where enough is enough...no matter how good the friend...no matter how close the relationship seems to be...sometimes you just have to learn to "let loose". I was told by someone I care about very deeply that I have always had a leash on her...that I never let it get too far. And i agree with that 100%. I think that as long as you value your friends...no matter how impersonal the relationship...you have to keep a leash on them...not so much a tight one, but you can't let them get too far away. Apparantly my leash has been too tight and that leash is made up of many expectations that just lead to dissapointment on my end...so it's time to "let loose"....NOT let go...just let loose. Time to let my friend be whoever she wants to be...to whoever she wants to be around...and time for me to accept that the person she wants to be around is not always going to be me. Time for me to accept that all the "little things" I value about our friendship are not always going to be there...because they seem to be reserved for other people. But that's okay..because seasons change in any relationship...just like they do with the weather...and soon (I hope), this season will pass..and a season where I get the good end of the deal will come around...and until then...i'm just going to have to sit back...and "let loose"..............

Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
Current Music: something on PBSKids

Jun. 17th, 2005

10:23 am - Ugh

Okay...so it's been forever since i've posted...because i don't have time to sit down much less journal...could be why i feel like my head's going to blow up...too much pressure. Anywhos....I have decided that I can't stand feeling like I'm a better friend to everyone else than they are to me...selfish, it may sound...but screw it...i'm tired of being unselfish..i'm tired of giving my all for everyone else..for them to give their all to other friends who crap on them...ok..so most of their friends crap on them.....take, for example....the infamous "CG"...how often do i sit and listen to her whine and cry about her boyfriend??? I go out of her way for her birthday....I didn't even get a card....so she was having money problems...she always has money problems...couldn't find 50cents in her car to find me a card? We have free paper at work...she always could have written something down....whatever....so last night....is her last day of work...i go and spend 3 hours in merrilville finding her something that would make her feel special and like i was going to miss her..because even thru it all..i will....so i bring it in..and the guys got her something too...which was so awesome of them, yeah....and she gushes forever about the guft the guys brought her....and says well, not that your gift wasn't sweet...but i expected you to do something nice....how thoughful were they..can you believe it??? puke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There goes the 50 bucks i spent in flowers, a cake, and stuff from bath and body works. I wanted to take the stuff back and slug her..for really slug her. Maybe I should have. Then there's my best friend...who i feel is my best friend in the whole wide world...and has been for 13 years...(not 10 like "K"...but 13..we met when I was turning 13)...must say i'm kinda feeling discounted by her too...her mom..that feel like i'm close to (well..as close as you can be to her mom)..is in town...and we call another friend to meet everyone...didn't even know she was here...i like ice cream too..and guess what...I live in valpo..i would have waited around forever and not gone back home...and as mad as you may be to read this my love...i do fight for your friendship....i feel like i'm in constant competition...but oh well...don't get me wrong, it's worth it...but still..its still frustrating.....oh well....guess i'll get over it.....i'm going to send this before i chicken out....

Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated

Jun. 8th, 2005

12:53 am

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cuz love doesnt hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
All my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Current Mood: confusedconfused

Jun. 7th, 2005

10:13 pm

You scored 62% sweetness, 40% intelligence, 14% rage, and 48% lunacy!
You are Dot! You're catchphrase is "I'm Cute!" and people know it. You can charm and manipulate with the best of them, but they'd better watch out, or they'll end up with more than they bargained for!

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You scored higher than 33% on lunacy
Link: The Which Animaniac are you? Test written by AuroraStarlite on Ok Cupid

May. 24th, 2005

06:07 am

Off to bed..not necessarily a bad day..."CG" was definately not at her worse...kind worried about my girl, though (yeah..you know who you are)...it crushes me when she's sad and i can't fix her...but i know she's tough and will be okay...and will call me when she needs me...i don't want to call her and be too pushy with her...it's going to be tough to not text message her for a little while...because i love to...but i don't want to get her thinking it's someone other than me...and get disappointed to find out it's not..hmmmmm...wonder if she's coming by this morning or not...but anyway...i need sleep...while i still can...hope kirsten's doing better too...i hate not being able to fix people...

Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: espn that kelly left on the tv

May. 23rd, 2005

03:31 pm

You Are Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"We saved the world. I say we have to party."

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03:12 pm - Very Fun Quiz

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

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03:07 pm

What a day what a day..i wish it would decide if it was going to rain...Kylei's being a little too quite now....kinda scary..hmmmmmmmm

Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: none..yay

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